The guy knelt before me saying,
"Will you be my queen?"
I took some times to digest the details of this guy's speech.
"W-what y-you said... D-do you re-really know what you mean by that..." (Anxious)
I feel very anxious. Someone I didn't even know and came out of nowhere just proposed to me out of the blue. I waved both my hands in anxious to reject the guy's request. The guy was silent for a while before continue,
"Ah, sorry for being a bit pushy earlier. My name is Saoto. Nice to meet you" "Er..Uhm... My name is Seinar-... Seinarin. Nice to meet you too"
"Seinarin?!! Hurm.. What a beautiful name" "Th-thank you" (Blush)
Somehow I blushed just by hearing such a compliment. I then turned my face away from his gaze because my red cheeks would be seen clearly by him. I don't know why my body spontaneously reacted this way. In that short time, I wonder if one night is long enough to completely eliminate my identity as a man.
"Seinarin. Don't stand there for a long time. You'll get tired. Here, sit on this chair"
Saoto held out his hand to guide me to sit on a wooden chair. I calmed myself first before taking his hand to be led to a chair. I stepped carefully so as not to raise any suspicions that would worsen my existing problems. Soon Saoto sat down on another wooden chair next to me. His hands quickly poured water into the two cups that are already on the table. Despite his seemingly flat reaction, I could feel that he was too concerned for me.
"Thank you" I replied slowly.
I accepted the cup Saoto gave me and drank it. Even though it's just plain water, somehow I feel happy that he serves me this well. To think about it, this man was the second outsider who served me well after I met Mitsua and Mom after that incident. The boys my age always threw all kinds of scorn and insults at me and my sister for being such a low-ranking nobles. If it wasn't because I was serious about learning swordsmanship, I wouldn't even be able to protect anyone including myself. Spontaneously I recall the memories of my past that was hard and full of struggle.
"Go away. It such a burden to see you walking around here"
"Since you are the son of a lowly noble, do you have any time to learn magic? Go play somewhere else"
"WHAT ARE YOU EVEN LOOKING AT HAH- EAT THIS"
At a glance I remembered a son of a superior noble striking both me and my sister by rock bullet, an earth magic. I bit my lip tightly remembering that painful incident. Somehow tears started falling down all over my face.
"Hurm?!!"
I was surprised to see that the man next to grabbing my head and put it in his chest while stroking the back of my head gently.
"Seinarin, what's gone let it gone. Where did the blushing face that I just saw go?"
"Huh?!!"
I hit the thigh of the man in front of me while pulling my face. This is not the time to joke about that, I thought.
"Ha, it's better this way. No need to be sad about unnecessary things"
Saoto looked at me and held my head tighter to calm me down. Somehow this man in front of me really understood what I needed and wanted right now. I was very calm and continued to be caressed by him before finally being interrupted by someone.
"Eh, Onii-Chan?!! Onii-Chan what are you doing here?"
"EEP?!!"
I who was surprised to hear Mitsua's voice just let go of Saoto's embrace and sat up as if nothing had happened.
"Anu, Mitsua... There's nothing happe-"
"It's nothing. I just came to visit and want to take sister out for a walk"
"Huh?!!"
I snickered while looking directly at Saoto's face. Saoto who also watching just grinned while looking back to me. Deep in my heart, I really wanted to chop the body of the man in front of me into several pieces.
"Here, biscuits that Mom ordered Mitsua to serve."
"Onii-Chan, why didn't you say that you wanted to come. You suddenly appe-"
"Anu, Mitsua. Do you mean me?"
I asked in a puzzled tone. Since earlier, the topic does not directly refer to me even though the call used is Onii-Chan which is refers to me.
"Ah, sorry Onii-Chan. The man next to Onii-Chan is actually Mitsua's biological brother..."
"HUH?!!"
I was very surprised to hear that. How can it be that I who have been sitting in this house for a long time do not know anything about the man next to me. I squeezed my hair with both my hands because I couldn't believe what I heard just now.
