TABLE TALK
After his figure retreated, I sigh. I don't know what am doing, and being with him is addicting. I feel like surrendering to him, letting my guard down and whatever he wants. This has been going on for a few days; I'm not in control anymore.
I pour another shot in the glass and drown it, I needed it. For me to keep my calm I needed this, afraid I might say and do things that I may regret later, or question myself, I have to calm myself.
Today the fun loving version of Zola is going to come out, the responsible one should check out for a moment. No overthinking anything and just be in the moment and enjoy what I am presented.
