"Stop!" I growled when he came closer when J was getting dressed.
He grinned, "What am I doing?"
"Playing dumb, that's what you're doing!" I growled, as his eyes ran through all of my body, and he got horny again. "Nope. I'm not going down right now. Control yourself," I yelled, staying away from him. "Oli, come on. We need to read at least two books each. Hold on, okay?"
But the needy bastard pouted and gave me that look. {"But I can't stay out of her. I need her warmth. I need her blood. I need her body on mine. I know she wants it too."} "I'm just looking at you."
I growled, "Looking at me as if I'm your snack!"
{"I mean, she is my food."} "More like a whole meal."
"Oliver!" I gasped, "I won't sleep with you tonight if you keep this up. I'll sleep in my dorm, and you will sleep in the tower. We need to stay out of each other for a minute. You're driving my body and mind insane."
{"Bloody hell no. That's not happening!"} "I don't like it."
Goddess above, he's out of it. "We can't stay with each one hundred percent of the time, Oliver," even though it feels amazing. "We need some time with other people. Remember, you have the Circle. The kids need you."
{"Not. Happening."} He crossed his arms over his chest, frowning with annoyance, "You need me and I need you even more. Besides, we are mates. They can deal with it, Dimitry and Nevena definitely will, they do have mates too. And it's not that I don't want to stay away, it's that I've stayed away for long enough, Hel. We've been sleeping together for days, I'm not giving that up, your night is mine. Besides it's the mating frenzy."
Ugh. "I need to stay a bit in my dorm, Oliver. And this is getting too overwhelming. Telepathy? Empathy? Channeling? Healing? This is too much. I'm practically breathing you, and as delicious as that is, I'll lose my mind if we don't get some time alone."
{"But I don't want to. I'll miss her. And I'm jealous of her spending time with anyone but me. I want it all. All for me."} Oliver put his hand on his hips. "I will miss you, Hel. I know it's too much, but everything is too much when it comes to us. Not when we just fully bonded."
He thinks I won't miss it too? I don't like to see him like this. "Oli," I stepped closer slowly. "I will miss you too," his whole demeanor changed. "But we are really losing total control in here. We get horny all the time, and then we have sex all the time, and it's the best shite in the world, believe me. I know about the mating frenzy, Oli, but we can't let it control us. You make me feel weird all the time, and if it was overwhelming before when I only had to deal with my filthy mind, now it's harder. Because you get hornier than me, and it spreads to me, and then I get horny too."
{"I don't know how to deal with her when she's this honest. But I love every second of it."} "I don't see how that's a bad thing."
"It's not bad," not bad at all. "But it's too much. I'll get excessively overwhelmed, and that's not good. I need to get used to this over sharing now. Because this no boundaries shite will drive me insane. And can we keep it for ourselves? I don't want anyone butting in. Your Circle kids and my roommates plus Felix tend to do that a lot. And you should know how much I'm freaking out now, and why."
{"Ugh. Not this again. Not his bloody fucking shite again. Please not again. Not again. Not fucking again."} And when he clenched his jaw looking angry, he didn't feel angry, he felt sad, and I almost tripped when his emotions his me. "Yes. You're made it uncomfortably clear!" He hissed.
I gulped, blinking, "I'm sorry," I looked away. "Sorry," feeling it all burn in the wrong way, I stepped away, my eyes confused.
{"Why is she… why is she acting like that?"} He faded to me and held me on his arm, but I didn't look at him. {"Please, don't avoid my eyes. Don't do this to me,"} he let out a huffed breath. "What is it? What's going on? Let me help you, beautiful."
"I'm sorry, Oliver," I said again. "I'm hurting you."
{"With wanting to break us? Yes. Yes, she is."} "Hel."
"I'm sorry. It's not my intention to hurt you at all," I looked at his collarbone instead of his face. "But we've talked about this."
{"I'll still never agree with it."} "And what did I told you?"
He makes this hard. "We have diverging thoughts, I know. But it's my way to deal with this, Oli. You know why. I…" I clenched my jaw. "You are in pain," I pressed my forehead on his chest. "And now I'm in pain because you're in pain. It's too real. It's too much. I had no idea how you were feeling, not how much this hurt you," I pressed my lips together feeling like crying. "I don't want to hurt you. Now I'm hurting you because I'm trying to get you safe, even if you don't agree."
