Unfortunately, I can't be with him, even he knows that. He is part of that family, his last name might be different, but he shares the same blood with them, and he was brought up by the family. We were friends, and that was a long time ago, not anymore. I spent time with him, and that was it. I married my ex-best friend; his cousin, and he was a total waste of time and energy.
If only we could know what the future holds for us, instead, we live to find out how it spans out; with no control of how it is woven. However, I learned to gain control of it, like a wave, you can either ride it or don't attempt anything, just don't fight it.
In addition to their line of work; that is a no! No. I was done. Death was always lurking in the shadows, if not your own, your loved one, or someone you know; it was definitely part of the conversation during meals, in polite society, and everywhere you turned to.
