I currently sit in the bustling airport terminal, surrounded by the whirlwind of travelers coming and going. All have a different reason to leave and enter this 'free' country, or so they say. Reminding myself why I have to be here, wandering back to the moments that led me to this pivotal point in my life. I never knew things would get so out of hand, it was all filled with emotions. A roller coaster that was filled with ups and downs and loops, where I'm usually out of the loop.
Joanne Berkley, 18 years old on my way, embarking on a journey towards Hollowstone University in Adamson, Highland. I'm personally about to leave weeks before my graduation ceremony for me to settle in the upcoming environment, that I'll be experiencing. Entering my dorm, and overall just taking in the new eccentric vibe of not only Hollowstone Uni but also the city of Highland myself.
As I sit here, pen in hand, I realize this is the first time I've attempted to write a diary. Capturing those fleeting moments, and preserving them in this notebook, makes me nervous. With each word I plan to write, my thoughts crave the comfort of reliving those cherished moments, good and bad. Every memory has sets of feelings, and each moment has its own emotion, mostly confusion, hate, and love...ESPECIALLY love. I start to recall the first day I had on my transferred school.
Stepping into the bustling hallways of my new school, every sound, and every scent feels heightened, as if I've been transported to a different universe altogether. The air is thick with excitement and tension, the energy crackling with the anticipation of another day in the hallowed halls of high school.
Intense culture shock rocks my core as I observe the school. Feeling the eyes of each predatory student, judging my movement and gossiping amongst themselves, possibly describing how underwhelming the new student was. I personally never wished for the approval of other students, but I doubt that this stare-down is necessary.
I can't help but compare this scene to the familiarity of my old school, where the cliques were established, the social hierarchy understood, and the rules clear-cut. Here, it's like starting from scratch, deciphering the unspoken language of teenage politics all over again. At my previous school, the social hierarchy was not important, and cliques all depended on whether they were your actual friend or not. It was all brain power, if you were smart everyone would be nice to you and ask you favors, later using them of my own when needed.
And then, amidst the sea of faces, she appears like a beacon of confidence amidst the chaos - Rachel, the Queen Bee herself. She's surrounded by a swarm of admirers, her laughter ringing out like a melody, her every movement exuding an effortless grace that demands attention, and she has got my attention indeed.
I've heard the whispers about her, the rumors that paint her as both a goddess and a tyrant, depending on who you ask. They say she rules this school with a mix of charm and cunning intelligence, her influence extending far beyond the confines of the classroom.
I couldn't help but observe her more...RESPECTFULLY if I may, having my eyes travel up and down her, scanning her figure from top to bottom. My inner gayness hits as my eyes rest on specific parts of her body. I am a decent woman, but the lack of clothes on her body makes it very difficult to be decent.
Blood rushes to my face the moment Rachel's gaze lands on me, a flicker of curiosity in her eyes, I feel a knot form in the pit of my stomach. What does she want with me, I wonder? Is it genuine interest, or is there something more sinister lurking beneath that flawless exterior?
Her voice cuts through my thoughts as it does to the din of the hallway, smooth as silk yet tinged with a hint of mischief.
"Welcome to Cornerstone High," she says, her words dripping with honeyed charm and a welcoming aura.
"I'm Rachel, captain of the cheerleading team and, well, I'm sure you already know what that means." She looks at me expectantly with a smirk, expecting me to know the bylaws of the school.
I offered a polite smile in return as she got close to me with this irresistible aura. Her scent intoxicates my olfactory senses, my mind races with questions, as I try not to have a gay panic on her. Rachel's interest in me felt like a spotlight, illuminating parts of myself I didn't even know existed. It's both exhilarating and terrifying, like standing at the edge of a cliff, unsure whether to take the leap of faith or retreat to safer ground.
As Rachel extends her hand in greeting, I hesitate for a moment before finally reaching out to accept such an offer. I look into her bright glowing eyes, as I open my mouth to answer her polite welcome.
"Joanne Berkley, you've probably heard that I'm the new girl." It was like making a deal or signing a contract with terms that only she and I understood beyond the outside world. Our moment was brought to a halt when one of the cheerleaders tapped her shoulder.
"Girl, they're here." The cheerleader states as Rachel looks at who she was referring to, which turns out to be the football team just entering the halls after what seems to be their practice.
She immediately strides her way to the front man, blows him a kiss as she wraps her arms around him, and then kisses him with no hesitation, he is likely the captain of the football team, which seems fitting for the queen bee of this school.
The other cheerleaders also head to their respective partners on the football team as they approach. It was a sight to see in all honesty, it was hot yes, though I couldn't help but notice the student's take on this. Most had envious glances, and some even had this admiring stare of their king and queen, as the football team, and the cheer squad had a good time in each other's company.
I fixate my gaze on Rachel, finding myself drawn to her amidst the crowd, where she clings to her boyfriend. Her captivating smile and exquisite beauty compel my attention, drawing me into a state of focused observation. With each passing moment, I find myself analyzing the SPECIAL features of her figure, the luscious rose lips that are supple, and DEFINITELY kissable. The velvety texture of her skin is soft and squeezable. It's undeniable that she possesses the captivating allure and regal qualities in that of a queen bee. However, beneath her enchanting exterior possibly lies a potential peril, akin to the sting of a queen bee. This serves as a stark reminder that despite her beauty and charm, there exists a hidden potential danger that could prove fatal to those who cross her.
As Rachel releases and parted with her boyfriend, a giggle escapes her lips, adding an extra layer of allure to her already radiant presence. Her confidence seems to intensify, commanding even more attention as she basks in the spotlight of her own charm. Blood rushed to my cheeks the moment she caught me enjoying her view. Upon inspecting my reaction to her small antics, a subtle playful smile spreads on her face, followed by a seductive wink, as if reminding me of the unspoken agreement we had before being interrupted by her associates. The weight of her expectations pressed down on me like a heavy cloak. Little did I know, that this simple gesture would set in motion a series of events that will forever alter the course of my life.