Lei Zhen was happy and sad, he remembers the first time he saw Feng Yi the only person who helped him, when he came down the mountain. He remembered the person who looked like a Phoenix bird he once liked when he was five years old. The bird was white in color, and have the aura of frost ice. The bird was flying high in the blue sky. Feng Yi also loved to wear white robes and have those eyes.
The eyes same as the bird he was desperate to catch and put into the cage. That day when he saw him he wanted to put Feng Yi into the cage as well.
The possessiveness in his heart grew more and more when he saw him in the sector and wanted to become his discipline. The more he was around him with a faint odor of Jasmine on his body, the more he wanted to bite his body. He became addicted. The love, jealousy, and possessiveness grew inside his heart. He wanted to conquer him completely. He wanted to eat him.
The taste of his lips is lavender, sweet but a bit icy. He like the chilly flavor of love. Even if Feng Yi doesn't love him, he will still put him into the cage, where Feng Yi will only belong to him.
He knew this life would be not the same, he didn't want to kill anyone so Feng Yi would not duel with him if he became the devil lord. They will live separate lives in two different words far from each other. He closed his eyes and came closer to Feng Yi just to smell the odor of his body. He was like a wolf who loved to smell before eating his prey.
But he will not eat his prey for now. Because it's impossible. Feng Yi's cultivation is far higher than his. He is known as an immortal not because he loves to wear white robes but because he invented the spell of transportation, a spell of communication, and so on. With so many inventions, he is also known as the Chuang Zao Zhe Elder.
He was lying with Feng Yi but he didn't know when the other party opened his eyes and quietly looked at him. Feng Yi just opened his eyes and looked at the peaceful sleeping face of a handsome youth.
His gaze traveled from his eyebrow to his chin but paused at his lips. The dewy thin lips he once had tasted. These lips he really wanted to kiss these again but was afraid the other person would hate him for the reason that his shizun who was already twenty-seven liked the child who was sixteen. This is the beastly thing he would do if he kissed him now. He quickly closed his eyes and opened them again. Sat in bed, at the same time Lei Zhen also noticed the moments on the bed he scratched his head and said "Shizun. I-I, I'm sorry for yesterday"
He doesn't know how he can say the words or might Feng Yi be angry that he didn't let go of his hand all night all day? So he apologized nervously.
Feng Yi pursed his lips into thin lines, lowered his eyelashes, and only murmured "mn"
He also doesn't know how can he communicate with him that's the only thing he lacks.
The room fell into silence. Both of them didn't talk nor did ask anything. Feng Yi got up from bed and adjusted his outer robe. He went near the door to open it but paused without looking back he said " Yesterday, the thing happened to you my guess, it is not quite normal, you should pay attention to your cultivation, might you have to cultivate your heart into purity" he thought about the thing in his heart is because of so many love affairs he had, which affected his cultivation so he can sincerely add this sentence but can not explain why he said so, because it's so embarrassing for him to talk about affairs he had.
Lei Zhen was silent, he lowered his eyes, brows furrowed, and his mind was in a mess, did Feng Yi know that he went to the place where only demons are allowed to enter? So he said I should cultivate myself into purity.
Both of them were idiots. They did not ask nor did they clear their wordings. They can only assume what the other party might have to say or do. But the answers they get are always wrong. The lack of communication between them ruined their love and turned into hatred for each other.
Feng Yi hates that Lei Zhen is like a wild pub that runs here and there because of lust. He will never love one person in his life or if that day happened he will still not love me. He hated that thing the most. Lei Zhen hated that Feng Yi looked down on me, never cared nor did he love me. He only likes An'Huan because she is a pure cultivator. Or did he hate the relationship between the two men?
Both of them don't have any answers to the questions they hold in their hearts. One did not ask to make it clear and the other never explained his actions. And like this, the two went on loving and hating each other.
Feng Yi went back into his room he hid the wrist under his long sleeves. Their white milky hands were stained with red marks. With the red finger marks, he did not feel pained but felt the warmth of another person. The warmth entered his heart and slowly increased its pace.
He rubbed his wrist for a few minutes, he really didn't want to apply any ointment on it. Because then marks will go. He wanted to capture the warmth and store it in his heart forever but it was impossible.
On the other side, Lei Zhen was also not in a clear state, he hugged the pillow, he wanted to store the Jasmine scent of his shizun. He inhaled deeply. All the pain in his head vanished. He felt so energetic but still stubbornly refused to let go of the pillow. The scent was long gone but he was still hugging it and it was almost evening time. He had to go to the sector leader, his uncle, Li Xin, to get the list, there were a lot of things he had to buy.
He quickly had a warm bath and went to the hall with his uncle. Everyone was already sitting there places, An Zhi's face paled and he quickly ran towards Lei Zhen " A Lei, what happened to you yesterday, i was so scared, are you alright?" he said in a small voice but it was heard, the only person who can hear it was Feng Yi.
