After some minutes I went home. Grabbed some snacks and slipped into my room like fresh water. Sometimes i feel like I am porcupine and have quills all over my body otherwise why wouldn't anybody want to come near me? As I was lost in my own thoughts, I dive into my bed. Am I dying or just feeling sleepy? My heart is feeling heavy. After I swept my hands and moved the cotton pillow from face while lying down, I saw the little devil siting comfortly on my chest.
"Haaaah, you went let me sleep" I sighed.
"meow"
I got up from the bed and walked towards my table. I turned the chair towards the window and sat calmly on it. My cat jumped on my lap as she makes herself comfort. I played a realxing music and putted on my earphones. The night sky is beaming with light as the stars shine their brightest as if they were a white flame. The river stars are questioning my existence. I looked at my dried hands and it soon got wet.
"uh.. what? Why Am I crying?" I tightened my fist. No don't want to think about her, no. The table lamp is dimming.
I feel cold as if I was thrown from the highest top of the sky to the deepest bottom of the ocean.
"Yooooo Asahi" a smiley face filled with light waves at me
"lets go, shall we?"
"who are you?" I mumbled in sheer confusion and it echoed through my room which has turned white now. I tried to ran towards the person but fell very hard. By turning left I saw my pillow.
"ah this was a dream" I got up from bed, washed my face. As I sat in front of my table and started studying, my mom entered the room By knocking on the door.
"Asahi can you go to market?"
"hmm sure" I replied to mom as I took the bag and went out.
As I was walking down the street after buying the goodies, I saw Aoto playing with some colleague boys. It normal for him to walk along with bigger people, it's quite his personality. I don't know how he became my friend. Maybe it was my luck. I decided not to brother him and started to walk to home.
I came back home. Scrolled on mobile for for few hours. Sometimes I act like a crazy addict on social media. I went to the balcony and sat there for a while. Suddenly I started to feel warm. Then I saw my haven walking down the street. I Don't know if she knows about me, I don't know if she knows about my feelings. She was looking like blue pearl standing in hundreds of pebbles. As she was gone from my eye sight my heart soon became empty. As if something precious was taken away from me.
I went to my room and lied down on bed. I try to hold back my tears as I tightened my fist while rolling up myself.
"Am I not the one?" I mumbled in sadness.
As I sigh the next day starts. I entered the school quitely letting no one to know about my existence. As I climb the stairs I saw Arata standing with his minions. I tried to avoid him and entered the class. After sitting on my desk I started to draw what I saw in the dream. That face it was familiar to me. Minutes later Arata came and stood beside my desk with his three goons. I ingnored him but he kept shouting at me. Suddenly he kicked me and I fell off the desk. He grabbed me by my collar but as he was about to punch me an huge figure bashed Arata into his head with its humongous hands. Arata fell on the ground and the figure tried to help me get up by giving a hand.
"Asahi , remember me?" the figure tapped my shoulder as he smiled. I remained silent as in silent I was confused.
"oi how could you forgot? Haaaah , it's me Haruto"
All the memories started overflow me. I found all the summers we spend together in front my eyes. I started feel warm.
"Haruto! Your face is quite changed. It's been a long time no see." I smiled towards him as if I could cry in happiness. He was my only bestfriend when I was little.
"but how are you in this school? Did your father transfered?"
"yeah. so now we live in Tokyo."
"that's great. Let's sit together"
I didn't realize how fast the first three classes ended while I was talking to him. He was shocked by my change my change in behaviour. He made me remember how jolly I used to be back in days. There was no one in our area that I haven't made lugh. How good it was back then. Nowadays I only think of her. What did she did to me? I don't know. I die trying to understand the reason, it will not be worth it unless i hear it from her. Recess has started, I introduced Aoto to Haruto. I let them know each other and went to roof top to eat my lunch.
"Aoto,I have a question." Haruto said as he looked towards Asahi walking towards the stairs.
"sure, what is it?"
"what happened to Asahi? I think you can tell Since you are close to him." Haruto asked Aoto in a concerning voice.
"hmm… Asahi have fell in love with girl but he doesn't know if she likes him or not. That's why he is depressed quite recently. And don't know what else happened to him." Aoto nods his face in disappointment.
"Oh, who is that girl?"
"she is in 10-c of our school, Atsumi"
As I was thinking about her eating my lunch the door of the roof slightly opened. Light is beaming from the gap of the door. As if my whole life was meant for this moment. She entered the roof. Her blue eyes are like the depth of ocean as I was lost and drowned in them. Walking flawlessly towards me, she came and sat on the beside me. All my emptiness in my heart was gone. Her scent became even stronger when wind started to blow her hair.
"Do you like me?" in her relaxing voice what she said left me amazed. I wasn't able to look towards her as I was super shy. I remained silent cause I don't know what to answer.
'hey, just say you like me or not" she said it louder this time.
"I.. what?" I mumbled looking away.
"if you don't like me then why do you follow me? I been noticing you following me and looking at me during classes." She shouted at yet it felt claming.
"listen if you like then let me know and don't follow me I don't like that" she stood up and sighed as if she was disappointed. Minutes later she was gone.
"Aaaah what do I do!" I screamed in happiness.