From far away , someone is smiling and
going back towards the gate which is in white color , where she comes from .
I don't know why she was smiling but a
little bit of pain and the little bit of bitter
taste is in my mouth .
My heart beat was moving at high pace
but I don't know how to express that ..
But the tears is left in my eyes but they
don't come out, from outside I looks like
a heartless man. But I am not ..
She was smiling and trying to say to me ,
forget about me and move forward ...
But our memories will never die, we can
run from the truth , but not forget about
it .
Whenever, I see the things that is related
to you, it feels like that everything stops
and the flashback are started to be
inserted in my mind .
Without knowing myself, I froze and
some tears comes out from my eyes .
How much you can run but you have to
fight for it , but my courage is unable to handle the burden of my heart .
I tried to run , but that moment and a
little bit of emptiness is left inside in my
heart.
With the time , everything goes back to
normal , but that's impossible for me .
Now , who will make a food for me when
my mother will not make a food of my
taste ?
Who will always punish me for not brushing my teeth before eating ?
Now ,who will love me to his whole
heartedly ?
My motivation for moving forward has
formed many cracks with time , but that
smile can make my heart pace.
When I know about your disease, I feel a
little bit of sad but I forget about it or I
run from it, but I have to face it .
I can't run from it , but it gives me a false hope but false hope is also good without
accepting the truth..
When you leave , I was too much gone in
my life - school to tution and phone
I didn't give you time and neglect you ,
it's not my carelessness but hiding from
the truth.
I have become self centred, that any
person can't become and that's one of
my regret.
If I have power to go back in time , I will
surely do all the tasks that you have give
me
Anything you say , I neglect it but this
regret I have to end it .
In the past ,whenever you tried to hug
me , I feel uncomfortable but when your
body without soul was lying on the floor .
I want to not let it go ,but at that time I
don't think too much but after 2 days .
I cry whole heartedly and I also don't
want to show my pathetic look to any
body .
After some days , I also cried one more
time .
Now even writing this my heart has pain
that I am unable to tell or write . If I get a
little bit of boost , I can cry .
But why God after so many problems in
his life , you have to take her back when
everything is getting back on a track.
Why God , you have to do it ?
After, taking her towards the ganga , my
heart is not hurting but when I am
coming after seeing the body burning.
I don't have anything to say and
emptiness is left whereas in metabolism
my heart is working.
I can hear the sound of my heart, but in
heart only regret left.