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Chapter 5 - Nightmare

As Sophia reached the dormitory she started crying and seeing this Lizzy got panicked .

" I'm sorry all of this wouldn't have happened if I hadn't asked you to go with me " said Lizzy.

" No lizz it's not your fault it was my own decision , for the first time in my life I decided to step out of my comfort zone and this happened " said Sophia while trying to calm herself down .

After few minutes she went straight to bed assuring Lizzy that she was fine . She was staring at the ceiling and whispered " I'm miss you mom " as she fell asleep.

Suddenly she woke up panting she started crying . She looked at her phone , it was 5am. Afraid of waking Lizzy up she went to the rooftop and started crying . After a while when she calmed down she smiled while looking at the beautiful sunrise ." It had been long time since i had such nightmares but why now " she mumbled while recalling about that horrible nightmare .

When I was in highschool every girl used to mock me for my dressing sense I could feel the eyes staring at me . Highschool wasn't that bad for me I made good friends but I had insecurities I know it's my fault but I couldn't stop myself or my mind form hearing those voices telling me that I'm a failure . To overcome these insecurities I never repeated any outfit but then my mind start telling me that idiot it's not your outfit it's your face and body that is ugly . Facing myself in the mirror I used to think that I look ugly because I have that extra fat on my body that's why I won't look in any outfit or maybe my skin color is bit different from everyone else or what if someone get scared because of my facial hair . Since my father was an average worker so we couldn't afford even a cheap car , every girl used to brag about having a car and this made me even more insecure . I started hating my dad because he could have made better desiciona in life , could have get a better job or his own business before given birth to me .