The bothersome news kept me wide awake the entire evening. I wasn't able to pay Angelou a visit as well, which was the first since she left home, because of the ever growing tension in my system that I am having a difficult time dealing with. Furthermore, I was afraid to face her. Yet again, the feeling of rejection got the best out of me that I cowarded myself to meet her. I was so frightened with the possibility that Angelou might totally steer clear me out this time, leaving me out in the cold and finally divorcing me, if any of these fucking news gets out in the open.