After my confrontation with Treize that day, I cried myself on my room that night. But there was also anger on it. It was a good thing that it was Saturday tomorrow. I can just say I'm sick when mom asks.
At school the week after, we didn't talk anymore and put some distance between us. But even so, his relationship with Samantha was getting better. When there are no teachers present, they act all lovey-dovey and sometimes would especially act sweet in front of me. I would just roll my eyes and act like I've not seen them. But would often comment, "How obscene! ", "Get a room!" or something along those lines.
But I would not lie and say I wasn't hurt because I was especially seeing them everyday and I have to act like I was not affected eventhough I am. I would often distract myself by other things in school just to remove their image and stop thinking about them. But sometimes it was just hard, it was hard to act I want affected, it was hard to accept that I was replaced and I was not enough, and it was hard to swallow the anger that has no place to put on. But lately, i was beginning to put more blame on myself because it was my fault for expecting a different outcome. I was beginning to feel hopeless that some things are difficult to change, that I can't fight fate and just maybe I was meant to be alone even in this timeline. It was hard to accept that even after improving myself and being a different version of myself, I will forever be alone.
I was on that state of mentality when a chance to get away was presented to me. There was a yearly activity that would often take weeks, it was called the Youth Gathering. It was an activity organized by the Diocese to put about 5 or more students from Catholic schools to attends an activity wherein they are able to learn, reflect on themselves, meet new friends and have fun also. And so I used the chance to find a breath of fresh air, far from the suffocating environment I feel at school because if I don't give myself a leeway, I might just breakdown. Thankfully, hope was presented to me in a silver platter and of course, I would be stupid if I don't take the chance and I hope it would successfully distract myself from these bad thoughts.
And so I prepared my luggage for the gathering and made sure I did not forget anything else. Then when the day finally came for our leaving to County F, I made sure I could leave a good impression by dressing up nicely so I wore a dress the first day. The dress I chose can be both seen as simple and stylish. It was a dark blue sleeveless dress with a white off shoulder blouse underneath it and paired with white sandals.
I was accompanied by 2 senior sisters and 2 senior brothers. I am currently the only junior with them because I was told by the teachers that they intend to train me so that by the following years, I would be able to lead the next youth gathering participants. And so we traveled for a few hours to arrive at our destination at City F.
City F is a beautiful place with several tourist spot destinations like their butterfly garden, they also have historical places like the churches of old and they have a museum where the past historical objects can be found.
My joining this time is new to me because it did not happen in my past life that is why I am in the dark of what will happen next because I hadn't experienced it before. In my past life, I only joined the youth gathering when I was in my third year. And so the events that will unfold in my stay here is a shrouded in mystery to me.
When we arrived at the designated place, it was more of a mansion where you can find various rooms and there are rooms used for meetings, conferences, and events.
We are also able to see the whole front view of the place we are going to stay at. I can also see that there were also other students who are just arriving the same as we are.
One particular company caught my interest because their participants are all very stylish. As a person from the future, I have seen many styles and people's personal touches on their choices of clothes. Sometimes, you can tell what type of person they are based on how they dress and appear but there are also times when you cannot just base on it so you have to get to know the person too, however, that particular group's way of dressing was just so outstanding that they made me become curious of what type of people they are.
The girls' fashion was just like mine but their aura just adda something to it that make it their own and somehow different from mine. The other two boy's fashion on the other hand had not much going there but the other guy in particular has a way with his clothes. It was a simple shirt and jeans with some accessories on him but they look so fashionable somehow. They say that the clothes make the man but the person I have been keenly observing makes the clothes eye catching. And it was when I was observing him that his eyes met mine.
His eyes, they were amber and it was deep and the way he looks at me feels like I'm the only person there is and we are alone in our own world. His eyes has an intriguing charm and that was the first time I have felt that when looking at someone's eyes. It was like I was in a trance and needed to be pulled out of the never ending forest before I completely be lost into it.
And it was a pat on my shoulder that brought me out of my stupor.
"Carmela --- Carmela, are you okay?"
"Yes, senior. Thank you."
Thankfully, senior sister Trisha- our leader- did that or else it would have been Embarrassing. I could feel my cheeks being hot and I could imagine that I am blushing so hard right now.
"Are you sick? Why are you so red right now?"
"It was nothing senior. Maybe it was the sun, it's really hot right now." I just said that to change the subject. And when I see the man in the corner of my eyes, I could see him currently smiling and has a not so noticeable smirk but I can definitely recognize a smirk when I see one and it just made me shy so I looked elsewhere, just anywhere but him.