REZINAR
I sighed as I got up from my bed to go and do my morning routine - cleaning. It's currently summer vacation so students get to go to trips or work to earn money, or stay at home and do exactly nothing. I, on the other hand was forced to stay at home so that I can keep the house squeaky clean. Or so what my parents said. don't get me wrong, I love staying at home but I also want to work and earn some money.
"why the hell is this here again" I sighed as i put the wrist watch that cost a leg to my mom's room.
I do not mind cleaning, but I also expected them to at least just try to make the house as clean as possible - in which they failed like always.
My mom told me that they can no longer afford for my college tuitions. That wasn't the worst part though, it's the fact that they wouldn't allow me to get a job to actually be able to pay for my college fees. She argued that no one's gonna be able to take care of this house since she's always on her business meetings with my younger sisters. we are a family of 6, if I count the dogshit as my family. Aside from him though, I dont despise anyone in the family, I kinda pity some but my eldest sister, Skye.
"yo, what did you cook? I'm starving" speak of the devil. I looked at her before rolling my eyes and went back to wiping the window glass
" cook your own damn food, you're a chef aren't you, Skye?" I said irritably.
"I was out running errands and taking care of things that needed to be done. I can't be in two places at once. Besides, I've got a ton of stuff to do later. " she retorted while stomping her feet like a little girl, so dramatic. "Doesn't seem like my problem" I scoffed, wiping the last two windows
"Oh, come on. You're just cleaning up a bit. It's not like you're building a rocket. I need breakfast. Also, isn't it good? You cook, I critique.. it's a win-win situation"
"You've been doing that for the past 8 years Skye" I deadpanned before finally tidying up. I'm finally done cleaning.
"Come on Rez, it's already 11." She whined. So drammatic
"really?" I feigned my shock
"fuck you! This is why mom hates you!" She shouted as she stormed back inside her room. pshh little bitch
"Do I look like I cared?" I muttered
It has always been like that ever since she found her new boyfriend. A piece of trash type of boyfriend. I hate him. It was him feeding lies to hate me, just cuz I am the carbon copy of my long lost father. I hated his very being.
I don't think I was mistreated. My mom still tried to do and be supportive of the things that I want. It just hurt that she only does it when my sisters needed one. I noticed this kind of action when my mom asked me how was my art projects, projects she always hated me having. I was so happy, I thought i was finally getting the acceptance I know I deserved, only after that I learned my youngest sister also wants to be an artist. I thought to myself how unfair they are. I was only 10 then. It's already been 8 years - i think.
I remember how she would always praise me before giving me the hardest task a younger me could've ever done, but I did. Because I want them to love me, accept me, tell me how important I am to them. I hated praises after that, it made me sick to my stomach thinking how fake could they be.
after cleaning the house I went out to get something to eat since i got lazy cooking because of all of that debacle. I went to a nearby diner to get something to eat. My heat is due next week or 2, so I also went on my way to get some suppressants.
I'm an omega, the only omega in the family of beta. I knew I was one when my first heat came at around 13, I was with my friend then. I remember we were out to get icecream after a long day of school then I suddenly felt feverish, so told me to go to clinic with him and so I did only to realize I was there to be molested by him, he rope me yet it was my fault for wearing such thin fabric of a uniform and for being an omega. It didn't end after that since it happened again up to this day.
"Rez!" I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize someone shouted behind me.
"Jayden, what's up?" I asked as he came running to my way, we then did our little handshake before he rested his arms around my shoulder. Jayden is my bestfriend who I met when I was put to help on the war 5 years ago, his power is super cool. telepathy.
"I've been busy these past few weeks, I need to go and help this girl find something- oh right, why don't you come with me? It's gonna be so much fun with you there" He suggested with a smile, A smile that doesn't want a no as an answer. It's a trap
"My heat is due next week Jayden" I try to argue, she's not gonna be happy about me leaving, after all no one's gonna be able to clean her precious little house.
"I'mma give you some good dominant she alpha" he suggested with a smirk in which I rolled my eyes as a reply
"no thanks, your term of good dominant alpha and my definition of a good dominant alpha is so different, a good hundred sixty type of different. Besides, I'm gay" I retorted back. He's straight, I'm gay what can straight man understand the feeling of being fucked.
"oh shit I forgot, well what would you guys do if you see an alpha trying to get up to your ass?" he began to ask as we finally started walking arm in arm.
"I'd shove his cock down my throat and happily choke to death thank you very much" I replied giving him an are-you-serious look.
"Your really are something else" He just said and we both laughed. I may have a little bit shitty ass family but at least I have such good friends... or friend.
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We walked while trying to catch up, we've not been talking like this for the past 3 weeks so catching up is making me really happy, we then went to a park, bought some hotdogs and ate it somewhere on the bench. A lot of people passed us, majority of them were kids. there were some near the pond playing with water using their magic, some were feeding the animals, some were playing using their magic. I just wish I could do that.
"Hey" he whispered, sensing the sadness I felt as I watched these normal people using their magic.
"I know you can't use your magic here, but your not a demon Riz, people just misunderstood your magic as that of a demon's. that's why I've been suggesting for you to consider traveling, meet new people. It's not about you Riz" He said in a soft voice while rocking my back as tears wants to escape from my eyes, and they did.
I have sun magic, one that's very dangerous and can burn a person from the intense heat. I can't just go around playing nor training this magic of mine since it is very dangerous especially practicing in a city where a lot of structures and buildings are present everywhere you look. Not only that but the main castle is also located on the north part of the city. If the king knew, he'd banished me from the frostwood kingdom.
"I've been suffering since I was born, Jay.." I started, feeling the nervousness all over my body just like that time "People are scared of me, the king can't know Jay, my family even. I'm scared no one's gonna be there to love me anymore" I said in a frantic tone.
Sure, I hated my mom for the most part, but she is still my mom. Mom should love their child, they should love me. If this is her way of showing me love, then I can take it - with a complain.
"Riz, that is not how family love works. but I also cannot tell you that myself since I do not have that, But loving someone, I do have that. making them happy is a priority Riz, whether or not it makes you happy.." His words is somewhat confusing and comforting at the same time. what does he mean by that? "When did you get yourself a girlfriend? You never told me that" I asked with a sniff as I began to calm down.
"That is beside the point. I see you've finally calmed down, I'll get going now.." he said with a grin as he stood up " oh and I'll see you next week, you should bring lots of clothes"
"I told you my heat is due next week!" I argued, but it seems like my words is coming in from one side and out to the other as he started walking away telling me to think about it. I sigh at his persistence and just started to look around me. people are so lively, like nothing negative has been going on in their family, something I get jealous of the most. What if I were them? What would happen if I do not have this type of power and is actually a beta like them... Will mom ever love me? I don't even know how to manage this fucked up emotion of mine anymore. One second I was all pissed and hatred the next second I was all sad and depressed. How do you even know if you are truly loved by someone, what even is love. Will I be able to understand these things if I were to accept Jayden's offer?
"I still need to cook too" I mumbled before standing up to go home.
It's already 3 PM they'll be home by five, I just hope no fight is gonna happen tonight,
or so i thought...