"Are Madara and Kaguya husband and wife? I remember seeing somewhere that both appear together, and they must have the same goal, right?"
I was ruminating and thinking about things I remember from the original series, trying to piece it all together while guiding the cart through the rugged forest.
"Did Doflamingo appear before or after Orochimaru? So many things to think about..."
I'm broken. A month ago, I had the brilliant idea to run away from the camp. After all, I already know how to use chakra, so I could defend myself, right?
No!
During the night, I gathered everything left from the Engetsu clan and stole a cart, fleeing as far as I could.
That was a big mistake.
The first week was fine; I had dried meat and bread. But the bread went moldy in just a few days, and I had to eat it anyway.
At the end of the first week, highway robbers tried to rob me, but, may the kami protect me, they were sick individuals, trying to use a child for evil purposes.
In a fit of rage, my chakra went out of control, burning those bastards to ashes!
They weren't the last bandits I encountered. An elderly couple on the roadside, both tried to kill me. A group of children, bait for the adults hidden, waiting to ambush me.
Defeated soldiers tried to immobilize me while I slept and take everything I had.
I killed them all. No one was left.
That broke me. I barely made it to adulthood in my previous life. Leukemia, a terrible disease I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. The disease is bad, but the treatment is even worse.
Loss of appetite made me skinny and skeletal. I also had constant diarrhea, headaches after each chemotherapy session, nausea, and depression followed.
I didn't have friends in my life, after all, I spent most of my time in the hospital. My parents, whom I still miss and sometimes cry remembering them, fought tooth and nail for me, but they were already too tired, too exhausted to live their own lives.
I hope that with my death, they can live again. They were young, maybe they'll take a trip, or maybe have another child, a healthy one this time.
I thought that in this life, this restart, things would be different. I would have new parents, a large united family, friends, and a house with a big yard. On weekends, the family would gather for a big barbecue, with loud music and lots of conversations.
But that's not how it's going. This world is too cruel for that.
If I want peace, I'll have to conquer it with blood.
I wiped my tears and left the road with the cart, preparing for my daily training while letting the horse graze.
After thoroughly checking the small clearing, looking for any enemies or threats, I sat cross-legged, tied my hair into a ponytail, and prepared to meditate.
My long hair gets in the way more than it helps, but I refuse to cut it. I finally have long, beautiful hair, hair that changes color on top of it! Why the hell would I cut it?!
Taking a deep breath and slowly exhaling, I entered a meditative state. According to Kuro, who taught me how to meditate, meditation helps to feel chakra and improve control over it.
With better control, less chakra is wasted in battle. Honestly, I don't need meditation if it's just for that.
My chakra is too dense to not feel. I can feel it moving inside me. It's warm and comforting, but sometimes it's cold and soothing.
And I don't need to control my chakra. I have so much chakra that it even influences my hair. I have dual affinities: Suiton and Katon. My hair can be a deep blue, almost black, or dark red, like dying embers. From what I read in the clan records, everyone in the clan has a strong affinity with Katon and Suiton, but sometimes children like me are born, who seem incapable of sensing or using any other chakra nature.
In simple terms, I might live a hundred years, but I'll never, ever be able to use Doton or Raiton. The scroll also talked about Yin chakra and Yang chakra, but honestly, I didn't understand much about that. Yet.
I meditate to gain control. My emotions can influence my chakra, and I end up doing things unconsciously, like burning those bastards on the roadside or creating a small river in the camp because it was too hot.
And that's a big problem, not just for me, but for all the youth of the Engetsu clan. Before the current era of the Uchiha and Senju clans, the Engetsu clan was prominent for decades, for one reason.
Everyone in the Engetsu clan had the ability to use chakra, and they were all shinobi. There was never a single civilian in the clan.
The Senju clan, the Uchiha clan, the Hyuga clan, the Uzumaki clan, and the once all-powerful Seijin clan, all had civilians among their descendants, no matter how strong some of them might have been.
"Haa…"
I digressed too much and lost my concentration, slipping out of the zen state. Clearing my mind, I focused on nothing and everything at the same time.
A warm energy bubbled in my belly and spread through my arms, legs, and head.
I willed the energy to become cold and serene like water, and after some effort, I succeeded. Kuro told me that unlike the norm, where elemental affinity just makes it easier, or the lack of it makes mastering an element harder, my affinity is already at its maximum or near maximum with Katon and Suiton.
On the other hand, I can't use any other element. It's like my chakra is only water and fire, and any other element is insistent.
Of course, high affinity doesn't mean I'm free from mistakes. If I want to create a fireball, I might use too much chakra, but that won't make the fireball bigger; it just means I wasted chakra and the damn fireball will burn my face.
From what I understand, after reading all the ninjutsu scrolls that I... well, stole—or rather, took for myself, since I'm the current and rightful leader of the clan—that belonged to the Engetsu clan, jutsus are nothing more than a simplified way of shaping chakra and creating or changing something we desire.
A younger shinobi needs a specific jutsu to raise a stone wall using Doton, while an experienced shinobi shapes chakra without the need for hand signs or techniques.
"Control brings excellence. Patience is a necessary virtue."
These were the words used in the training of the young Engetsu clan members.