"I didn't," An Zhe said in a small voice.
He handed the work notebook to Lu Feng, who frowned slightly and accepted it.
"And the clothes." He took off the coat and handed that to Lu Feng as well. "Thank you."
Lu Feng draped the garment over the crook of his elbow and lowered his head to look at An Zhe.
"There was no need to wait for me," he said. "You could have just left it at the city gate."
An Zhe didn't reply. He and Lu Feng locked eyes for a few seconds before he carefully asked, "Are... you okay?"
Lu Feng looked away. "I'm okay."
His voice was flat, as if nothing had happened earlier.
"... Oh," An Zhe said.
Then An Zhe continued by asking, "Where are you going?"
Lu Feng looked at him. That pair of incisive cold green eyes always made An Zhe think of chilly things. With the addition of the mighty cold wind of the city at night, he, who had just left the warm coat, curled up upon himself slightly.
Lu Feng dropped the coat back in An Zhe's arms.
"I don't know," he said. "I'll escort you back first."
Holding the garment, An Zhe once again draped it over himself. After he put it on, Lu Feng walked ahead, and he followed.
To either side of them was the road formed by the parted protesters. Their expressions were solemn, the corners of their mouths taut and downturned, and they still had not put down the posters and pamphlets in their hands. The papers flapped noisily as they were blown by the night wind.
Every single person stared at them silently, their stances tense. The green, purple, and orange aurora shone on their faces, mixing with their skin tones to form a strange metallic tint.
From those eyes, An Zhe saw distinct hatred and cautious vigilance—if it weren't for their misgivings regarding the gun Lu Feng carried at all times and his privilege of killing people at any time, they seemed like they would be able to do anything.
The same eyes landed on An Zhe as well, and it could even be said that most of them were looking at him. An Zhe involuntarily drew closer to Lu Feng—he knew why Lu Feng wanted to escort him back now. He had voluntarily approached the Arbiter, so the dissenters stared at him like a pack of wolves.
Fortunately, although the size of the crowd was not small, it could not be considered large when compared to the entire city. In less than five minutes, they passed through the demonstration area and stepped onto the residential district's road.
The aurora made the numerous buildings of the residential district cast heavy black shadows on the ground, and the light gray cement road was broken into black and gray stripes by the lights and shadows. Lu Feng's and An Zhe's shadows were also cast onto the ground, elongated, and overlapped with those irregular stripes.
An Zhe didn't know what he should say to Lu Feng, and Lu Feng didn't take
the initiative to speak up either.
Although it was nighttime, this place was by no means quiet. One of the military's big trucks roared past them before coming to a stop at the fork in the road. The vehicle door opened, and the residents who came in through the city gate to seek shelter were released and led into the building and settled in place by a team of soldiers and a staff member of the City Affairs Office clad in a white shirt and holding a notebook.
A man asked a soldier, "How long do we have to take shelter for?"
The soldier said, "It depends on the situation."
Another resident asked, "I heard only District 6 is okay. Can you ensure District 6 will always be safe?"
The soldier said, "There's no definite information. Wait for the Lighthouse's research report."
"Then..." Someone still wanted to ask something but was promptly interrupted by the soldier. "Everyone come with me, hurry."
Disorderly footsteps sounded as they entered the building.
An Zhe lifted his head to look at the number on the upper right part of the
building. This was Building 55.
Lu Feng's footsteps didn't stop, so he didn't stop either. They walked another thirty meters and arrived at Building 56.
Number 56—
Something in An Zhe's heart was touched, and he lifted his head to look at the number, then looked at the pitch-black unit door in the middle of the building.
This area was very close to the isolation gate, and the military had already begun settling people in Building 55, so they would very soon turn to Building 56.
Lu Feng asked, "You wish to go?"
An Zhe shook his head.
Lu Feng's tone of voice was forthright. "Go if you want to."
An Zhe said nothing.
