when he said that just like that , i swear like he was looking at my lips , which i intentionally bit, and in turns he did too , he is mirroring me , i turned my face the other way .
i tried to say something but seeing him in formal and that lip scene just kept playing in my mind over and over , even with closed eyes.
I whispered" put what"
' the kerchief please …. In …by your hand " he looked at me in a way made me stray, why does he have such kind eye.
He slowly grabbed my hand ,with a smooth touch he handed me a red kerchief but he grasp on my hand for eternity and it felt tighter and warmer .
I looked at him and shakingly said
"yes y ..yes '
He hesitantly but slowly left my hand like he was aching while doing so
I held the kerchief and put it in his pocket in his triangle shape
but when i realized he was watching me closely , I got so nervous that i messed it up
" let me Anna "
He grabbed my shaking fingers by both his hands and made me shape it , if there is a thing i would say about this guy , i would say he loves to take thing slowly so slowly that made me feel air tightening in my chest , like i was thrown in hell from the heat i am feeling in such snowy weather right now , droughts were brough in my throat and I don't remember if I ever took breathes in these moments I think I forgot to take my breathes and obviously i forget to blink .
" Anna I am really dying to know you , you know this "
He raised my hand up
"my grandfather once told me a woman's hand honor is to kiss it " he alluringly said it while biting his lower lips , like he is holding some beast down.
It was close to his mouth , where the high waves of his breathes was hitting my shivering skin and I don't what he waited for all of this time while holding my hand , doesn't he know that is torturing me to without exhaling a breath
' may I ….. may I kiss your hand Ann ? "
'yes …"
I felt like I was melting with him kissing me slowly yet softly on my hands and it wasn't one kiss , but i couldn't help but melt at this
Something is wrong with me I know but how can I say no to him when he said exactly what I wanted him to do
We stared back at each other , the air felt so dense , i can feel lots of tension , bu i cant help it should i start running ?
"I am hungry "he said
"me too " shakingly said
"so what are we waiting for princess "
"yeah lets get inside and eat " i softly laughed yet he was stunned but smiled back.
He opened the door ,went out and heard him mumbling " I never meant food ..."
He reached my door and opened it for me and I got out it was princess treatment indeed .
" sorry I changed my clothes Infront of you , I just wanted this to be a perfect date "
I could not answer him back with anything but gave him my hand who he grabbed and led me the way inside .
It was really a cozy restaurant , the time seemed to stop once I looked at his staring eyes , I kept trying to save myself from drowning in his sweet dreamy eyes , and it was a failed missions added to my other ones because of him .
I don't know why do i act so soft with him , it is not me.
I don't even recall ordering the food or even how it tasted like he stripped away all of my senses , he owns me and for some reason I am not resisting , but that makes me scared , he doesn't know me what if he knew what i hide .
he must have noticed i turned gloomy , it is just this memory that haunts me day and night , should i tell him now , will he leave like the others did ?
i don't know how but he managed to make me laugh .
he drove me back home and every time he tried to take a glimpse of me , our eyes meet awkardly I tried to turn my back to him , but I always found myself trying to look back at him .
he is not only a strong but a nice guy , for my amazement , also caring , he treated me in a way that i was never treated like before .
we arrived at home , finally , I tried to break free quickly from the seatbelt but his hands reached it before me and we touched again , i cant take it anymore so I retreated my hands , if it wasn't for the closed door I would have ran away , and the fact that he leans closer to open a seatbelt that his hands reaches effortless yet he leans .
he went on to open the door to me I stepped out of the car yet he stood there blocking my way , It took him moments to realized my red cheeks
:ammm Kevin can I .."
"yeah sure"
I went on my way leaving him behind , maybe I should wave him goodbye or say something so i am not rude or anything .
I turned around and he was there behind me , I swear I did not feel or heard him walking behind me , was I this deep in my thoughts ?or he is indeed a ghost who has decided to haunts me already.
We both were surprised that i stopped but he played in his hair .
I took the pill of courage "thanks for tonight date , it was great "
"I am glad you enjoyed it "
"yeah …. Goodbye" and i started to walk away
" hey wait .."
"yes ?"
"I need to ask you for something"
"yes you can "my heart was beating that moment .
"I really don't mind showing to your job every time but I do really need your phone number you know , I do need it can you give it to me? " he handled me his phone
"yeah sure "I smiled back at him but my fingertips were already shaking which mistakenly kept pushing the wrong numbers over in over , it was awkward that I took all of this time to do simple task while he is watching , i think he will be scared away by me just being me .
"here you go"
"so can I call you like anytime"
is he really asking for permission to call me ?
"I sleep at 12 am and sometimes even earlier that that "
"ok I will call before"
"oh sometime I leave my phone in my silent mode "
'well Ms Ann you will have to check on your phone from now on because " he gentely touched my cheeks "
" i will message you everyday , every hour , every minute , all the time , if possible "
"and i will call ofcourse to hear ... your voice "
I felt my legs failing me , it is odd to feel like this with his gentle fingers playing over my cheeks and i am leaving him to do so.
It was that strange tension in the air that would make you drunk without taking a sip and i am already wasted , do i like him ?
"your roses , you forgot your roses"
"oh I did"
He ran to the car to bring them , I took a step back I am scared I am really scared how I was feeling safe but but when he left , no no it is just wrong maybe I shouldn't I don't know , have gone with flow with him
"Anna"
"yes"
"is there anything you want to say ? "
For real no I feel safe again what have you done to me , is this you charming me .....
"No .."
I took the roses , turned away and went in my home ,once I entered inside i couldnot help but collapsed to the grounds , I am not okay .
I crawled till I reached the windows , I sneakily drew the curtains I saw him still standing looking at my home oh he noticed me I quickly slammed the curtains .
Kept crawling on the ground , such a childish act i know , but i didnot want him to see me.
It was the knocking on the door that brought me back to reality from my stupid game
I looked at the door , did I mention that it had upper glass , I saw him looking at me from it.
Oh damn really how do i explain to him , me crawling on the ground.
I quickly stood , and opened the door , he looked where I was on the floor then questioned me with his snakey eyes
"you dropped something
My mind went blank for a moment"
"oh yes yes I dropped something yes I did "I breathed down
"sure "he kept looking around "
"so did you find it , dou need help with that ? "he stepped inside and slammed the door behind
oh no he is inside with me , alone.
"I can help you finding it , you know "he smiled
find what what does he mean , i feel he doesn't mean that something that has no exsitence , why is he here thought .
"what what "I was stunned already
"also my car is refusing to work so I was gonna ask if you would let me stay only for tonight if you wouldn't mind , till my buddy comes and picks me up in the morning , is it okay with you ? "