???
So, what Lance meant was, he feared that they would die before him, and that's why he chose to sacrifice himself and took the opportunity to leave the team?
Unfathomable...
Well, somewhat understandable.
As the captain of the Sunrise Squad, he had lived for over a thousand years. In those thousand years, he had experienced too many farewells and witnessed too many departures.
It was heart-wrenching to watch his friends grow up from childhood, meet friends, and step by step reach the end of their lives, leaving him alone. That kind of loneliness and sorrow would gradually numb the soul.
He was lucky, at the very least, there was a long-lived species among his teammates: Elf Amelia.
When about to be swallowed by endless loneliness, he would subconsciously remind himself that he was not alone, he still had teammates.
The earlier feeling of being unable to understand was because he had forgotten that feeling, since he hadn't made any new friends in the last few hundred years.