("Why just I didn't know about this...") (Depressed)
I realized there was a hand holding my shoulder. Due to the close distance, I thought only Saoto was able to hold my shoulder at this time. I who did not want to be disturbed by him quickly brushed the hand that was holding with my shoulder.
"Sei, what's Mom doings wrong?"
"HUH?!!"
I was surprised again as soon as I heard Mom's voice right next to me.
"I'm sorry, Mom. Sei really didn't mean it" "Mom, I'm sorry for what Sei did earlier. She didn't even mean it like that. She was just being dizzy because there was too much information going into her skull right now" "Huh?!!"
I am very grateful for the help Saoto gave but the last sentence made me a bit furious. Unconsciously, I clenched both of my hands to hold back the anger that was bubbling up in my heart.
"It's okay. Mom, knew it already. Here Sei, eat this cookie"
I hold back my emotion and walked towards a small table where a plate of cookies was served. I walked carefully while controlling my tail so that it wouldn't show in front of Saoto's eyes. In the dimness, I saw Saoto looking at me with a slight smile. As soon as I sat down, I ate the biscuits that my mother had served.
"Mom, Saoto taught to take Sei out of this house and live with Saoto. You don't mind, do you?"
"Wait... What are you talking about?"
I hit the table with both hands without realizing it. The biscuit I was holding crumbled due to the pressure applied. Whatever it is, I can't stay silent when there is people who want to run me out and become his wife. Whatever the reason, I can't imagine myself taking on such a responsibility.
"Calm down, Sei. Sei should knows already that Saoto is Mom's son..."
"But Mother. Saoto won't-"
"ENOUGH!!!"
Unbeknownst to me, Saoto was right next to me as he stomped on the table right besides my left hand and turned the scraps of cookies that were there into ashes.
"Let me explain..."
I pulled my hands back and placed them on my lap. I was still surprised to hear Saoto's snap a moment ago. Regardless, I really need a rational explanation about his actions. Saoto sat next to me with a serious expression on his face.
"I am Mitsua's biological brother. We are five years apart in age. As nobles, there is no place on the face of this Earth that welcomes lowly nobles like us. Life is always in the scorn and control of those who above us. Get attacked with magic and humiliated in front of the crowds had become our daily food..."
I was shocked to hear Saoto's words. His life is not much different from the life I have lived. I no longer wonder why he always puts on that flat face. It's the same as me before I met Mitsua and Mother.
"I could feel the hell of the world for myself as early as the age of three. However, I realized something. The strong act to control the weak. As long as there is strength, the weak will trembled in fear. I fought and continued to fight until finally I myself defeated one of the Five Great Demon Kings and was appointed as his successor. Thanks to that, they don't dare to seek for any trouble"
I was speechless while listening to every details of his speech. I really understand Saoto's feelings at the moment who doesn't want to be disturbed. It is not easy to recount the bitter times that we try to forget. I am aware of that.
"That's why, Sei. I intend to make you my queen. I can't bear to hear criticism from my subordinates who say I'm too creepy that no one likes me"
"Huh?!!"
("Where did the cool-hearted and brave man go?")
I took a deep breath. Even though it's tough I have to made up my mind. This decision will soon determine my future.
"One more thing.."
I was surprised to hear Saoto about to add something again.
"As one of the Five Great Demon Kings, I can help take you directly to Queen Lumina's palace which is the original palace of the Tyrant Demon King who once ruled a thousand years ago. So, how is it?"
My head is getting stressed. My only reason for refusing is now gone. I had just thought about my original purpose of investigating the dilapidated castle but it seems that now Saoto has what I want in him. My journey will also be easier as the wife of the Five Great Demon Kings. However, one major problem that continues to haunt me is...
("I'm a man... How do I want to be someone's wife...") (Stressed)
I scratched my head which didn't itch. I thought for a moment before giving my final answer. I was startled by Saoto who suddenly hugged my head tighter and placed it on his chest.