He suspected that the Arbiter and Judges had received mind reading training.
He said, "Let's go, then."
Lu Feng changed directions and walked towards Building 56. An Zhe walked next to him, and as he walked, he pulled out an ID card from his pocket. A string of numbers was printed on the card: 3260563209, representing Building 56, Unit 3, Floor 2, No. 09.
This wasn't An Zhe's room, and nor was this ID card his—it had belonged to Vance, the man who brought him to the Northern Base.
That day, after Vance's body had been carried away, the soldiers gave this ID card to An Zhe to serve as a memento, and he carried it on him at all times ever since then.
An Zhe swiped the ID card to open the room door—it was not yet invalid, which indicated that the base had not yet taken back the right to use this room. He walked in and turned on the light. It was a simple room, and the quilt was carelessly heaped on the bed as if its owner had just gotten up and left. Some daily necessities—a water cup, cigarette case, and lighter—were placed on the table. This was Vance's home.
It had already been a month since Vance died, but An Zhe would sometimes think of him. This entire time, he did not understand why, despite being fully aware that he may have been infected, Vance still chose to return to the base. But on this day, after witnessing the deaths and terror of so many people, when he passed Building 56 again, he felt that, he understood Vance in some sense.
He himself was dominated by instinct, dead-set on risking death by going deep into the base to search for his spore. Perhaps it was impossible for humans to agree with his motivation. But unlike monsters, which were dominated by instinct, humans were a kind of creature often dominated by emotion. They did things that did not conform to common sense or need too many reasons, so as long as he understood this, he wouldn't doubt humans' baffling behavior.
As An Zhe thought this, he gently placed the ID card beneath the cigarette case—he remembered that Vance liked smoking.
After doing so, he turned to leave. Lu Feng leaned against the door frame, waiting for him.
His gaze was akin to a falling snowflake as it landed on An Zhe, seemingly different from before.
An Zhe asked, "What's the matter?"
"I subjectively believe you're human now." Lu Feng turned and walked out.
An Zhe silently caught up, not wishing to make any sound. As expected, the Arbiter had constantly, continually, always suspected he wasn't human.
When they got back onto the road, Lu Feng's communicator rang, and the doctor's voice came from within.
"The detector has been incorporated into the Trial process at the city gate, and the residents' emotions have been placated to a certain extent. The Lighthouse will transfer five more instruments tomorrow, but their speed is still somewhat unable to keep up. Colonel, you may still need to return."
"I know." Lu Feng's voice was cold. "I'll go back in the daytime."
"Thank you. Rest well tonight." The doctor paused. "Now that Director Howard is dead, what'll happen next? In the Outer City, you are the only colonel with executive power remaining. The City Defense Agency's colonel is a civilian, and the distribution of emergency supplies alone is enough to make him lose all his hair."
"The Trial Court will temporarily take control of the City Defense Agency, and all troops will be assigned to rescue work for the time being," Lu Feng said. "After Judgment Day ends, I hope the Lighthouse can assist us in formulating a plan to restart the various dispersers."
The doctor said, "Of course."
Lu Feng hung up, then dialed another number and made work arrangements for the Trial Court. An Zhe quietly listened with his ears pricked up. The Arbiter's words were clear and concise as always, and his tone of voice was cold and methodical as always. Many things happened tonight, but Lu Feng remain seemed to still be that Lu Feng.
An Zhe turned to look at his profile. According to the doctor's words, this person still had to return to the city gate tomorrow, and the man himself also tacitly agreed to return. That young Judge had said that what the Colonel was fighting against were unimaginable giant monsters—perhaps Lu Feng was already used to it.
The only unusual thing he did this night was turn and leave that place.
Once the phone call ended, they arrived at Building 117. Lu Feng seemed to be even more familiar with the roads than him, and the two of them arrived at the door to No. 14 without issue. After turning on the light, everything inside was as usual save for one thing missing from next to the wall.
