"Listen here. This is a marriage in name only. Don't expect anything from me. I do not love you. I never will either. Don't get any ideas. I don't care what your father has planned but I'm not falling for it. Stay out of sight. Don't appear in front of me unless I call for you. Do I make myself clear?" When Ikuto says those words, my heart breaks. He doesn't know it's me... he thinks Father's spy.
What else can I say or do? I break eye contact not trusting myself not to cry. "I understand." I feel his eyes on me for a long time. Then he suddenly yanks me up and takes me to the dance floor. My first and last dance with him huh...? That's fine. Just being close to him... is enough for me. I'll be safe from Father now. I won't have to act as his wife anymore. I'll be free... he won't hurt me anymore.
Then I tense feeling a strong wave of pheromones. My knees get weak and I breathe heavily. Where are they coming from? This musk... it's making me feel so hot. Why does it smell like...? "U-um... m-my king?" When I feel his eyes on me, I feel like I can barely stand. "Please... your pheromones are strong..."
Almost immediately he lets me go and pulls away. "Go back and sit down... also control yours too." Mine? Did mine start coming out when I felt his? I watch him walk off in a rush and I go back and sit down like he asked. What was that? Did he get mad? I've never felt pheromones like his before... why do I feel this way? Is it just because it's Ikuto?
~That Night~
When the reception ended, I was led to a room. I clean myself up not wanting everyone to see I'm not a girl and when I see the nightgown they left for me, I feel uncomfortable. It's so thin... and easy to take off. I blush even though I know Ikuto won't ever visit me. Why would he? Get ahold of yourself, Naki!
Having nothing else to wear, I put it on and open up the bottle of wine left on the table. I pour myself a glass and raise it. "... Congratulations... you're married to Ikuto... too bad he hates your guts... cheers." I drink it down then cough. Wow... that's strong. I drink one more glass as it's the only thing I've had all day then climb under the covers. My face feels hot... I giggle to myself and doze off
It doesn't feel like it's been long but I feel someone climb into bed next to me. Before I can feel afraid, I feel his pheromones. I open my eyes feeling groggy. "M-my king?" I mumble in confusion then squeak when he pulls me close. His nose goes to my neck and he breathes me in. I shiver and whimper. What is this feeling?
I feel something press against my back. Is... is that Ikuto's...? Why is he so excited? I can smell alcohol coming off of him. Is he drunk? "You smell so good love..." he purrs and kisses my neck. I gasp out and blush as I feel him pull up my gown. I start to feel panicked even under the haze of his pheromones. What if he finds out I'm a guy and is disgusted?
He yanks down my underwear before I can protest and presses a couple of fingers deep inside of me. I let out a startled gasp. "Mhm... you're so wet baby... were you wanting on me? Don't worry..." he pulls me onto my hands and knees and starts to thrust his fingers into me making me moan and tremble. "Shh... you're so right... I need to loosen you up if I'm going to fit." Fit...?
My mind is a mess and I can't think straight. Everything he does is making me feel so good, something so new to me. When he takes them away, I whimper in complaint but then feel something harder and bigger press against me. "There there... I'll give you what you want..." then my back arches as he makes one shift movement and fills me up.
I let out a startled cry and grip the bedsheets. I feel like I'm being torn in two... I've only known him and thought that was too much but this...? "It will hurt and ache at first... but don't worry... I'll make a mess of you." He then starts to thrust deep inside of me. Wait...! It hurts!
Yet the pain is the best feeling of my life. He grips my hips firmly and thrusts hard and deep, but nothing about it is rough. I start to moan in pleasure but tears continue to run down my cheeks. Why am I crying? My mind is going blank.
He suddenly pulls out and then flips me over. My gown covers my hardened groin but his eyes are golden now. He's no longer Ikuto the king, Ikuto my best friend... he's Ikuto the lustful and drunk alpha. He thrusts back into me again and kisses me as I cry out against his lips. Somehow he feels even deeper inside of me. It feels like he's in the center of my stomach.
My back arches and I cry out as my vision turns white. When I tighten around him, he smirks against my lips. "There it is... you're clenching so hard around me... you want to drink me dry, don't you? Don't worry... you'll make love to you until we're both satisfied."
That word... love... makes me melt more than he'll ever know. I've only ever wanted to be loved... all my life that's my only desire. When he passionately and deeply kisses me, I kiss him back with just as much passion. I wrap my legs around his waist pulling him in deeper. When I cry out and come hard into my gown, he doesn't even let up. This is the passion of a dominant alpha... I feel like it's going to be a long time but right now with my mind a mess, I don't care.
Please Ikuto... use me as you please... love me... even if it's only for tonight... even if you don't see me... make love to me... I will never forget how you feel and your sweet whispers. Even the pain I get as you bite into me... it's all sweet to me. Please Ikuto... make his hands go away... I only want to remember and feel you... even if it's fake...
Even if you hate me again tomorrow... love me tonight... love me with all your might... I'll never forget this night... thank you for giving it to me, Nini...