{"Don't cry. Please. Don't cry. It breaks my heart."} "Hel," he made me look at him, and he turquoise eyes were so full of pain, so full of emotions, that it made my heart clench. "I know you are scared, and I know you are avoiding to face the truth of what's going on, but I can't keep this inside me anymore," he pressed nuzzled his nose on mine. "I love you, Hel. I love you, babe. You feel it, don't you? You can feel my love for you." {"I can't hold this in me anymore. I can't let her escape from me. She's all I have."} "Hel, my beautiful mate, I love you so much it hurts."
And that was the triggers for the tears that were roaming my eyes, I pressed my face on his chest, letting it out. "Don't do this to me, Oli… It's too much," he held me tighter.
"Shhhh… you don't have to say it back. You don't need to say it if you're not comfortable or confident yet, if you're too scared. The last thing I want is to make you force yourself on something. But you are my mate, and I love you with all my heart, and I'm never letting go of you. We'll still fight because of this, I know, but please," he clenched his jaw, "don't bring it up now." {"It hurts too much."}
Oliver… "Oli…"
He hugged me tighter, "Please, Hel. Don't break me like this. Don't bring that up now, it's too soon, it'll hurt too much. We just got fully mated now, and it's all too strong, too sensible, and we are in a mating frenzy. I can't stay away from you now because my body is screaming to be all over yours, just like yours is begging for the same. Keep this time magic up, let us stay like this, please. It's all I ask you. I don't want to see anybody else. I just want to stay her with you for longer, even if you need to stop time."
"I want to love you more, to show you can lean me, can trust me, can make plans with me, can hope to stay with me, that together we'll go through whatever comes our way. We'll find a way out no matter what, just as we'll find each other no matter where we are. I mean it when I say that I love you. I didn't say sooner because I was scared of scaring you and of you running from me," he cooped my face softly. "I am not afraid anymore."
"Hel, I've loved you before I had even bloody met you. I've loved my mate from the time I was in stasis, to those last 8 years, until now. And now that I found you, now that I've touched your pretty face, now that I've finally got you on my embrace, after craving for you for years, yearning for those blue eyes, and seeing it on my dreams, I can't let you run and break this, just because you are scared of someone else, who hurt you and took everything from you, taking me too."
"I'm here with you. I'm here for you. No matter what come our way, I want you to understand that we'll fight through it all together. That we are stronger like this, and that no one will stand in our way. I'll keep telling you this until you get it inside your bloody stubborn pretty head. You are mine, I'll never let anyone or anything change that," I hugged him tight. {"Yes, beautiful, I am here. Hold onto me, I'll keep you grounded."}
"So, please. Let this time we still have turn into hours, days if possible, and let me take you. The sex is the best, but I want to just be with you. To hug you tight and stay with you in my arms forever. I want to know every single little thing about you, what you like, what you don't, what you prefer, what you doesn't, what makes you feel tingly and weird, what does not cause you anything at all. I want to lay down with you in my chest, to feel the warmth of your body in mine."
"And of course, I need to end every centimeter between us. My body is burning up for you, and yours is the same. Don't think about it, Hel, just give in to it. The mating frenzy needs to be taken seriously, if not, the second we leave and go to separate places we won't even be able to do shite or even less concentrate in anything but the thought of one another. We also won't be able to deal with anyone, or see the other close to anyone without pondering reaping the annoying third person apart."
"Mating frenzy leaves us in feral state, I've read about it. I thought we had gone through it, but this is it. This is intense and overwhelming, and we can't run from it," then he held me up and I enlaced my legs around his torso, his hand on my waist. {"She's so hot. So hot. The way she wraps her legs around me tight always drives me insane, and to be able to touch her like this… I'm blessed. I can't keep my hands to myself!"}
"You could, but why would you want to?" I whispered.
He grinned ferociously, "Indeed, I wouldn't. But genuinely, right now, I have zero control. None. I can only think of you, babe." Then he opened his button-down shirt that I'm using, and faded to the bed, where he laid me on the mattress, then took my panties away, and as he stood up, he undid the waistband of his pants and threw it aside, coming over me with hungry ruby red eyes. "Let me show you how much I love you, beautiful. Keep this magic up and give me full control. We'll only leave this place after we are satisfied." {"Not happening any time soon."} "You are mine."
How can I possibly deny anything to him, when the bloody horny bastard asks me like that? Exactly, I cannot. "I hate you, Oli," I whispered. "You are mine," I whispered, offering my neck to him.
Grinning, he positioned himself over me, "I'm yours," then he sank his fangs into my throat and his cock thrust deep into me, and I melted.
Mine.
He's mine.