"It's okay, Sei. We'll try slowly. I promise to take care of Sei as my wife"
For some reason, even though it was hard to accept such a statement, I felt calmer after hearing it from Saoto. Saoto continued to hug my head tightly while stroking it gently. I felt as if I was swept away by a very calm feeling while floating in an endless ocean. Everything was quiet without any sound accompanied by prolonged warmth.
"Onii-Chan. Wake up, Onii-Chan"
Mitsua patted Sei on the shoulder but Sei didn't show any response.
"Mother, Sei is unconscious. Please take Mitsua away from here"
"Eh, why so sudden Onii-Chan?"
"Go with Mom to safer place. I'm worried that Mitsua will be endangered later. If Sei's condition getting worse, I'll take care of it." "Ehm..."
Mitsua ran after Mom left the living room. Saoto then got up carryings unconscious Sei came out of the house and laid her on his lap in the front yard of the house. Saoto continued to use various healing magic on Sei but still no reaction was shown from her. Saoto then reached both sides of Sei's shoulders to hug him tightly as a last resort. But before Saoto could do that, Sei opened both of her eyes again.
Saoto's left hand was wandering around as if he had lost control over it. Saoto let go of Sei's embrace before retreating by jumping back to get some distance. Something seems off right now. There is only one reason on why Saoto's hand went rampage.
"Onii-Chan, where are you going? Let's come here and have some fun"
Sei flipped her shirt up revealing her figure to Saoto. Saoto continuously cast a spell to release the control over his left hand and finally managed to regain control of it.
("There's something strange about Sei right now. It's not herself right now. I know she's a Succubus but her behavior now is very different from before")
Saoto looked around carefully to ascertain the strangeness that was happening. It didn't take long for him to detect what was strange about Sei.
("Her eyes always shine in bright red but now it's in pink")
A succubus is known for its ability to seduce its victims. Some are even able to control their victim's body to perform various adult actions in order to obtain the source of their life in the form of human lust and passion. Those who have the symbol of lust on their stomachs are strong enough to control someone's body.
"Come here, Onii-Chan. If you insist, let me come and get you instead."
Saoto could feel a strong control desires wanting to take over his body as soon as Sei approached him. Therefore, he tried to distance himself from Sei as he continued to cast spells to release any strange control over his body. In an instant, there was a high-speed chase between Saoto and out-of-control Sei in the home yard. Although it was difficult, Saoto looked balanced against Sei who continued to try to close the distance in order to take control over Saoto's body. Many trees fell and craters formed due to the pressure exerted by these two people.
After a while, finally the chase finally stopped for a moment after Saoto noticed that Sei disappeared from his sight. Saoto stood for a moment as he watched his surroundings. But it didn't take long for Sei to take complete control over Saoto's body. Saoto sat stiffly on the ground and could not move even a single part of his body. In an instant, his ears caught a very seductive whisper.
"Onii-Chan, Onii-Chan was very agile during that chase. This made me very excited to to have a taste of Onii-Chan in my body. I think I let out a little as soon as I imagined it. Onii-Chan, I want to try it so bad..."
Sei sat kneeling in front of Saoto in a state of excitement. Saoto could clearly see the lust emanating from all over her face and body. Her breathing was so heavy and restless. Her weak legs were opened as she pulled down her pants to reveal her secret part which already filled with passion that had been in turmoil. Despite all of that, Saoto still stared at Sei with a flat face even after being shown such a scenery.
"Onii-Chan, did Onii-Chan doesn't like me? Where's the promise Onii-Ch-..."
"SHUT UP?!!"
Sei looked at Saoto in disgust. She looked annoyed by the words that Saoto had thrown a moment ago.
"Warrior, show yourself"
In an instant, a black sword hovered above Saoto and released all foreign control over his body. Slowly, he stood up and looked straight into Sei's face while pointing his sword on her neck.
