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The next day, I woke up and realised I was in the hospital with my family looking out for me.
They all looked so worried and I didn't care about them. I turn deaf and look at the outside when the sun is dazzling into my eyes.
The birds are chirping happily and the weather feels so nice and warm. It is great for other people, but not for me.
As for me, the last day with Alex was the last day for me to smile. But I'm wishing he would be happy even without me.
In the past, the last time I had a tragedy with his parents, I never told him as it is better for him not to know anything. I also didn't keep my promise to them about breaking up with Alex. However, I only persuaded him to continue studying at State for his benefits. I also kept my promise to stay away from him.
I took my phone and received a lot of messages from Alex.
My heart started aching again. I miss him so much. But I need to brace myself and end it for us. For him, I need to sacrifice my own feelings. I should keep my promise to his parents to ensure his safety. "I'm sorry Alex".
It's already 50 unread messages. I blocked his number.
Someday, he may try to use another number but I know that would be him and didn't pick up his call. When I accidentally answer it or read his messages, I pretend not to know him and I only answer when he talks first so I know that was him. It may comfort me sometimes to hear his voice but it hurts more when I can't reply to him and only listen to his voice.
My life goes by, from time to time, wishing for it to heal my wound.
As people said, time would help you forget but not heal it. The memory will be there in your mind, you still get hurt sometimes.
As I finish school, I don't continue my studies and I start to do bad things. That's because I was too afraid that Alex would find me. I can't let myself be found again by him and try to hide myself from him. It is better if I lay low.
I cut my ties with my family and my friends to make sure Alex won't get to find me forever.
After graduating from high-school, I lived in a rural village with the old grandma who rented her apartment to me. I never thought our faith would last till this long. Her name is Grandma Yim.
She brought me to her house at XXX where it is located far away from the city. Her house was built up in the mountains at Jirisan.
From now on, I will live here with my new identity. People know my name is Lee Carl. But only little know my real name is Lee Han Sung. I live here in this village as Lee Han Sung and hide my other self, Lee Carl, who once lived in Seoul.
It is kinda hard for me to live in a new environment, however I get used to it after 5 years living there.
I already got a new phone under grandma's name. However, all my acquaintances didn't know this number.
Every day, I would help her keep her business. She has a lot of farms and she already has workers working out for her. They all manage the farms and wire her the money. Some of the crop will be sent to her restaurant.
She loves to socialise with the community here and many old folks come to her restaurant. Sometimes her neighbours would spend time with her. She looks like someone that never would feel lonely in her life.
(At her house)
Grandma Yim: You jerk. How long are you gonna stay here?
Me: Don't be like that. I'm not freeloading you. I work too.
Grandma Yim: That's not what I mean. You look like someone who is running from something. Perhaps, are you a murderer?
Me: Aigoo. Don't talk like that. If I'm a murderer, I already be a millionaire with your fortune.
Grandma Yim: Look at you. Always talk back. I don't know anything about you. But what I can tell, you are still young. You still have a long future awaiting you. I want to remind you, so you don't regret it when it's already late.
Me: You're right. But I already regret it... 10 years ago.
Grandma Yim: What did you say? Can you speak it out loud?
Me: Nothing. Have you finished cooking? I'm quite hungry.
Every day, she insisted that I go away and live a better life. But she didn't know my real reason for staying there.
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The next day, I went to the market to buy some groceries. The market was located at the village where I needed to walk down to the mountain's leg.
It's been a long time since I was secluded from society. I don't know what happened in the outside world.
When I was passing by the store with a television there, I noticed there was news about a young man who is becoming a chairman at a young age of 25 years old.
I was surprised because that's around my age.
Me: Gosh, he must have super luck on his side.
I wonder who the young man's name is and it was Kim Seong Hwan.
Me: Gosh, he looks so handsome. But why does he kinda look similar to someone?
After that, I ignored that and went to the place that I used to go.
At the farm, I met with Jang Neom Mu, 27 years old. He is a farmer here and has been living here since birth. He inherited his father's farm and helped them grow their farm. He is tall and tanned as he is bathing in the hot sun every day to keep the farm. He has a big strong body as he always keeps doing hard labour that became his own gym to build his strong muscles.
I looked at him from afar as he was lifting a huge trunk on his both shoulders.
I called for him and approached him.
Me: Yaa, Mr. Jang!
Jang: Oh, Mr. Lee. Good evening.
Me: Come here. I have brought something for you.
After that, I offered him Grandma's food that she told me to give him.
It's been 5 years since I came here and I'm already close to him.
Me: How is it? Is it good?
Jang: Yaa, this is the best. I'm totally hungry. Thanks to her I'm filled up now.
There were 3 packed meals that she told me to give as usual.
The first one is the biggest packed meal for Mr. Jang because he is a farmer and needs to consume a big portion to refill his energy.
The second one is for Song Ji Hyun, 26 years old. He is a policeman that is friendly and nice to Grandma Yim. He is the one who keeps this village safe. I will pass this to him later.
The last one is for Park Tae Joon, 18 years old. Grandma doted on him like her son. She wants him to have a good meal and give him a spirit to study. I will pass this to him for the last because he is still not coming back from school.
