There was a girl who used to write long messages to her crush...

He was a singer, kpop idol to precise. Her condition was not enough to go and meet him overseas or in person. So social media was all could she ever afford.

Hoping he would reply back or would see her messages she used to message him daily. Telling him how her day was. Asking him how he was? Telling him how much he made her proud.? How he look glorious on the stage. Asking him for suggestions. Bad mouthing people.

Basically everything. She would share everything.

He was her safe place. When everyone and everything haunted her she would run to him without much thought. He was her home.

She was once in love with a boy but he shamelessly played with her feelings. She thought she had loved him but after meeting HIM, seeing him and listening his honey deep voice she came to know what real love was.

The feeling she felt for that boy may be was just an attraction.

After few days she realised she fell for him harder. She Started to love the impossible. She started to expect impossible.

A beautiful imagination to escape from her cruel and harsh reality. It was worth it.

she was happy being in one sided love. Because there was no expectations from another person.

Many people in her life had hurted her so much. Not a single person in her life ever understood her. Not her parents.  Not Her brother. Not Her friends. No one.

Except him. She would wonder so many times how he had managed to be her home. How he made her deserted heart alive again. But it was like destiny . The connection she felt was unexplainable yet she was happy. Even if it was just a imagination. It was okay. It was more than enough.

One thing she would always say that she wanted to live forever. She had lot to achieve .so she could proudly tell him how she made herself strong. She would text him everyday saying those things. With so many purple hearts.

An one fine day her efforts paid off.

That day nothing to do he decided to surprise his fans by replying all of their sent chats. It was his birthday after all and he wanted to give something in return. And him being him doing the most unexpected things ever. It was his charm afterall.

He happily open up the app and started reading and replying.

Three hours passed by so quickly and his thumbs and hands were about to go numb. Gosh there were so many people who loved him.!!! Except of some weird messages all were so soulful and sweet. He felt giddy just knowing how loved he was. A small smile plastered on his lips.

he pressed on another chat . And it was her.

The last message sent was:

'I love you and happy birthday my Teddy bear.I am in hurry. I will talk to you later and miss me.and if you are not going to reply. I will never talk to you again!! It's me your stranger' he chuckled as he shook his head.( see more....)

The fans and their cute threatenings.

It was the date that cause him to read all of the messages. He started from the top of the chats.

It was indeed a long chat.

The chat made him curious of this particular person. He got hooked at her chats, reading each of them carefully.

It took him 15 days to read it completely. He would wait for free time so he could read her chats. They were like full of surprises. Unexpected too. He would never know what will she call him next. Teddy bear, cub, love, sweetheart,pudding, mushroom,puppy all kind of names.

But teddy bear name striked him the most.

The chat was full of her complaints. Her love messages and telling him how proud she was! Along with long ass paragraphs. there were also so many reels of every categories of wide range. Of small puppies. Like she knew how much he adore animals. Of her favourite dishes. Telling him try them.Of some rare songs. Saying that they were her comfort songs and asking him to cover them for her. Of old couples enjoying their time with each other.

Saying she will love him till she looked like them. And everything. The poems, jokes , everything.

But what cought his attention was her chats. They were full of hope. Hope from him. She wrote that she had no one except for him and he was her home.it was very big compliment for him. He was not an ideal person to be someones home. She also wrote that he always comfort her and was the reason she was still alive.

He felt like it was one the best comment he have ever get from someone. How could someone be this open. And to the person she never met with.

Last few messages were about how she graduated from University and how happy she was knowing how he was living his dream life. She also wrote that seeing him successful make her feel completing her dream. That she once wanted to become idol too. But her luck wasn't on her side.

" hey we need to shoot. Get ready." He heard his manager saying and shut his phone off and went to do his work.

It was his last shoot and then he was contemplating whether to take break of one week or carry on with his new drama.

After coming back home. He freshened up and open his phone. Ready to read.

It was last message which was sent on his birthday last year. That means she never messaged him since 1 year.

Curiosity drown him senseless. What could have been happen. ? Did she get married?? Why there is no reel?? Why its empty all of sudden.??! Why its only one paragraph!!?

Bracing himself and hoping her happy ending he started again. He felt like he knew her for ages now.

" hey Love, are you okay! You know that I'm proud of you right. I have never loved someone this much. I know there are so many girls who love you so much. You would say I'm jealous.oh no love. I'm not. I'm happy that so many people love you. I know you would never read this and i am okay with it. Why would you read this trash. Huh!! Don't waste your time on it.! You have so much to do. You need to prove people not with words but with actions. " he pouted at her words. Hey these are not trash.

Your birthday is so special to me that I didn't knew god would give me this opportunity. Oh love. How i wish I could tell you how happy I'm right now . The moon is looking so beautiful from here.and my hands are trembling. You know which song I'm listening right now. It's your winter bear.ah! It's so soothing.i love you my teedy bear. I hope I could tell you . Okay ! Okay ! I know I'm being cringe. Now I will stop.! It's getting long. You will get bored. But I hope I could I find you in another life so I could show you how beautiful soul you are and how you mean so much to me.! Okay okay hehehe final final.!! Hehehe I love you Kim Taehyung.I really do!"

And lastly there was her name and adress. With small text attached to it saying.

I know how naive I'm but it's what it is. !! Visit me sometimes araso. I like forget me not flowers you know that right???'

After shutting his phone off he decided to sleep. Hours passed by and he was still wide awake. Thinking all of the possibilities of her texts and meaning behind them.