"I WILL NOT BREAK OUR PROMISE. I WILL NEVER BREAK THE PROMISE WE EVER MADE. I just want Sei herself willingly to open Sei's heart for me, not force it for me..."
Sei looked at Saoto with a smile on her face before falling back unconscious. Saoto then saved the Warrior which seemed to be gradually disappearing and tightly hugged the body of Sei who was lying weak. Then, Saoto carried the weak and helpless body into the house so that no one would see her half-naked.
("Despite refusing, I can't deny that the view now I see myself is very pushy as a man. Despite that, I'm more concerned that she will hate me if I act that way")
Saoto placed Sei's body gently on the floor and placed Sei's head on the part that he had been summon a pillow from his castle. Saoto pulled Sei's shirt back down using movement magic carefully so as not to awake her. Even though his brain was wandering everywhere, his mouth repeatedly reminding himself to remain patient.
"Don't do anything, don't do anything"
Saoto also put on the pants that Sei had slightly removed while being shocked to see something.
("This is a symbol of slavery that sealed on her stomach. A succubus doesn't seem like it should have a mark like this") (Surprised)
Saoto carefully put her pants back on. Although the view is quite good because it cannot be denied that the Succubus' body is quite tempting. Despite that, Saoto still restrains his lust from doing anything terrible to her. Just after finishing, Saoto sat stiffly while stroking Sei's head who was still unconscious.
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("Uh, did I pass out?")
For a moment I couldn't feel my legs and arms. It was as if all my nerves had stopped working because I couldn't even feel any part my body at all. In that thick darkness, I really hoped someone would come to save me. Vaguely, I saw the life of a woman dreaming around me. I feel anxious and scared.
Will no one take me out of this void?
Am I going to be stuck in here forever?
("Ah, I am nobody in this world. I keep hoping for something that is impossible for me to achieve...")
"Sei..."
"Sei..."
"SEI..."
Faintly, I heard a voice calling me from a distance. My eyes are empty without expecting any help. I seem resigned to the fate that has befallen me.
"SEI..."
I could feel a warm touch on the back of my body. I snapped out of my reverie. There are still many of them who are waiting for me. I will not disappoint those who are still waiting for my return.
("I don't want to keep him waiting...")
I opened my eyes slowly. My head is so dizzy maybe due to fainting for a long time. As soon as my vision returned, I realized that Saoto was hugging me and my hair tightly while hiding his face behind my body.
"Seinarin, please don't leave me again..."
I heard faintly Saoto's voice in a sad tone. That's the reason why the back of my body felt so warm earlier. I wanted to push the body in front of me really bad to make him move a little but I stopped when I thought he now need someone to calm him rather than push him away.
("Saoto, what do you mean by 'again'...")
I patted Saoto's back to calm him down. I was lucky he was only wearing normal clothes without any armor. I can't imagine how hard it would be for me to calm him down in that armor since I had to pat his back harder even I'm very weak right now. Just thinking about it already made me lose my spirit.
Saoto pushed my shoulder back while looking at my face. He still had a straight face even though I could clearly hear him crying just now.
"Hey, Saoto. What happened to me? What happened when I passed out a while ago?"
I kept thinking about what happened to me. Even though I tried with all my might to recover everything that had happened, it was pointless. I still don't know what happened when I fainted a while ago and why my body was in such a weak condition.
Saoto looked at me thinking for a moment. Maybe he was considering something after seeing my weak state right now.
"We should discuss this matter later, after Seinarin's situation is more stable"
What's up with that call? Why are you suddenly using my name like that? Is it just as a training to be a proper couple later. Ah. My brain can't think straight right now. I kept imagining him doing all kinds of things to my weak body. At a glance, I have allowed my body to be treated whatever by him. After all, I couldn't afford to fight him in my current condition. I closed my eyes while putting my hand on my forehead to get rid of the slight dizziness in my head.
"Saoto, please treat me... well"
Unconsciously, my vision gradually disappeared in the cradle of endless darkness. I lay soundly on Saoto's lap, a man I had just met.