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Under the scorching sun, I watch Jang finish his food. I can't stop staring at his body.
Me: (Why was he always shirtless? At least put on some clothes)
Jang: *burp*. It tasted so good. But I have something that I want.
Me: Huh?
Jang: I want my dessert.
Mr. Jang grabbed me suddenly and kissed me deeply.
Me: Yaa, what if someone sees us?
Mr. Jang: Don't worry. This is a big farm. No one can find us.
I felt relieved when he told me that.
I start to touch him and feel his pecs. It's so hard and alluring. His butt is so big and plump.
Jang: Hngh... Can you fuck me already?
Me: Fine. You dirty whore.
I started by licking his sweaty body that was sweating. However, it tastes sweet and makes it better for me to lick him. I can't stop biting his nipples. He has a big chest and I non-stop squeeze it like pumping milk.
I fuck him while our body showered in our own sweat under the scorching sun.
That's right, I have done this a long time ago with him. I feel pity for him who has no one to relieve his stress in this village. No one would take care of his inner desire.
In the past, I gave myself to him and seduced him when he was tired and sleeping when I delivered him the packed meal.
I took my chance to masturbate him while he was fast asleep.
The moment he woke up, he was shocked and refused it at first. But my words deceived his innocent side.
The first time I did it with him, he released a ton of sperm that he kept for 27 years.
He cum into my mouth all of it when I try to get up after giving him the blowjob, but he pushes my head deeper. I was about to drown because of his cum.
That's how we end up having sex every once in a while at the farm.
His virgin ass got penetrated by me when I went around 10 times with him. He is pretty good to hold longer when having sex because he has a lot of stamina.
Having public sex with him really feels different than doing sex privately.
After cum in his ass while doing his favourite 'cowboy-position', I get to stroke his dick while my lips can kiss him or such his nipples. He loves that because he can see my beautiful face while I can see his hard six-pack.
He lay on the ground while his body was twitching like crazy. He was taking a rest after orgasm like crazy. I must have overdid it.
I put on pants back. I left him after that and brought the packaged meals together with me.
While walking to the next place, I could smell my shirt was filled with sweat.
Me: Gosh. Now I smell like him. His pheromones stuck with me.
Luckily, I brought my cologne to cover my body odour after sweating so much.
As I reached the police station, I felt relieved because they had an air conditioner. It was really great to have an air conditioner in this village.
Police 1: Are you looking for Mr. Song?
Me: Yes. Is he here?
Police 2: He is working out for patrol. That diligent rookie. I will call for him now. How dare he make his friend waiting for him.
Me: *chuckled* Oh, it's fine. I'm good.
After a while, I could hear a car parked outside and see it was Mr. Song. I rush to him and get in his car.
Song: You! It's been a long time since I have seen you.
Me: Shut it jerk. I'm so hot now. Can you put it high (Air cooler).
Song: Ok 2x. But do you have something for me there?
Me: Oh that's right. Here. Eat it now.
Song: For real?! Yes!
He looks so happy as I give him the food.
Song: Do you have water? I'm a bit thirsty.
I shake my head.
After a while, he finished the food.
Song: Really? Then, wait a sec.
Just as he was about to leave, I immediately stopped him by holding his hand.
Me: Why would you need water when you got me?
Mr. Song was speechless as I kissed him.
He was really thirsty when he started to suck my saliva from my mouth.
Me: How is it? Are you still thirsty?
"Yeah.. I become more thirsty for you". He told me that with his husky voice. His eyes staring into mine.
As we are afraid that someone might see us, I only do it lightly with him. I pulled off his zipper and his dick burst out from his pants.
Me: You worthless scum. Do you want me to milk this shit?
He nodded.
His 20 inch cock was inside my mouth as I gave him a deep throat while my hand was playing with his nipple. He also has a fit body as a policeman and has a big chest.
Song: Gosh. I'm about to be crazy. You smell so good.
Me: Of course. Do you think I would give you more if you compliment me?
He was smirking.
I give him the best blowjob that I gained from my experience and he is starting to make a lewd face.
As he is about to climax, I can know just by his breathing that start moving faster.
Suddenly, he cum inside my mouth and I had to swallow it or it would pour out and hit his uniform.
I didn't get to fuck him for today, but I already have enough with Mr. Jang.
But I already have done it many times with him and I could tell that doing sex with someone in uniform feels a bit different.
He looks more attractive and alluring.
In the past, when I fuck his butt while he still in his uniform, I couldn't feel anything but enjoying the sex.
I can't believe I get to fuck a policeman. When I unbutton his shirt and grabbed his big breast, he looks like a dirty slut getting raped. He would make an erotic noise and lewd face. I can see that he is much more sensitive when I fuck him at the police station secretly than fuck him in the car.
After that, I left him when I finished giving him the food.
He offered to send me to Park's house but I politely declined his offer because it is nearby.
When I reached Park's house, he was also in front of the house that had just returned from his school.
Park: Hyung!
Me: Hey kid. Look at you now. Wah, you have grown up now.
Park: Of course. I have been exercising and playing sports. I'm hoping to grow up so I can take care of you.
