Brielle
For the next two months, I planned on how to escape. The pack was so tight, it was almost impossible to escape the tight walls.
But I found a maid, Rachel, who cared a whole deal about me.
She had a plan to sneak me out. I just had to say when. But something was holding me back.
In the two months I've spent in the pack, Lydia made every day hell. From insults to threats, hitting and abusing me while Zadyre turned a blind eye.
He barely even spoke to me, the only time he paid me attention was when he had to come into my room in the middle of the night, and sleep with me.
Those were the only nights I felt alive. I know he felt it too because it was hard to ignore. Maybe if I stayed a bit longer, he would realise he belonged to me.
I felt incredibly stupid for thinking those thoughts, but those were the reasons I had not left the pack.
I hoped for him to see me.
But that wasn't going to happen and I finally found a reason to run at breakfast, where Lydia asked the question that set my stomach upside down.
"Why aren't you pregnant?" She asked, and my fork fell on my plate with a clank.
Zadyre quietly ate his breakfast, leaving me as usual to bear in the hands of Lydia.
I took a gulp of my water, unable to answer the question.
"I mean," she continued. "It's been two months. Or are you barren or something?"
Finally meeting her glare, I felt a jolt of confidence. "I do not control when I get pregnant or not, Lydia."
Lydia growled in anger, and the water in her cup splashed onto my face, wetting my whole body.
This was one of the forms of the bullying I went through, and not once has Zadyre said anything about it.
"Don't go all being smart with me, idiot. If you are terminating your pregnancy it's not going to end well-"
My eyes widened. "I'm not terminating anything!"
Lydia snorted. "If you aren't then why aren't you pregnant yet?"
"I don't know!"
"A maid told me you've been using some pills." Lydia shot, and immediately she said those words, Zadyre's fork clanked on the plate.
He rose form his chair and his hand shot out to grip ny neck.
I clawed at his hand, my eyes filling with tesrs as I struggled to breathe and he glared at me with intense hatred.
"Is that true? Have you been using drugs to keep yourself from getting pregnant?" He yelled in my face as I lost my breathe.
"I didn't! I swear-" He squeezed tighter, cutting me off and tightening his grip on my throat.
Lydia rose up and held his arm. "Let her go, Zadyre. You might kill her and we still need her."
He let me go and I dropped in the chair, taking gulpful of air, tesrs streaming from my eyes as I fought for my life.
Zadyre glared at me as I struggled and he didn't bat an eyelash. "You better get pregnant soon."
Lydia shook her head. "No honey. Put a consequence. She thinks we are playing, so we have to show her we are serious."
I gulped as she leaded forward, pointing her dinner knife at me. "If you don't get pregnant soon, Brielle. For every month you don't get pregnant, you will be passed to the guards and they would d whatever they wish with you. Your system woukd be flushed, and you would try again, but if you don't get pregnant yet again, it would be repeated. Over and over until you get pregnant and give us a heir. Understood?"
I looked at her in horror as she listed out the consequence. She woukd give me out to be raped because I didn't get pregnant?
I turned to look at Zadyre to see if he agreed, but he was busy with his food, avoidnging my stare.
There wasn't any reason to be here. I had to run. I can't risk this life. I had nothing to wait for, nothing to stay for.
I met Lydia's gaze, finalising this woukd be the last time I ever saw her. "Understood."
"Good. " She said and she continued eating. I excused myself from the table, tears pouring from my eyes as I ran into my room in anger and fear.
Pass me round the guards? It's not my fault I am not pregnant yet. I can't control it. I sobbed quietly in the room, wondering why my life was like thus.
Zadyre wanted nothing to do with me, and it was high time I accepted he was a monster. I had to leave, and tonight. There was nothing worth waiting for.
He would never love-
I sprang up to my feet and ran into the bathroom.
I doubled over the toilet seat and emptied my guts into it, my throat hurting from all the wrenching.
Wiping my mouth, I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror.
My face looked hollow, and my complexion was far more pale.
My lips were dry and thin and realisation hit me like a wave as I stared at my self in the mirror.
Without hesitation, I pulled out my cabinet and picked up the one I hoped I would never need as I suffered in this pack. I got Rachel to get it for me so I could know if I was pregnant before they found out.
Peeing on it, I prayed and hoped it was negative. I had no idea how I was going to survive on my own out there, now with a kid?
Goddess please I hope i just have the flu.
The door to my room opened suddenly and I threw the test into the bin, hiding it without even checking the results.
If that was Lydia or Zadyre coming to finish what they started, them seeing the test wouldn't end well for me.
A head poked into the bathroom and I let out a sigh of relief as Rachel's familiar face came through.
"Hey-" Her brows furrowed in confusion as eh moved closer. "Have you been crying?"
I ran to the bin. "I can't stay here anymore, Rachel. I'm done."
She nodded, "We can leave tomorrow night."
My hands shook as I picked up the test, and my eyes flooded with tears. "No, we have to go tonight."
Rachel's fave scrunched up with confusion. "Why?"
I turned the test to her, and her eyes widened with fear. "Because I'm pregnant. "