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A man with golden hair and armor stood and faced me directly. His mouth twitched and said something that I couldn't hear and even understand. For some reason, the man suddenly knelt in front of me and took out the golden sword he had. Then his sword was thrust straight into my heart"
I'm awake and found myself still in my room. A strange dream just now made me think that I had really been pierced by a sword. I observed my surroundings carefully.
("Looks like someone laid me on my bed. At first glance, nothing seems suspi-...")
"HUH?!!" (Shocked)
I shocked to see my body that did not wear any protection from the gaze of any seeing eye. I can clearly see my very seductive body shape. It was not for nothing that blood flowed out of my nose profusely. To think about it again, I have never had a romantic relationship with a woman in my live. Thus, I even killed some of them in a gruesome way. In an instant, I was clear about the reason my nose was bleeding a lot as soon as I saw the curves of my own body. Plus, I'm not an ordinary woman but rather a succubus who is famous for her body shape that can seduce anyone who sees it.
Spontaneously, my hand deftly took the blanket that was spread near me and wrapped my whole body with it. I looked around again to assure something.
From a distance, I saw Saoto sleeping on the wooden chair while holding his head with his hand on the table in the corner of my room. He slept well in his usual clothes while facing towards me. For a moment, sweat dripped all over my body after I realized something very important.
("Wait a minute... H-he is here w-while my body isn't covering up at all...") (Anxious)
I knelt on the bed remembering my fate now. My identity as a man has now disappeared since I have lost my virginity in this body. I can't imagine what Saoto did to my body after I passed out that day.
("Aaaaah... I can't blame him because I myself have given up to accept whatever he did at that time. But I didn't think he would go this fa-")
"No, not that far yet"
I who had been scratching my head stopped for a moment after hearing a familiar voice in my ear. Then, I turned my face to see Saoto who was sleeping a while ago. Saoto handed me a piece of biscuit and a glass of water.
"Hurm?"
I wonder the meaning of the conversation just now and try relate it to his actions.
"Anu, Saoto. What do you mean-" "Sei's body was a little hot earlier. If Seinarin continues to wear a shirt and covered in blanket, I'm worried that Sei's body will slow down to heal. That's why I called Mitsua earlier to tell her to take off Sei's shirt."
I was stunned to hear Saoto's words just now. I keep making baseless accusations against him who has helped me a lot. For a moment, I felt that my pulse increased and my breathing felt heavier. I realized that my cheeks were now starting to turn red quickly covered them with a blanket using both of my hands.
"T-thank you" I replied slowly.
"You don't have to think about it too much. That is indeed my duty to my very cute wife"
I felt like throwing up when I heard what he said. The words that came out of his mouth were enough to captivate anyone who listened but his flat face ruined the atmosphere.
"Well, eat this or you'll throw up later because catched a cold"
("Honestly, I almost throw up because of your word earlier")
Saoto served me a plate of cookies and a glass of water. I looked at the dish with a blank look, not in the mood to eat it. With a weak voice, I asked again,
"How long have I been unconscious?"
Saoto put back the food prepared for me before looking at me and holding my hand tightly. Despite being treated like that, I didn't brush it off because I didn't hate it.
"Sei passed out in three whole days since the incident that day"
I was surprised to hear that. Although vague, I still remember there was a day when I felt too weak and lifeless. I who was trying to remember stopped when Saoto continue his speech.
"Throughout those three days, I remained by Sei's side to recite spell after spell of healing magic that I knew with the help of Mitsua"
"How many healing magic spells are u-" "4579 times in total and I used every healing magic that there were"
I gasped at that. Saoto said he only used the magic he knew but the amount was not so human. He even stated that he had used all kinds of healing magic on me. From that, I realized that the man next to me was neither an ordinary man nor the same as the son of a nobleman that I had met before who, despite having pure blood, still can't give a scratch when fighting against me. Saoto must be very strong because he has faced various humiliations and sufferings alone since he is three years older than me.
