Jeremy.
I wanted to tell him I was confused, to tell him that I was scared of our bond. Of what was going to happen. Of my family and criticism from people. But how could I when I couldn't even speak? I didn't have the strength to.
I was weak from the pain in my chest I'd been trying to endure for hours. I wanted to tell him how sorry I was. I didn't mean to treat him so shitty early this morning.
After our moment the previous night, I guess I panicked and for some reasons, I didn't know how to react to his sweet gestures and stares. I wasn't used to him being this way. Never in my life have I felt the type of pleasure I felt with him. I didn't even think the body could react to pleasure to the point of ecstasy. I couldn't even believe my body was supposed to react to every touch to the point of passing out from it. Hell, I never thought I would ever feel this way with someone. Not this soon I didn't.