Me: *Chuckle*. That's so nice of you. Here, I bring this as usual. Grandma told me to watch for you if you are studying well.
Park: Urm.. It smells delicious. I can't wait to try it.
He received the packed meals and thanked me.
Park: Are you busy? Why don't you come in?
Me: What? But aren't your parents at home?
Park: Don't worry. They are still working in the field.
He pulled my hands to follow him inside.
Park: Hyung. Can you wait for me? I have something to ask you. There's something I don't understand.
Me: Geez. I told you I'm not good at studying.
Park: Don't worry. I just need your help so that only you can do it. Take your time watching TV.
I do as he said and watch the TV.
Me: (How long I haven't watching it? I don't even know the new celebrities. Gosh, they got a new group debut as well. KPOP now is so different from when I was young. There is also news about a young man, named Kim Seong Hwan.)
The news showed the same person that I saw at the TV in the market. He looks elegant and astonishing with his expensive clothes. There were so many cameras taking his picture.
Me: (That's him again! He looks like someone that I know. I wonder who it is)
Park: Why, hyung? Do you know him?
Me: Oh, nothing. He just looks like someone that I know.
Park: Impossible. How would you know someone as perfect as him?
Me: Right?
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After that, Park finished his meals and sat right beside me.
Suddenly, he leaned his head on me. My arm was wrapped onto him as we were cuddling each other.
Park: Hyung, can you... teach me as usual?
Me: Huh? But didn't we already do it last time? You are still young. I'm afraid your body couldn't bear it.
Park: It's fine. I still have a lot to learn.
He started to stroke my bulge.
"I promise you I will work hard to excel in my study". He talks to me while making a cute face. I can't handle my own feelings and my lust takes over my desire to molested this child.
While sitting together on the couch, I kissed him while my hand started to take off his school uniform.
Me: Let's do it in your room. I will teach you... Everything you need. *smirk*.
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In the room, the young high-schooler boy was left naked. Park was young and cute. But he has a fit body and also has abs. I was impressed that he has been working out since the last time I remembered his past body.
Park: Hngh... Hyung... That's too deep... I can't stop.. Cumming.
The room was a mess as we were having sex so wild. I try different anal sex position with him and abuse his ass like a prisoner and fuck it as I want.
I forced him to do oral and cum inside his mouth.
He left without any strength left.
Park: I'm so full. My eyes feel heavy. I feel so sleepy.
Park Tae Joon fell asleep on the bed and I decided to leave his house before his parents came back. He must be tired from school. I went home after cleaning up his house and left a note for him, "Good luck on your study, little brother"
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When I was at home, I received a call from an unknown number.
Me: Hello, who is this?
???: Hello sir. My name is Shin Jihyuk. May I ask you some questions?
Me: Yeah, sure.
Jihyuk: This is Grandma Yim's phone, right? May I know who this is?
Me: Oh, I'm her grandson. Why?
Jihyuk: May I have your name please?
Me: My name is Han Sung.
Jihyuk: I see. Thank you so much, sir. Can I talk to your grandma, Mr. Han?
Me: Too bad. She is not here. Do you have anything to say to her?
Jihyuk: Frankly, we are searching for a missing person. If it is possible, have you ever heard of someone named Lee Carl? Perhaps, you've ever heard your grandma talk about him.
The moment I heard that name, my adrenaline rose. I accidentally talked with someone that was searching for me.
"It must be him!" I monologue to myself.
Jihyuk: Hello sir. Are you there?
Me: Oh, yes 2x. Sorry. I think I've never heard that name. I live in a rural village and never know someone with that glamour name.
Jihyuk: I see. Could you please ask your grandma if she is free to call us? That would be helpful for us.
Me: Okay. I will tell her later when she is home.
Jihyuk: Alright then. Sorry for taking your time. If you ever heard that name, don't hesitate to call this number so we could help this missing person back to his family.
Me: Hm, sure. Thank you too.
We hung up the phone.
I was so shocked. My head went blank.
Me: (How far did he know about me? He is already searching for this old granny?)
I thought maybe there was evidence left that I met this granny somewhere and they decided to search for me by tracking Grandma Yim.
I don't take any second thought to go home immediately.
Grandma Yim: What's the matter? Why is your face so pale? Are you sick?
Me: I'm fine, grandma. I just need to do something.
Grandma: Where have you gone till you look like that? You look like someone that sees someone already dead back to life (ghost).
Me: That's right, grandma. He shouldn't be here already.
Grandma: Fine. If you really have to go. Wait a sec for me to pack up your food.
She gave me a packed meal and pocket money.
Me: I don't need this, grandma.
Grandma: Just take it you insolent brat. Don't you know how to treat your elders? Just accept what we give.
Me: Tch. Fine. Thank you grandma. Please take care of yourself.
I give her a hug before going and apologise to her for leaving her so suddenly.
Grandma: Don't bother about me. Finally you got somewhere to go. I'm more grateful for that.
I know she only wants to please me, but I am still reluctant to leave her.
I don't have a choice but to leave her alone. Maybe because I have lived here for so long, for 5 years it is hard for me to leave her. I promised her that I will come back again.
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