"Is there something bothering you, Sei? You suddenly looks sad"
I was surprised to hear a remark from the man next to me. I also didn't realize when I put on a sad face. I looked directly at Saoto's face. Although he still put on a flat face, I could feel that he was very worried about me deep in his heart.
"It's fine. I just sad because I thought I wanted to eat something delicious after three days of not being conscious, but what I got was only a biscuit with a glass of water..."
Saoto stared at my face for a long time. I, who was a little surprised by his gaze, looked away while muttering. I don't want him to see my panicked face right now. In a moment I heard the sound of the chair squeaking and my gaze became higher.
"Eep?!!"
Saoto carried my body with both of his hands and looked directly into my face. I was a little surprised to see his face that was so close to mine.
"Seinarin... Is that really what Sei worried about?... Sei aware that Sei isn't wearing any clothes right?"
I was shocked to hear Saoto's words. I was being carried by him with only a blanket wrapped around my body as the only barrier from him being able to directly see my naked body. I panicked and worried for a moment because he looked at me with a serious face. A small mistake, my fate will change drastically. I finally gave up and told him the truth in a blushing state.
"Sei really sorry. Sei thought that Saoto, who is three years older than Sei, must have experienced a lot of suffering and humiliation to be as strong as Saoto is now. But when Sei thinks about it, for some reason Sei's heart breaks..."
I released everything hidden in my heart while hiding my face from his sight. I can't bear to look at his face directly in my current state.
For a moment there was no reply from Saoto. He was just stone silent without saying anything or even reacting. I then looked at his face in amazement. For a moment, I saw his tears falling on the blanket that wrapped my body.
"T-thank you, Seinarin. This is the first time someone has worried about me"
I kept silent and said nothing. I then tightly hugged the body of Saoto who was carrying me by placing both my hands on his shoulders while stroking the back of his body. Saoto also welcomed my hug by hugging me tightly.
My body felt warm. My breathing became heavy and restless. My heartbeat fastened. My weak hands are unable to hold tightly the body of the man in front of me.
"Hey, Saoto..."
I called him softly. My body feels strange. My mind can't think clearly. Saoto let go of his embrace and looked at me with a puzzled face.
"Sa-Saoto felt what was connected on Sei's hips, right? W-Why does Saoto want Sei as a life partner?"
I asked while looking at him with a blank face. I could feel his hand touching my tail when he hugged me just now. He should have known about it not only from that touch but from Mitsua and Mother.
Saoto looked at me with a small smile on his face. At the same time, he stroked my head with one of his hands while still holding my body.
"What's wrong with a relationship between a human and a succubus? Who decides it's wrong? Nobles? To hell with their rules. Only we have the right to decide who we like. And unfortunately, Saoto likes Sei"
I covered my mouth with both hands while making a little sound and looked at him with shining eyes. I didn't expect the answer that Saoto would give. But at the same time, deep down in my heart, I felt calmer after knowing it. I looked back at Saoto's face. I don't know why my heart now beating faster. My cheeks started to redden and my breathing felt heavier. My body started to feel strange. I looked at Saoto with a sad face.
"Sa-saoto, please put Sei down. Sei's body feels strange. Sei afraid Sei won't be able to control Sei self anymore"
My tail came out of the blanket that wrapped my body while kept swaying to show my emotion that was not calm at the moment. Slowly, Sei lowered my body and placed me back on the bed. I quickly used the blanket that was wrapped around my body and covered my whole body with it so that my currently reddened face would not be seen by the man next to me.
"Don't forget to eat the cookies. Tomorrow morning we will move to the palace. Sei please go to bed early tonight. After all, Sei's body has not fully recover yet."
I could feel Saoto kiss my head before walking out of my room. My heart become restless at the moment just by thinking about him made me neither dare to look at his face nor talk to him. In the depths of my heart, I wonder,
Is this what I am seeking for eternal?
A true form of love?
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