Lei Zhen shook his head and smiled sweetly "A Zhi doesn't have to be worried, look I'm alright, shizun helped me to regulate my roots" he said in a cheered voice, his clear black eyes soft.
Feng Yi was sitting near the Sector Leader. He noticed the change of expression that was softened just for one person, An Zhi. His new lover. He tried to control his tone but still said it in a frosty voice " So much nonsense, Zhen'zi if you finally came then help the Sector leader with the tasks he had for you" he didn't want to show his jealousy but he only talked about the current situation they are in right now.
Li Xin was confused and didn't want to provoke Feng Yi so he hurriedly said "Zhen'er you know the lantern festival is coming"
Guan Yu was worried about Lei Zhen's health because of what he heard but she knew about his husband he did care but always forgot to show. So she did not talked about Festival rather she asked about his health in gentle and smoothing voice "Zhen'er i came to know you were not in good health, its ok if you don't take any tasks and rest well. How are you feeling now and what exactly happened to my Zhen'er?"
Lei Zhen's eyes lit up, and he scratched his head nervously he didn't know how he explain this thing or if should he explain. It was better to say some sort of lie than to tell everyone that demons were trying to make him their lord.
So he lowered his head, with a pitiful expression, hid his wolf tail skillfully, and looked so innocent that one could not believe that this guy was the one who had killed millions of people.
Said "Aunt, thank you for your concern, I'm feeling better, thank you for shizun guidance that I controlled my heart, it was just because I was eager to become a strong cultivator like Shizun so that thing effected me badly and I lost consciousness," he said with a gentle smile and misty eyes.
Li Xin nodded with laughter, everyone believed that this might be the case he wanted to become strong so that thing happened but Feng Yi did not buy his lies. He can clearly see that this sentence was half truth and half lie. But still, he remained silent and looked at him with a frost-ice gaze.
Li Xin added "Ah look at me, I forgot to ask but your aunt is right Zhen'er if you want to take rest for a few days, you can, you don't have to do anything for the festival but I will send some qi refreshing pills to you"
Everyone agreed but Lei Zhen didn't want to so he said "No I'm fine I will do it, that's not quite right that everyone working day and night and I will only rest, I'm truly fine uncle and aunt you can give me any task"
Li Xin and Guan Yu were happy to hear that yet after that rape case, they were observing Lei Zhen getting mature and they can not refuse him because if he wanted to learn something, they will not forbid him. So they agree with him.
Lei Zhen was overwhelmed upon hearing that he had to do some tasks, in his previous life he did not take the tasks seriously and even rejected the idea so Feng Yi and An Zhi went together, but now he is reborn and knows what to do next.
This vulgar person is so shameless and muddied with his own feelings. One day he wanted to take revenge and another day he wanted Feng Yi to be his own. Sometimes he doesn't want to go back to the old path and sometimes he dreams about being a devil lord. In such type of situation, he is so confused he doesn't know whether to go with the flow or change his destiny. He just listened to his heart, and straightly agreed with all the tasks.
Lantern Festival was coming soon, and several sector leaders with their disciplines will be coming to their sector. Even the famous sector of Mount Tai will be coming with their direct discipline. He was so eager that he went straight toward An'Zhi, he was thinking about how he let An'Zhi meet with his lover.
The most frequent suggestion he got is that his room is far from others, it's a quiet place where no one will notice nor do someone will come to check on them. So he will arrange a meeting of him with his lover in his own room.
He was so happy with his own stupid suggestion that he even forgot he would create another misunderstanding between himself and Feng Yi.
He was standing with An Zhi in the hall, Li Sheng got the task of helping to arrange the seats while An'Huan got the task of arranging and decorating of the sector. Feng Yi will go down the mountain to buy stuff for lantern festival with Lei Zhen. While other disciplines will clean and arrange according to what their seniors will say. Everything went smoothly.
Lei Zhen narrows his eyes and looks at An Huan first then Feng Yi. Then turned his head toward An Zhi, made a secret gesture, and told him to meet him after everything will done. An Zhi nods in agreement. He doesn't know what is up to Lei Zhen but he thinks might be Lei Zhen wants to talk about his love. So he agrees.
But there was someone who noticed their gesture. Feng Yi looked coldly but was sitting calmly with the Sector Leader and lavishly having his Lavender Tea. His eyelashes were dropped but with the side look he captured the gestures between the two fellow disciplines of his.
After everything was done Li Sheng wanted to talk with his Shizun, he hesitated first how to stop his shizun because of the things he was about to say, but then getting enough courage he went straight toward Feng Yi who was about to leave. Meanwhile went to follow Lei Zhen and An Zhi. He was a little curious and this was the first time in his life that he wanted to middle someone's business.
Lei Zhen and An Zhi left together. Li Xin was the one who told Li Sheng to stop his shizun and invite him to a private secluded place because they had something to talk about, which might be a serious matter so Li Sheng agreed with his parents. But yet while stopping he couldn't help but wonder why his parents let him to stop his shizun and why not talk directly?