"Don't try to play the victim here. Empty space in your heart?!!! Do you really think that I, or even with Mother, am capable of filling that empty heart of yours?"
"Do you really think that you being empty inside would have changed because of my answer? In this regard, I was never the problem. Maybe if I had accepted you with all my heart back then, you would have been satisfied for a short period, but eventually, you would have wanted more and sought someone else to fill your heart."
"Brother, your thirst for love is unquenchable."
After shouting with all her might, Clara, now breathing heavily, lowered her head. And with a softer, trembling voice, she continued.
"You know, I thought that maybe someday I would have to share you with someone else, but I never expected that someone to be my mother."
"So, like you said before, what kind of bullshit excuse is that?"
"Be a man and stop hiding behind those excuses. Say it directly and take responsibility. I didn't fall in love with you to hear this kind of bullshit."
Ellis standing still like a stone, didn't know what to say or do, he felt hurt and even a little angry. what she said could be true. But it's all at the realm of possibilities. he is now 23 years old, and aside from her, he had just one girlfriend for one and half year and it was because of her. nothing else had happened yet, her insecurities and how she is shifting the blame didn't stand well with him.
Looking at his sister with her fists clenched, and her hurt expression unlike her outward angry one, her crying eyes and how she was shouting, while Ellis still tried to be more understanding, his emotion were still a turbulent ones, he felt hurt by her harsh words, frustrated by her assumptions, sad that she has the heart to say these kind of things to him, and even a little angry.
What she said could be true. But it's all at the realm of possibilities. he is now 23 years old, and aside from her, he had just one girlfriend for one and half year and it was because of her. nothing else had happened yet, her insecurities and how she is shifting the blame didn't stand well with him.
Was him being considerate toward her a mistake? But had he not said anything and had a relationship with his mother, she would blame him then and ask why he had not told her anything, but if he had done just like she asked, and told her that he will become lovers with his mother and what happened last night, she would be even more angry.
Should he have told her about his ability, and how he will reincarnate and will have a lot of time to live? But then what? From the last messages he read in the gray gate, he knows sometime in future someone could come to hunt him down because of the Twilight Codex, should she also live in fear? It's not like he didn't think of these things, he just felt them very far away and wanted to have as little regrets as possible, and if he can maybe find some way to bring her and maybe his mother too with him, he was gonna be happy and content enough.
There was no correct answer, or maybe to stay with just her was the correct answer after all, but after the world changed, it's impossible. she is just anger now and is venting, had she been calm, she wouldn't say all those thing, or so he want to believe.
But all these things aside, maybe it was time for him to also be a little petty.
"Sister, what are we? The one who is refusing to define our relationship is you, not me, so it's mean we are nothing now. In your position, you can't have the high ground, and start accusing me of things that have yet to happen."
" I may be anything, but even then all you talked about were your own deductions and assumption, and till now nothing happened."
"If you want me to be a man, then so be it. I'm accepting mother's confession."
"but still, when you cool your head, we can talk again, I will still wait and not respond immediately, but how much more I can wait, I don't know, of course."
…
Shouting her bent-up emotion and calming down a little, and upon Raising her head and Looking at her brother's dejected and hurt appearance, his gray eyes holding a pained gaze from above, she felt a pang of guilt.
And Clara's heart softened. She knew she was to blame too. What she did and how she was delaying her answer really affected him. But she was also angry at him and their mother. Angry and jealous that he would be two-timing her.
But hearing what he replied and his tone, which appeared a little cold and angry, and his words suggesting he might give up on her, Clara felt her world collapsing. She felt more hurt than when he told her about their mother's confession, and she inferred that he would be two-timing her.
Clara knew she didn't have much time, but she didn't think it was this little. Just after deciding that she would give her answer and embrace all her feelings, he came and told her about their mother's confession and how he wanted her opinion, which she knew was just for the sake of it. While she was hurt and jealous, she tried not to lash out too much, she tried to restrain herself. But hearing him ask about her answer again, when he will be two-timing her, was the last straw, ending in her eruption.
After all the thinking, contemplation, and reflection she had done yesterday, and then seeing him today when she just woke up, making her greedy to want to see his face first everyday when she woke up. She resolved to accept her feelings and him,
So after she gathered all her courage and was was waiting for the situation to calm down, and when the timing was right so she can answer him. Came his revelation not even knowing her resolve, and wanting to two-time her from the start of their relationship, with their mother no less, so she felt betrayed, making her erupt, and she lashed out at him.