Chapter 20 - 20

  Lu Heng went to Japan to play soccer, while Xiang Yu continued her busy life, attending classes and working part-time jobs. Lu Heng often sent things to her, but they usually only saw each other every three to four months. He missed her dearly and cherished their rare dates. He would plan their dates meticulously, but sometimes he would say that all he wanted was to stay on the couch at home, holding her all day. Lu Heng had hugged her and kissed her, but that was it. Xiang Yu sometimes didn't understand; she really needed someone in her lonely life. But did she love Lu Heng? She didn't know. She even doubted if she loved anyone at all. Since her grandmother passed away, she didn't even love the world. What is life? Day after day, what does she really want? What is love? How do you know you love someone? Isn't companionship a form of love? Isn't being willing to let him kiss her a form of love? What is happiness? Life is so lonely. Will there really be someone who comes into your life and never leaves? All these things she couldn't figure out, she let them pass. Xiang Yu had learned not to trouble herself. Since things were already like this, then so be it.

Later, Xiang Yu met Xiao Zhanyuan, a soul as lonely as hers, struggling in the world, unable to find happiness or himself. That brief encounter was like a dream. When the dream ended, Xiang Yu still couldn't find her way. In this life, Xiang Yu had goals, wishes, and found hope and self-embrace. But she was still confused by Xiao Zhanyuan's actions. Why did he suddenly disappear? Why did he later try to kill her but accidentally kill Lu Heng instead?

Before returning to school, Xiang Yu kept telling herself that this was a different life, another beginning. Xiao Zhanyuan was not the same person from the past life, so in this life, they could get along well. She believed she could do it. Xiang Yu decided to do her best to help Xiao Zhanyuan. He was still a young kid with many possibilities. Xiang Yu began to spend a lot of time with Xiao Zhanyuan. Zhou Si Ping sometimes complained, "Xiang Yu, we've grown up together, haven't we? Why do I feel like your relationship with Xiao Zhanyuan is better than with me now? You think about him in everything." "Because many people care about you. Everyone in your family spoils you. But he has no one, not even one person who cherishes him. I at least had my grandmother. He is all alone." Zhou SiPing would then fall silent. After Han Xing left, they became a new trio, doing homework, drawing, learning English, and playing together. Sometimes they ate at Xiang Yu's home, sometimes at Zhou SiPing's. Since Xiao Zhanyuan was a child from countryside, he was behind in his studies. Xiang Yu encouraged him and often tutored him. "Because no one loves us or cherishes us, we must love and cherish ourselves more. I want to get better and better to show them!" Gradually, Xiao Zhanyuan became more cheerful and hardworking. Xiang Yu was also pleased, feeling that with this second chance, she had to strive to achieve something.

Xiang Yu's family subscribed to the evening newspaper, which had been reporting on economic construction and the introduction of the stock market and subscription license. In her past life, she had heard about it and knew that those who bought them made a fortune, but she didn't know the specifics. Observing the current family situation, she felt that her parents each had someone else outside the home and only maintained appearances for her sake. Xiang Yu didn't care whether they were together or not, but she wanted the family to have some money. She wanted to find a way to get either of her parents to listen to her suggestion to buy some subscription license.