"What do you want Ronan?" I glared at him.
"I want to talk to you" he said, "can we talk?" he asked.
"Are you actually for real? All of a sudden, you want to talk, of all days this day had to be the day you finally grace me with your presence" I shouted sarcastically.
"Please can we just talk?" he asked again.
I hissed and made a move to walk out, if he wants to play this game, I'm ready. He cannot just come out of the blues wanting to talk to me after what he did.
All of a sudden I bumped into Hades who was busy smirking at me. I scoff and moved past him with Ronan in tow. I get to the car park only to discover that the gang isn't present. I groan. I really wanted to make an elegant getaway. I turn to face Ronan who was to close for comfort.
"Ronan, leave me alone" I stated, pushing him back,
"Jade please hear me out" Ronan begged, holding my hands. I tried prying my hands from his but of course the oaf is stronger than me.
"What do you actually want to say to me Ronan? I don't want to listen". I shouted finally frustrated. I couldn't keep my emotions buried anymore.
"I really wanted to talk to you days before but you shunned and ignored me, that's not all, I had those depressing thoughts again and you weren't there, you weren't , so what the fuck do you want to say to me?!!!!" I screamed in tears. Ronan out of the four of my friends is the one I'm closest to, he knew about my failed suicide attempts and the reason I wanted to commit suicide which was to meet my parents, he also knew about my uncle and made me promise to tell him any time I had depressing thoughts. Ronan hugged me and I cried on his shoulder, he played with my hair and apologized. After some minutes, we pulled back with me hiccupping as usual.
"Are you better?" he asked and I nodded my head smiling a bit. I think I needed that. I punched him.
"Why did you do that for, what did you want to tell me? I asked.
"Errrm, it doesn't matter anymore" Ronan said, scratching his head which I know is just his nervous twitch.
"I just wanted to tell you the reason I had been behaving like a jerk these days. I needed some time to myself" he stated which I knew was a lie or he was saying a half truth. I glared at him, honestly these rollercoaster emotions are making me tired. I face palm.
"Are you going to tell me what you want to say or do you want me to get it out of you" I folded my arms looking at him.
"Okay, promise me you wouldn't freak out" he stated, and I nodded just wanting to get him to spit it out.
"I.....I.....I kind of like you, like really like you" he finally blurted.
"What" I spluttered. I was in total shock, nothing could've prepared me for that statement.
"I know, I know, you don't like me" he stated.
"It's painful but I'm just going to try suppressing it, I didn't want to tell you because I don't want to lose my friend, I really don't know why I just told you this" Ronan stated.
I really didn't know what to say especially because I don't like Ronan that way. I mean I like him as a friend, I think. Ughhhhhhhhh.
Ronan sighed, "see you tomorrow Jade" and he walked off in the direction of his home. I wanted to call him back so we could wait for the gang and go home but he already left which I think is for the best because I'm still speechless. Ronan is good looking, honestly he could get any girl to like him with his attitude, he's so generous and understanding, he's funny and nice unlike that pig headed Hades. Ughhhh why did I think about Hades right now. I couldn't help but compare both of them, even though I hate to think this, Hades has his moments too, he's actually a nice guy to everyone except me with a pinch of strictness, it's like everyone acknowledges his "power" and accomplishes anything he tells them to do without hesitation, especially his close friends almost as if he's the head of their cult group (I wouldn'tbe surprised though), his mismatched colored eyes can stare right into your soul. He's annoying though, I frown. Why am I thinking about Hades now ?, ughhhhhh, my brain. I saw the gang come up to the parking lot.
"Where's Ronan" Jeanine asked.
"He left already" I stated.
"I thought he said he was going to apologise" Rebecca tried to whisper to the Jeanine and Mike.
"He did already" I mumbled getting into the car.
"Okayyyyyyy, that's fine right? What's got your panties in a twist? " Mike asks, starting the car, driving towards our house.
"Nothing" I said lost in my thoughts.
Ronan cannot and shouldn't like me, how are we supposed to remain friends now, ughhhhhhhhh.
Honestly, I'm not in the right frame of mind to like any guy right now.
I have to deal with Uncle John at home and my depression. I really miss my parents and Aunt May. I sigh, their accident was all my fault. I didn't realise I was lost in my thoughts until Mike startled me.
"Sorry" he said, after shoving me to get out of the car, Jeanine didn't get down, saying she had to go meet up with someone. Ughhhh, I'm really praying to God that Uncle John isn't around, why would Jeanine just up and leave. I grunt, stepping up the stairs leading to the front porch of the house. I try my best to be slow as I walk because I can see Uncle John's car parked. Wow, this is going to be awkward, this is one of the few uncomfortable times I'm going to be alone with Uncle John. All of a sudden, the door opens and Uncle John barks at me to walk in fast.
"Go change to your workout clothes and come downstairs in 10 mins we have another training session" he stated.
Does this man think I'm enlisting into the army or what? I just got back from school for God's sake. Uncle John glares at me when I didn't move, I ran to my room, quickly changing into my training clothes and getting back downstairs in 8 mins.
"Good, but not good enough, anytime I tell you to come for training, I need you back half the time I gave you, do you understand?" He stated.
"Yes sir" I said, rolling my eyes behind him. This man is never satisfied. I follow him to the basement to begin my training or so it seems.