My heart quickened as I felt excited.
But just because of this excitement, I forgot that I got a heart problem so my heart tingled when my excitement went up.
I clenched my chest but I still proceeded to go to where was the albums located.
In the movie, the adult Liam always went to the attic to look at the albums.
But I never knew what time is it as it was always dark when adult Liam went to the attic.
Will I be able to see him now?
My cheeks went pale as I excitedly was about to yanked the curtain that was preventing me to see the inside of the attic when suddenly. The stairs that was closed automatically opened. I turned around to see my mom anxiously going to the stairs, holding a stick, maybe served as her weapon.
"..."
"Kate! What are you doing here?!" mom anxious and angry words echoed as I clenched my heart more.
Too much excitement really is not good for me. But still! I planned not to pay attention to mom as I wanted to look back but Mom, as if really suffering into some sort of panic, yanked my head and started scolding me.
"Didn't I tell you to never go in here?! Why are you so stubborn?!" I furrowed my brows as mom saliva drooled over to my face.
As I also clenched my chest further since I really felt too tight. Maybe Mom saw that I was having a difficult time breathing so she stopped scolding me and just hugged me and then went downstairs.
I was full of reluctance when I was hugged back down, my reluctance become even stronger as I saw a big shadow moving around behind the curtain.
Probably, about to hide himself again in this walls.
My eyes turned red as I have the urge to cry like a kid. But I held it in as I plunged my face in my mom neck. What can I do about this thing if adult Liam would not even want to show up now? When I am not even the heroine that the villain would willingly show up in front of me.
After a long time of resting my face in my Mom neck. I did not even know I already dozed off.
Perfectly missing the chance to meet adult Liam and doll Liam whom had appeared out of nowhere in the attic and was currently spying at me.
Dozing off as I felt tired even if I only done 1 activity for the day.
Maybe I should accept and get used to it, that the body I possess right now was a kid, who had a lot of energy after sleep but would have its energy drained in the next second after just doing 1 activities, especially if this shell was having heart problems since birth.
"..."
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"We need to get her into a campus" interminent voice transmitted to my ears as I slowly opened my eyes. Looking at the unfamiliar ceiling above me. I admit that I really cant get used to this sight.
I missed my doll wallpaper that I painted at my ceiling back at my apartment. Turning my head, I looked at my parents that was talking in a not particular low or loud voice. So I heard what they were talking about.
I was too focused on what my parents were talking about that I did not see Liam(the doll), slipping into my arms.
I looked at the doll who suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my arms.
I did not feel surprise and freaked out like a normal child as I only blinked twice then flashed a bright smile.
I saw how Liam sky blue eyes rolled a little when I flashed him a smile.
My bright smile hung upon my lips as I got an urge to laugh but then I become moody once again after I heard my big sister voice.
"Kate what are you doing?! You are choking him to death" Jane snatches Liam while scolding me.
I flinch as I saw how Liam almost had a broken arm because of how hard Jane snatches him back from my arms. But I pretended not to care as I expressionlessly looked at Jane and did not talk.
Sometimes, I wonder why Jane got the doll.
I mean she was 8 years older than me.
I was 14 and she was 23.
It was the age that really was not fond anymore to a doll. But in the case of my big sister that seemed to have fetish with dolls. My belief is starting to shatter that adult also need dolls to play with.
"Please stay away from my doll Kate. For god sake!" Jane voice was really loud so my parents who was just minding their business and did not even notice that Jane got in my room finally paid attention inside.
"..."
"Jane! What are you doing?!" Dad barges in and asked Jane what she is doing.
While Mom went to my side and caress my hair.
I did not feel anything when I saw that the situation was like, being spoiled by my parents. And that without even explanations, it was obvious that my parents would be siding me.
It was a biased attitude.
It was lucky that Jane seemed to not mind this behavior as she continued to say, not caring at all at the gaze that our parents used to gaze at her.
"She was choking my doll! How outrageous!" Jane said angrily, while having her angry gaze directed at me again. I wanted to laugh. There was no way, I would perform choking on a doll that I loved the most.
But if they looked at 'Kate' perspective. It was not that surprising that Jane would say this. Mom and Dad become silent, maybe they also agreed with this.
But then, it did not take long for them to talk again as they wryly reason.
"She is sick though, you can't just shout at her" I was silent all the time as the three of them.
My eyes were lowered as I fell into deep thought.
No one knows what am I thinking, even the doll that I did not see who glanced at me for a moment did not know what I was thinking.
Sigh.
I heard my dad sigh.
It was a sign that the fight which started probably because of me, was already finished.
".."
"Let's just eat" I turned my head to look at the sky through the window.
It was gloomy but it does not mean that it was dark.
The clouds was cloudy so I supposed its already afternoon.
Did I-skip breakfast?!
"Let's eat our breakfast now" I silently sighed in relief after hearing what Mom said.
It is still morning.
The sky outside was just cloudy.
"It gonna rain soon so you-" Mom looked at me while still caressing my hair.
Jane already gone outside to prepare for breakfast, I think?
As my Dad also went out to prepare for breakfast too.
So me and Mom was the only one that was left in my room.
"You are forbidden to leave the mansion or roam around the mansion for today, did you get it?" Mom said with her eyes looking very stern at me.
I was silent as I finally nodded my head after seconds passed.
"And oh. I repeat again, don't go to the attic, do you hear me?" Mom said, this time, her eyes was not the only one that was stern but also her voice.
Maybe Mom did not notice it.
But her tone was as if commanding me to follow what she said.
This time, I did not nod my head as I turned deaf to what Mom said.
Mom helpless sigh sounded.
Maybe she already knows that I won't listen to her per of 'Kate' original behavior.
Phew.
It seemed that the original Kate helped me with this once again.
I finally went to the dining table to eat.
As expected, I saw that Liam was placed exclusively in a chair while having a plate, already full of food in front of him. I did not pay attention to this thing as I peacefully gone to my signature chair and eat my own breakfast.
Noises of the utensils were heard after we are done saying "Grace".
Except for Liam utensils that remained untouched. I did not pay it any heed as I know that the adult Liam will be the one that will eat this food later.
I was the one who finished eating first. As I got my plate and put it into the sink.
I wanted to roam the mansion-or should I say, the attic once again, when I was suddenly called by my parents.
"Kate" Mom voice sounded as I stopped on my tracks and turned around to look back at them.
"We wanted to tell you something" Mom said once again after Dad caught me and put me into the chair once again.
Liam was still there sitting, and if you were wondering where is Jane. She was currently there, washing the dishes, without having the choice not to do it.
"..."
"Kate, we wanted to tell you that-" Mom paused as she looked at Dad.
Dad smiled at me and then continued on talking.
"You are finally going to the campus again! How is it? Are you happy?" Dad said with a grin on his lips, as if he had delivered such a great news.
But..
For me, if ask.
This was not a good news, but a bad news.
I am not happy at all!
Why am I starting school all over again?!