But even if An Zhe was given the bravery of ten men, he didn't dare to ask where the mannequin was now after being confiscated.
An Zhe asked Lu Feng, who was standing at the door, "Would you like to come in and sit down?"
"No need," Lu Feng said. "You go and rest."
An Zhe hesitated for a while before asking, "Then... where are you going?"
Lu Feng frowned slightly, seeming to contemplate the question.
After a brief period of contemplation, he said, "I don't know."
The communicator screen showed that it was already eleven o'clock at night. An Zhe counted the hours and came to the conclusion that the Colonel may not have rested for nearly forty hours already.
He knew that today's incident was urgent and that many things were Lu Feng and Howard's temporary arrangements. They tried their best to settle the residents in District 6, but those such as the soldiers and the staff of the Trial Court and City Defense Agency may temporarily not have offices or residences, or perhaps there were only simple arrangements for them to rest and spend the night at the residential district near the city gate.
But he felt that the current Lu Feng may not necessarily wish to return to the city gate.
An Zhe felt very conflicted.
His fingers involuntarily clenched and he pursed his lips.
"What is it?" Lu Feng asked.
His voice was a bit soft, and the corridor light was very dim. Perhaps as an effect of the lighting, his contours were not as fierce and forceful as usual.
An Zhe steeled himself.
Even if it was for the sake of his spore, he had to establish a better relationship with the Colonel.
"If... if you don't have anywhere to go," An Zhe said, lifting his head to look at Lu Feng, "you can stay here at my place."
———
To humans, it was very difficult to take back words that they had spoken.
So this was how things turned out.
In the public bathroom on the fifth floor, next to a sink that was covered in brown water scale marks, in front of a faucet, An Zhe held a cup in one hand and a toothbrush in the other as he earnestly washed up. He understood the daily living habits of humans and earnestly imitated them every day, but today, his attitude was even more careful than normal because the Colonel was right next to him.
After finishing, he continued cautiously putting everything away and looked at Lu Feng.
Lu Feng had just washed his face with cold water, and a few crystal-clear drops of water hung from the tips of his damp hair just like beads of freshlymelted snow.
An Zhe silently handed him the towel.
Lu Feng accepted it with a terse word of thanks.
"You're welcome," An Zhe said.
He believed that what he did conformed to human etiquette, for sharing things was something humans commonly did.
He held out his cup to Lu Feng.
"Do you want to use it?" he asked. "But there's only one."
The base was short on materials, so there were limits on the daily necessities allocated to each person. If there was an additional need, one would have to go to the black market and buy on their own. An Zhe only had one cup and one toothbrush. Furthermore, the black market no longer existed, so there was nowhere he could go to buy more.
Lu Feng's eyes were fixed on him, and only after looking for approximately five or six seconds did he move.
An Zhe lowered his head. The dim yellow light of the bathroom cast a pale golden hue on the rim of the cup, and Lu Feng grasped the china-white handle with his slim fingers, taking the cup from his hand. His right hand was the one that held his gun, so there was a slight callus on the pad of his finger. When An Zhe let go, his fingers gently came into contact.
Lu Feng didn't use his toothbrush. He only used the cup to hold water and then rinsed his mouth with a mixture of liquid and toothpaste. Afterwards, he put away the cup, and the two of them walked out.
It was eleven o'clock at night. If it were normal times, the bathroom and corridor's water and electricity would have been cut off in accordance with the base's rules, but the entirety of District 6 had entered a state of emergency shelter today, so the water and electricity restrictions were all canceled. In a state of trepidation, quite a number of people hadn't slept. And because of this, although it was late at night, there were other people in the bathroom—those few people washed either themselves or their clothes while casting surreptitious glances at the two of them. An Zhe noticed, and he knew Lu Feng definitely noticed as well, but the Colonel didn't seem to care too much.
An Zhe walked in front. The bathroom floor was damp and had a few puddles, so he had to walk with his head down to avoid those spots.
