That bad huh! So, do you love her. The girl you mentioned that you love?, I added curious about my competition.
Ah, well, that I don't know really. Because she is so unique that I can't even top her awesomeness!
Aha…what? Who is she? Is she like a model or artist, maybe a tycoon just like you that she is so unreachable? Hahaha!
Ah note really. It's just she is simple, kind, beautiful and Asian!, Trish said not looking at me and now starting to eat her ice cream. Let's eat these before they melt!
Ahah, was she talking about me? Hmm…this woman is so many things but this time she honestly giving herself away. Why?
You know when you look at me like that and your mind is off on something or someone else maybe! I feel insecure!, Trish said her mood changing.
No, I'm sorry, I feel weird because of what happened last time we were together. Still I am glad that you're taking the time off and the one making the effort to tour me around the city. It's been a while since the last time that we…ah….errr ….
Yeah, I know. It's been a while. But to be honest I haven't forgotten you after the plane incident and that was the best time of my life, being with you in the….loo!, Trish very blunt and looked at me with stars in her eyes.
Yess….ah…I'm sorry, maybe I led you on and didn't think about the consequences of my actions. I knew I was about to get married and that happened, I explained and made a sad face.
No, I am sorry that I didn't know that at first but I never regret being with you and doing all the things I did to make you happy that time. And I am not sorry if it'll happen again sooner or later, Maine!, Trish added and tried to hold my hand which I avoided so she won't feel my hand that is so cold from nervous ness from being with her again. My heart can't stop beating and almost wanted to faint by her mere touch or breath, smile and smell. Her perfume really makes me feel dizzy, mesmerized by, addicted to her presence and romantic flairs.
While I ate my ice cream Trish kept on talking about her experiences with her models and the adventures she had going on trips abroad. I love how she smiles and waves her hand so engulfed and excited about telling me her stories. But her eyes couldn't lie about how she is feeling now. Her eyes are sad and the sparkle that she had when she told me about our romantic time together at the plane disappeared when she looks at me. Maybe because she knows she can't have me and the fact that I'm marrying her best friend only makes it worse. The same feeling that I'm feeling now that what I wanted to do in the whole world is just to be with her but I just couldn't make myself run to her and admit that I like her too.
I need to consider Dave's, hers and his family and my family's feelings. In our society and Asian culture we women are faithful up to the extent that even if our men are distrusting or womanizers. We are designed to stick to our marriage vows and forgive seventy-seven times just like what is said in the bible. But nowadays, women are already awake and know their worth. We are no longer submissive to the point where even if we are inside a home plagued with domestic violence or masochistic marital state, we still need to patiently stay and make things work out between our partners for the sake of the family, for the sake of the children and for the sake of saving face.
Single moms or a mother with a child with no husband is a sin or an embarrassment for their family or society. If not for women uplifting other women, LGBTQIA+ and women's rights or defenders, influencers, there would be no women's liberation, equality and anti-racist campaigns that really helped and inspired me, Asian women, in my country and the world.
In every society and country women have been depicted as weak, dependent and average. We are low class citizens that can't have rights, just like in Afghanistan where recently ordered for all women and girls were prohibited to study. And all women working even in the frontlines should always have a man chaperon to be with them, or they aren't allowed to work or do what they needed to do for a living. It is unfair and how come we women are always the target of hate, discrimination, fear, distrust, and sex or filth. We are not dirty or a sexual object and or a threat. We are who we are, beautiful, warm hearted, sweet, smart, good natured, peacemaker, nurtures and uplifts those who are in need of our light, love, and strength. We women are given the heart and the mind of a soldier. We are always in pain and have mastered it graciously when we have our periods, when we get pregnant, deliver the baby and rear them. We are men's stronghold, partner in life and family making or growth. We are the world's best guardians and protectors of peace, nature and goodness. So who says we are evil or a temptation. Only those people specifically men who think otherwise but we are needed in the world to sustain its population and make it to remain sweet, pretty, wonderful and sexy.
Aha…Maine???? What are you thinking now? You haven't finished your yogurt. Finish it before it melts. Do you like movies or theater maybe?, Trish said I think several times when I finally heard her call my name maybe the nth time.
Ah, yes, I want to watch a comedy show. Do you have a comedy bar or something here? We have some in the Philippines and I love stand-up comedies mostly?
Sure, okay. After your meal, we can head to the bridge first and then check on some stuff. Maybe we can buy you clothes or something you love to wear during winters, Trish added taking and licking the last spoonful of her yogurt on her mouth.
Aha….nicely done, Trish. My God, even that tops my charts of sexiness!, Maine whispered.
Ah what?
Ah nothing! Yes, got ya!, Maine, biting her lip in excitement.