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Chapter 51 - Whereat

My feelings remain confused and unchanged.

I stroke my beating heart, and I can barely see or expect anything from myself to wait any longer.

I am full of mystery and denial.

No matter, I believe you.

I have feelings under the thickest of my

excruciating mask I wear.

I love who I am, I just get lost with myself.

But why did I fall in love with you?

Why didn't you care or show me your truth?

I hate being the one to chase others

I love you

Must you talk about me so easily like a grain of dust to others?

I love you so much, it makes me sick.

I cry, wonder, and pray what you think of me and what could have been.

You are so complicated

Come clean my patience has been wasted on you.

AHHHHH!!!

I can't stand you, and that would make me weak on my knees if you came.

Kill me for someone you don't love.

I want to forget, but I won't.

Because I wouldn't be the person I am today.

I saw him every day for a year and only made a few moves but they were inadequate.

Reading people is easy but with him he's unreadable.

Why must he be so perfect?

TnT Life's not life without a little pain, even fair.

Should I have leaped? 

Nay! I did what I could without worrying so

I write to be honest with myself here, without further explaining what I write here.

I write gibberish but most of you would understand this.

This (M.S.) drives me insane...those are his initials

Lord surprise me with gifts.

Good night.