When they walked to the doorway, a black figure unexpectedly came from the corner up ahead. An Zhe lifted his head.
"You—" It was Josh's voice.
An Zhe unconsciously took a step back and bumped into Lu Feng's chest. He saw Josh looking at him, wanting to say something—but with a shift of his gaze, he froze in place.
An Zhe had also become half-frozen. Josh just happened to block the door, and he was neither going in nor out.
At that moment, he felt a slight weight on his shoulder, for Lu Feng's fingers had come to rest there.
Josh's eyes were wide open, and An Zhe could practically see his pupils jitter. Then Josh ducked his head, took a step back, and turned sideways, giving way with a deferential posture.
Lu Feng exerted a little bit of effort with the hand on An Zhe's shoulder and steered An Zhe out the door before letting go.
All of it happened within the span of a moment. An Zhe's heart thumped wildly, and his whole body was tensed up, for fear that in front of the Arbiter, Josh would call out "An Ze" or say "he's not like An Ze" or some such.
However, even after they walked more than ten steps away, Josh hadn't said a word.
An Zhe turned back to look at Josh's profile. Josh's fingers, which hung at his sides, were clenched around the hem of his shirt, and the corners of his mouth were taut.
An Zhe suddenly realized something—in this place, what the Arbiter held was authority over every person's life and death. Therefore, the vast majority of people in the base, including Josh, were afraid to say even a word to the Arbiter.
They walked through the corridor and returned to the room. Lu Feng didn't ask him just who that was, nor exactly what entanglements were between him and Josh. Strictly speaking, apart from staying overnight in each other's quarters, he and Lu Feng could only be considered strangers after all.
After returning to the room, Lu Feng sat down at An Zhe's desk, opened his work notebook, and began to take notes. He wrote very quickly, and on the line for 6.19 he wrote:
Judgment Day, countless dead.
Standing to one side, An Zhe watched him and once again pondered a question—what exactly was the purpose of such a work notebook?
He said, "You write so little."
Lu Feng closed the notebook. "It's to satisfy inspection."
His tone of voice was very matter-of-fact.
"Oh," An Zhe said.
Then he said, "I'm going to change my clothes."
"Mm," Lu Feng replied.
An Zhe changed out of his daytime clothes. He had a very soft white cotton nightgown. After changing, he burrowed under the quilt and slept on the side of the bed closer to the wall. Although the base's rooms only had a standard single bed, the bed was by no means narrow—he could even roll over on it. An Zhe guessed that this may have been because the base had many hulking mercenaries who took up a lot of space.
Therefore, after he lay down, this bed had more than enough space to accommodate another person.
After he settled in, he looked at Lu Feng and said, "I'm good now."
He discovered that Lu Feng was looking at the supply depot exam guidebook on his desk.
Lu Feng said, "You wished to go to the supply depot?"
"Mm-hm," An Zhe said.
It was a pity that it seemed like he'd never be able to go—if the Outer City was going to constantly be occupied by bugs.
"Go to the City Affairs Office tomorrow afternoon," Lu Feng said. "In the past few years, there have been many newborns and not enough manpower in the Main City, so the City Defense Agency has been tasked with recruiting people from the Outer City."
As he spoke, he got up from the chair, then took off his coat and draped it on the chair back before walking towards An Zhe. An Zhe knew that those green eyes were examining him.
Then he heard Lu Feng continue. "Although you aren't of much use otherwise, you can go and take care of children."
An Zhe wanted to refute his statement, but he discovered that he actually had no way of doing so.
Feeling very embarrassed, he covered himself up with the quilt.
He heard Lu Feng let out a laugh, and then the side of the bed dipped down as Lu Feng got in.
The chilly scent was very close, and he could hear the sound of Lu Feng's breathing. The things that happened today were like a dream. As a xenogenic, he was about to spend a night with the Arbiter.
