My feelings remain confused and unchanged.
I stroke my beating heart, and I can barely see or expect anything from myself to wait any longer.
I am full of mystery and denial.
No matter, I believe you.
I have feelings under the thickest of my
excruciating mask I wear.
I love who I am, I just get lost with myself.
But why did I fall in love with you?
Why didn't you care or show me your truth?
I hate being the one to chase others
I love you
Must you talk about me so easily like a grain of dust to others?
I love you so much, it makes me sick.
I cry, wonder, and pray what you think of me and what could have been.
You are so complicated
Come clean my patience has been wasted on you.
AHHHHH!!!
I can't stand you, and that would make me weak on my knees if you came.
Kill me for someone you don't love.
I want to forget, but I won't.
Because I wouldn't be the person I am today.
I saw him every day for a year and only made a few moves but they were inadequate.
Reading people is easy but with him he's unreadable.
Why must he be so perfect?
TnT Life's not life without a little pain, even fair.
Should I have leaped?
Nay! I did what I could without worrying so
I write to be honest with myself here, without further explaining what I write here.
I write gibberish but most of you would understand this.
This (M.S.) drives me insane...those are his initials
Lord surprise me with gifts.
Good night.