Regret and grief enshrouded Bellarine's consciousness when she fainted; unsure whether she would be seeing her beloved again or not.
Thankfully the last person she saw before her possible death was her dearest. She couldn't tell how much she was going to regret living such a short life and leaving her child behind. However, Bellarine was a little relieved that in her absence, there would be someone to take care of Richard.
Maybe that's the reason why she allowed Lilia's inclusion in her son's life in the first place since she already knew one day, she would be abandoning Richard.
...however, that assurance still didn't lessen the heavy sadness she felt at the thought of never seeing him again.
His smile, his anger, his sweet words, his beautiful eyes....everything had been such a prominent part of her life that parting ways from them gave birth to an awful pain in her heart.
