Arias pov
In these two week of Selena hospitalization I started seeing Steven in a different light. His love, care concern and how he is with Selena isn't just out of pity or friendship.
I feel more drawn to him now after staying two week without communicating with him as we used to. For the first time in my life am starting to realize that he means more than a friend to me.
I had always felt drawn to him but I simply downplay it for friendship and attachment, now I can't help stare at him subconsciously.
And my heart burns whenever I see him interact with Mandy. Hey, what is it am feeling for this guy now huh?, maybe am losing my mind.
But I felt like a magnet pulled to him, it's crazy how I now feel the emotions I once thought as friendship are threatening to be more than friendship in my heart.
Kendall's words rang in my head again, leaving someone who had always been there for someone new, was she referring to Steven, ofcourse Steven who else?. Why the hell wasn't my brain functioning like it should have before.
I had to go and live with another man, thou not involved wither physicallyvor emotionally to understand my true feelings for my best friend who had always been there for the highs and lows.
I was mindless seating in Kendall's living room with my computer not paying full attention to the work at hand when Steven walked in, and my heart went banging in my chest as if it's going to escape.
God, why is it that it's now am understanding this feelings and I never paid attention to them in the past, I was way to engrossed in my revenge, my daughter, my company, Selena's kidnapping, the Dontons and so much for me to analyze this feelings. But now with nothing at hand and no stress and pressure of anything I am finally understanding the language of my own heart.
" Hey Aria, what's up, what are you doing" he said in his usual warm tone. " Nothing honestly, just going through last minute details of the project" I replied and looked back into my computer.
" Oh let's see, I was also thinking about something. I want to make some minimal design of the phones structure" Steven said.
" Ohk, show me" I said.
Before he could say a word his phone beeped, when he checked the message his expression changed and I couldn't understand what it was.
" Sorry aria I need to go, Mandy just texted me and I think it's important, see you later" he said as he took his jacket from the chair handle and walked out.
Who if not Mandy huh. She had after all always had a soft spot for him and did a lot of harassment because she liked him, now that she is a good and better version of herself they hang out together more I think she still has a spot for him and it won't be too long for him to start feeling the same for her.
Oh God see me through this would you?.
" Hey Aria what are you up to" Kendall asked as she sat beside me. " Nothing really, just fiddling with my computer" I replied.
" You seen to be thinking about something aren't you" she asked. Kendall had always been a family oriented lady and a mother at heart, even thou she used to be very troublesome before she has a loving heart and could always detect when someone she loves is in a problem.
" Yeah, you know there has been alot going on and my head is a total mess currently" I said with a shrug.
" Give me a min" she said and went to her room. 2 mins later she came out holding a massaging oil, she sat next to me again and said, " Come let me give you a massage, it would help then we would discuss what's happening".
I smiled at her, I really need this massage. I switched off my laptop and placed my head on her laps. She poured some oil in her hand before I felt the feel of her slightly cold hands at my skin, and she started massaging my head softly and gently that it relaxed me, plus the wafting scent of sesame seed in my nostrils.
I closed my eyes to enjoy the moment and cold silence filled the air like a thick blanket.
" Kends, I have a question" I said finally breaking the silence.
" Tell me" she replied.
" What is it when you can't get the other gender out of your head no matter what. Weather you are working eating or just silent their thoughts creep in your mind. When you close your eyes to sleep you end up dreaming about them and your moments together. You feel drawn towards them, and jealous when you see them with someone else" I asked.
" Who is it that's messing with your head? Let me guess, is it Steven?" She asked back.
I opened my eyes and immediately locked eyes with her warm earth brown eyes. " What did you just say" I asked wandering if it's just my imagination or she really mentioned Steven.
" I said what you heard. You are thinking about Steven, he is the one that is constantly on your mind, right?" She asked looking directly into my eyes.
" No, I mean yes, but how did you know" I asked amused. " I have known a long time ago, and your heart knew it all too, you were just overlooking and denying it, but for how long, reality was meant to catch up with you at the end" she replies.
I looked at her as if she was some sort of wizard I didn't know about. She laughed at me, " don't look at me like that, it's not like am clairvoyant or something like that, it's just that I can see reality which you can't because it's about you" Kendall said.
"But...."
" No but, just listen to me" she said cutting me off mid sentence.