Chapter 40 - Hidden Crush

Fun. 

Kobachi had never thought that it could be like this with someone. What they talked about was just a mundane thing, her hobby, and many others, yet as she spent it with him, she felt it was nice. All of her unpleasantness disappeared; it was like an after-the rain with a pleasant scent from the earth. 

She loved the feeling when she stood by his side, yet as they arrived at the library, she knew that they had to part. By then, she realized that everything was just an illusion. He was, who was so close, so far away from him. They might be standing side by side, yet... she knew he was at a place that was impossible to arrive. 

While she didn't like it, she knew that she didn't have a right to stop him, especially with their current relationship. 

Their closeness, which started at her whim to open the library when it was about to close, made their relationship became closer than she imagined. 

While she had thrown away her feelings and thought it was impossible for them to be together, sometimes, she couldn't help but think about the possibility between them.

The possibility that she had thrown away might bloom. 

What if? What if What if? 

Many "what ifs" kept popping out of her head, and in the end, before he walked away, she decided to be bold, asking him to help her. As expected, she knew that with his kindness, he wouldn't reject her, and she used this trait of him so she could stay with him for a little longer. 

"Should I place it here, Osaragi-san?" 

"Yes, that's the place." 

Unlike her, who was ugly and had a hideous heart, Ishigami should be with someone who was kind and gentle, someone who could make him happy like Tsubame. 

Yes, Tsubame Koyasu. 

When she saw how close Ishigami and Tsubame were, she thought that he could finally be happy. 

Yes, Tsubame was the one, be with her, Ishigami, Kobachi thought. 

Moreover, she also knew that Ishigami had helped Tsubame, so she knew that his chance wasn't zero, especially when she saw how close they were. 

Yet, why Onodera? 

Why her? 

If it was Iino, Kobachi might not have reacted this strongly, but Onodera was different. 

Unlike her and Iino, who still believed that Ishigami must have been hiding something and never said anything mean to him, supporting him silently as usual, Onodera was different. 

Onodera had mocked and been mean to Ishigami like any other girl in the first grade after that incident. She purposely said mean things to him and even gloated at his misfortune, feeling superior by his inferiority. 

Could such a girl make him happy?!

No way. 

Yet, Kobachi knew that this was someone that Ishigami had chosen, and while she hated it, she knew that Onodera was the first girl who approached him at his lowest point. 

Unlike now, when he had so many friends, was popular, and was even often talked to by a group of girls, which was a complete change from his previous treatment, Onodera approached him.

Unlike her or Iino, Onodera talked to him, yet Kobachi felt it was also because Onodera sat by his side. 

If the one who sat by his side wasn't Onodera, then would she be with Ishigami? 

'If I am the one...' 

If she was the one who sat by his side, then... would she be the one who was his girlfriend? 

Why her?! Why her?! Why her?! 

Such a thought crossed her mind, yet she knew that it was too late; Ishigami had had a girlfriend. While there was a possibility of the two parting, she wasn't sure how long it would take and if there was even a chance for them to be together, especially with how close his relationship with some girls was. 

Longing, affection, pain, jealousy, and everything weaved together, tightly tied within her heart so tight before they snapped, broken into several pieces that made her unable to think properly, and she blurted out cruel words to him before kissing his lips subconsciously.

Watching his shocked expression, she had this strange sense of pleasure and happiness as she was able to do something that even her best friend and his girlfriend were impossible to do. 

While part of her wanted to stick out her tongue to lick his lips, she felt a bit shy and made a sudden retreat. 

Still, this was the end. 

Nothing would happen between them anymore. 

By this point, the two of them would become nothing but distant classmates who wouldn't talk to each other. 

She had made a cross, clearly cutting their relationship, yet this was good since this way, she could move on from this one side feeling. 

What was left was the question "Why?" from his mouth when their lips parted, and by then, she would answer him with an ambiguous answer, and the two would have an awkward relationship that slowly dissipated like froth on the ocean, becoming strangers.

Yet, the question "why" didn't come out from his lips; instead, her eyes widened, watching him take her lips, clearly kissing her and even lightly licking her sweet lips. 

"Don't provoke me, okay?" 

Fortunately, Ishigami didn't move further and quickly calmed himself before he pulled away, afraid that he might really do something unforgivable, especially with his body that was filled with vitality and vigor. 

At that moment, his body was like a balloon that kept being poured with water, and it grew bigger and bigger before it exploded. Fortunately, his balloon was long and large, so it could bear the expansion, but it didn't change the fact that he was still troubled. 

While the dream could somehow help him, he knew that this wasn't the perfect solution. 

Sooner or later, he would be ruined by this healthy body. 

Still, fortunately, Onodera had become his girlfriend, and he was working hard to make her open up, but then, another girl suddenly attacked him, using her fangs against him when he was defenseless. 

While he could counterattack and quickly defend himself, he knew that this wasn't good since he was afraid the fantasy in his mind might become a reality. 

The fantasy that might ruin everything, the nightmare that might even bring disaster to his everyday life. 

Ishigami had tried to hold it, yet he knew it was impossible since Kobachi kissed him once again, pushing him onto the ground, and clung to him tightly like an anaconda that was about to kill its prey. 

Her kiss was no longer the innocence where two people only pressed each other's lips, but a bold one where she stuck her tongue, trying to pry open his lips aggressively. 

Still, Ishigami didn't open his lips, stared at this girl helplessly, and felt a little angry, so he knew he needed to teach her that she shouldn't kiss someone so carelessly!

'If that's your game.'

With his lips opened, Onodera put her tongue without hesitation, licking his gums, tongue, and mouth obsessively became nothing but a slut, who was obsessed with the kiss she shared with the boyfriend of her classmate. 

The crush of her best friend. 

And... 

'My hidden crush...' 

Her movement was jerky, amateur, and lacking experience, so the moment Ishigami made a move, she was soon completely overturned and conquered before letting herself fall like a kite whose string was broken. 

In this quiet library, the two had their secret rendezvous. 

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Not so perfect.