"So," An Zhe murmured as he peeked out from under the quilt, "do you still suspect that I'm objectively not a human?"
"You've passed the genetic examination and the thirty-day observation period." Lu Feng's face was expressionless. "You're a human objectively as well now."
"What's the observation period?"
"After being infected, within thirty days, those who have been infected will definitely lose their human mind, and the probability is infinitely close to 1," Lu Feng said.
"Then... would there be xenogenics who don't lose their minds?" An Zhe asked tentatively. "Although they're xenogenics, they still have a human shape and thoughts. They just have an additional ability, being able to change into other living creatures."
He knew that he was a xenogenic, but he also knew that he was still quite lucid.
"Do you think humans' willpower is very strong?" Lu Feng said.
An Zhe didn't know how to reply, but it seemed that Lu Feng didn't need him to reply.
"It's actually not worth mentioning. The Lighthouse has performed many experiments," Lu Feng said. "Humans will not surmount xenogenics' survival instinct. In contrast, xenogenics gradually digest humans' thinking ability and use it for their own survival. Take today's bugs for example. The Lighthouse's investigation report has not come out yet, but I unilaterally believe they were premeditated attacks."
An Zhe slowly opened his eyes wide. This was the first time Lu Feng had spoken for so long, and the weight of his words was very heavy.
He said that the specific will that made humans human was not worth mentioning in the face of gene fusion and that humans were such a weak sort of creature.
"I think that's not right." After being thought of as human both subjectively and objectively by the Arbiter, An Zhe felt much more at ease. At the very least, he dared to talk with Lu Feng a little more. "If their willpower was very strong..."
"It doesn't depend on strength, there is no 'if'."
An Zhe frowned and thought hard. "For example, if you were infected—"
Lu Feng promptly covered him up with the quilt.
"I would immediately commit suicide," Lu Feng said coldly. "Go to sleep."
An Zhe thought that the Arbiter may have become drowsy and was no longer willing to talk nonsense with him—in fact, he himself was sleepy as well. Altogether, Lu Feng hadn't rested for forty hours, and he himself had only slept two or three more hours early yesterday morning in Lu Feng's room. At virtually the moment he closed his eyes, he passed out.
When An Zhe woke up again, he was momentarily unsure what time it was. He sat up from the bed. The entire room was still like how it was last night, with only a faint ray of light coming through the gap between the curtains like weak sunlight penetrating through the Abyss's layered plant branches and leaves. After pulling open the curtains, the room was still very dim, for it was overcast outside.
He took out the communicator and looked at it. It was already 11 a.m.
Suddenly, An Zhe felt that he had forgotten something. With a start, he woke up completely, and he first looked at the bed—there was nothing at all, only him alone, and the same could be said for the room.
Then he discovered a piece of paper lying flat on the table, and next to the paper was a ballpoint pen.
An Zhe got out of bed and came to the table, then picked it up—it was that "oppose the Arbiter's brutality" leaflet. It had been flipped over, and a few words were written on the back of it in black.
I've left.
Call if anything comes up.
Lu
For some reason, An Zhe smiled. He thought that Lu Feng's note was just like the man's work notebook, concisely worded.
After putting down the note, he came to the wardrobe and began picking out clothes to wear to the City Affairs Office. He thought for a very long time, and in the end, he finally took out a gray sweater and changed into it.
Gray—An Zhe lifted his head and looked outside.
The sky and the light in the sky were both light gray and very low, hangingon the tops of the buildings. Thick gray clouds gathered in clumps and extended to the ends of the city and the horizon. It looked like it was about to rain heavily.
An Zhe felt very happy, for mushrooms liked rainy days. Moreover, Lu Feng told him that piece of information yesterday, so assuming he could pass the City Defense Agency's recruitment, he could go to the Main City—and that was where the Lighthouse was. He seemed to have gotten one step closer to getting his spore back.
He decided to not quibble over the matter of Lu Feng digging out his spore anymore.