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Hello, all my lovely little dragon-phoenixes,
It has been a long minute since I last updated. I really have missed writing, uploading and communicating with the handful (or less) of readers who comment and interact with me through Comments and Power Stones. My personal life has been stressful and busy to say the very least.
That said so much has been going on in my personal life, as I just stated above but here is just a snippet of what has been going on. Throughout the past year or two of me dreaming up the ideas for this novel then all the research, planning, outlines, rough drafts, tons of notes and throughout me uploading my novel and the chapters my mother has been my biggest supporter and driving force for me to continue to write this novel. It is for my mom that I continue to work on this novel. Well, that is not quite the truth, but it is because of her that I continue to upload what I write… no matter how awful it is.
Quite honestly, I feel so inferior, and I have imposter syndrome about it. I am fully aware that I am not a good storyteller by any means, and I am just as awful when it comes to writing, thanks to my attention deficit disorder and other cognitive issues that hold me back… Despite my lack of skills or even raw talent my momma has really been my biggest cheerleader and fan as well as helped me hash out something pertaining to this novel. She has so much faith in me that I honestly am not sure if it is 100% sincere or if it is just because she is my mother and sees me and my writing through rose colored glasses. What ever it is it still makes me what to do better so I can make her proud. Hell, I just want to make my own self proud as well, but I am definitely my own worst critic and biggest hater.
At the beginning of the year my momma had surgery, significant but it was an outpatient, so she came home right after she left recovery. Unfortunately, there were complications. Sadly, they only got worse and worse. She recently, the day of my wedding anniversary, had another surgery to try and get rid of much of the infection and necrosis (dead) tissues. I desperately wanted to be there for it and for her, but life had other plans.
Both my husband and I were running fevers that day so I could not go see her, I was devastated and cried a lot. I did and still do feel like an awful daughter for not being able to go be with her. Due to my health issues, I am unable to make the drive to go see her as it is too far out for me to drive safely without someone with me in case of an emergency.
Though, I still haven't been able to, I want to do what I can to help her through the pain and healing in any way I can (we live an hour and a half apart, one way). So, I decided that I would continue to work on this novel for her. That may not sound like much, but my mother is losing her eyesight due to cataracts and glaucoma, its important to me that I at the very minimum finish the first whole arc for her before she can no longer read. She already struggles to read and does not like audio books as she cannot stay focused, I get it.
I will be writing and updating more, though the chapters may be a tad shorter. Please try to understand and bear with me. Thank you all so very much for your continued support for me and my novel. I want to keep the quality of the chapters up, but I may just make them shorter so that I can post more often. I just hope that I do not lose any readers because of this, after all I did start writing and publishing this novel for therapeutic reasons.
This novel is not just a way for me to work through my own trauma but to also because I could not nor cannot stop thinking about these characters and their crazy long and detailed story(s). It is my one of my greatest hopes and wishes that at least one person who is not my family member or friend can, will and does enjoy this story. As long as there is at least one person who wants me to finish this novel I will, or at least until I am absolutely unable to for whatever reason, but I don't foresee that happening.
As always it will remain free for those who wish to continue to read it. I hold ALL my rights to my work and the AI generated artwork that I PAID for myself. I am not getting any monetary gain from writing and publishing this novel, so I humbly ask that you please show your support through comments, lots of them please, both on paragraphs and at the end of the chapters. You would also help me greatly by gifting Power Stones, they are FREE and reset/refill every day and they tell WebNovel that Phoenix Interrupted is worth them advertising it to new possible readers here on WebNovel.
Thank you all so very, very much to everyone who has made it this far! You have no idea how much it means to me and how much strength it gives me. It is honestly one of the reasons I am able to continue to battle my detreating health. It not only gives me a reason to preserver in my writing but also in my will to fight and keep living. I normally would never give out this much private information about myself or family... this time I felt drawn to, for whatever reason I am not sure yet.
Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, Thank You, ᏩᏙ - "Wado" (thank you in Cherokee), Ano'ga adanvto (I am thankful to you in Cherokee), 감사합니다 - "gamsahapnida" (thank you very much in Hangul/Korean). I am still learning Cherokee and am really bad at it, my Hangul/Korean is much better though I am not Korean but am TX Cherokee along with some other tribes, but Cherokee is what my husband wants me to learn the most since he is the deputy district chief for our state for our tribe. I personally find it very important that we share our histories and cultures with not just the younger generations but also with others, least our cultures die out. It is about respecting the culture and not about appropriating it. = ) Remember to do all things with a kind and appropriate heart but also remember that the path to hell is laid out with good intentions. ♡(>ᴗ•)
xoxo
Tiff - Mrs_TNT - author of Phoenix Interrupted