Her last message was not full of warmth like others texts. her message always radiated her mood. But this message looked so upright. Like she wanted to talk so much but she couldn't.

Exactly 2 days later he found himself standing in his office to inform his boss.

" hyung , I need  break."

And then left for the said address of her. It took him 14 hours 30 minutes.

After reaching there. It was hard to communicate with people. he was not familiar with language but still decided to visit her once. Just so he could sure of her comfort. Just like fans care for him . He should care for them. After all.she was his ARMY.

Deep down he wanted to surprise her with his presence. He was curious how she was in person. Just like the text or complete opposite. And not to tell She had always wrote how she always dreamt of meeting with him .

it was really unusual of him to feel this way. To felt his attached with someone who he never met and knew only from the text. But he himself didn't knew why he was here in foreign country for that one girl who claimed to be his stranger.

As he get nearer to the said address. A small house was all could he saw. The palce was full of forget me not flowers. It was like fairy tale . All blue. He marched upto it and rang the doorbell.

Feeling stuck and confuse of what he was doing he felt uncomfortable suddenly. What if she moved from here?. What if it was scam message?  Oh gosh kim Taehyung how could you be so naive??!! Aish!! Another possibility What if she won't recognise him.? Well it was nearly impossible. Taking a deep breath He tapped once again and the door clicked open.

The old man was standing there. A confused expression on his face.

He told him about himself after settling in the living room. The old man was her father. It was a cozy house with minimalistic furniture. Just like he ever wanted.

Her Father told her it was her birthday today. And he felt a small smile forming on his lips. he was going to surprise her with his small presence. He had bought teddy bear and forget me not flowers along with him.

" so where is Ahru? Is she out somewhere??" He asked in English scared of his own pronunciations. He knew her family can't speak Korean . She had said in her one of the sent text. To his relief her father replied but that was not what he was expecting.

" She' s there " her father replied pointing towards the picture which displayed her birth and death year with pained expression and he halted his all actions to look at the picture. The girls in her twenties looking so beautiful with her long hairs. She was smiling brightly at him.the teddy bear fall out from his hands along with forget me not flowers.Out of all scenarios he never expected it to be turn out like this.

Her father told him that she died on 30 th December last year she decide to end her life on his birthday by taking overdose of her medicine..

She was insisting to get her mobile in her last moment and was smiling with tear stained smiled. And her family never knew why she was happy in her last moment.

He remembered she had sent him a small text which was right below the last message.

' if ever if ever you reach to me ask my parents for my mobile. Here is the password 30149502 and my last message will be there in my phone case. I m greedy aren't I??'

He asked for the mobile and her father gave it to him without so much asking.

He returned on the same day. He couldn't bear staying there. Her picture decorating her room and her smile was blinding. And it hurted him. He knew he shouldn't be angry on her but he was so disappointed in her.

How could someone end their life. And she said she loved me. Hahaha.  How cruel she is ! He whispered to himself while clutching the device in his hands

After reaching his home country. He braced himself once again and opened the the case and found a small letter in it.

" So Mr Kim. You are here.!! Aish I can't believe it..my baby bear you are so silly. What if I was kidnapper! Huh !!!well I'm going to forgive you because you visited me here! Did you bring forget me not flowers?? Sorry I'm not there to pick them up.

Well did you see my garden full of them??! Did they looked beautiful?! My family is taking care of them right?! If they look fresh and beautiful they are all me. Even I'm withered in real but think of them as me. I planted them to show my love for you. They are beautiful aren't they?? Although you have introduced us the meaning of purple colour but i always see you as my Blue.

I'm sorry I can't be an old woman with whitish hair waiting for you at the park. I can't even hear your revised version of my comfort songs. I can't even cook for you my favourite  meals. I'm sorry that I will not share any reel and text with you cause If you are reading this you are late my love. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I wasn't able to deal with my problems. No ! I was the problem .The feeling of being burden and annoying was so heavy on me.  No one ever loved me.and I know they shouldn't .they left me at my worst making me miserable .And still in my last moment I had to face it yet again. I can't blame anyone though because I know I deserve it. But it's not like didn't fought I fought but finally I lost.

I'm happy knowing that you are reading my message. I can't ask for more. Be happy love. !! Don't stress over !! You have so many people who loved you. And i kind of ashamed to envy you.

If I had some kind of technology i would have messaged you everyday after my death but my bad...hehe . You need to be safe and sound okay. And don't ever came like this if someone  sent you messages like me. Not everyone is like me!!I'm not there to confront you anymore. Know that I loved you till my last breath.  I  loved you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch everything go wrong.

Are you mad at me for loving you more than an idol??! But it can't be helped right?? Don't be mad please.! I don't regret a single second of me being  hopelessly in love with you.!!!

Let's meet in afterlife.....just for seconds or minutes...but in that moments I want you to be mine only...just for seconds until I reincarnated again...I am not hoping us together but i hope my God will let me hug you just for once for my sake...

It was never  you, it was me, it was the silence underneath the stars that understood my heartbeat and it was racing when I first saw you..you were my moon and I'm black sky behind you.... You  told me nothing. I believed everything. In that moment I found life... In that moment I found my home.. in that moment I found you. because of you I lived my best TaeTae.. accept my apology.

Your

Stranger."

A lonely tear escaped from his eyes as he tossed  the letter down and went outside of the apartment.

It was not the ending he ever expected..