Chapter Twenty-Seven:
"And what do you want me to expect?! Ha!" I madly said almost shouting. "Stay silent and just go with the flow? Isn't it crap?!"
"Alright, alright." He calmly answered. "I'm sorry, okay. But the thing is--"
"You can't tell me! Damn it, Haimon! We were married for one year and yes, we got a whirlwind romance but still isn't it enough to trust me? To tell me everything about you! Anything! Even your secrets! Even the darkest ones!" I seriously stated and he was caught for a moment before his eyes turned to normal. The same eyes that he always did whenever he wanted to hide something so important and if it was before I'll calmly accept it but not now! I'm mad and I hate those eyes that I couldn't take it anymore. "Oh! Stop it!" I shouted. "If you couldn't give me what I want then I'll ask someone else who can answer it all! Without any hesitation! Without hiding anything!" I madly said and marched out of our room.
"Shu!" he tried to stop me but I don't let him and just go without looking back at him.
Hours ago…
Haimon went home earlier today and because I was on my leave, I was left home for the whole day while he works. I stayed at home thinking and thinking until I get tired, and I don't want to think anymore and just trust my husband even though Kanik's words bug me.
"Love?" I finally heard Haimon's voice.
I take a deep breath before I answered. "Yes, Love!"
"You're in the kitchen?" he surprisingly asked and I can hear his footstep rushing through my direction.
"Yes, I'm here."
"And what are you doing here?"
"Oh, gosh!" I was surprised when I saw him at my side. "You scared me!"
"Sorry! But you scared me too."
"Wha?!" my eyes shrink.
"You. Being here and cooking?" he replied.
"And what's the problem of it?"
"You don't look well yesterday and that supposed to be you were still resting."
I sigh. "Alright! I'm fine, okay?" I said and smiled. "That is why I cook you your favorite foods and have a nice dinner with you, if that is fine with you?"
He was surprised and it took him long before he answered as he deeply sighs and smiles. "Alright," he said. "If you're really fine then, can I help you of anything?"
"Well, you need to change first before you help me." I said as I brightly smiled.
"Oh, yeah! I need to change first." He said as he smiled shyly.
"So, go now!" I said and pushed him out of the kitchen.
Afterwards…
"Uhm, these are all delicious!" he happily said after he starts eating and I am happy to hear that.
"I'm glad you like it," I said. "Even though I barely cook, I still get the touch that I needed."
"Well, for me. You are the best! No matter what you cook and prepare I always love it no matter what it is." He honestly replied and I can feel it, his sincerity and honestly, I hope he will be the same if I ask him about the secrets that he was hiding from me. "Love?" suddenly he breaks my silence. "Are you alright?"
"Huh?"
"You're spacing out."
"Oh, I just… remember something." I said and smiled. "Anyway, let's enjoy our foods."
"Okay, let's eat." He said and I just nodded as we eat in peace.
"What do you want as a desert?" I asked after we ate.
"What do you have?"
"Uhm, Coconut Macaroons and Strawberry Cup Cakes," I said. "So, which one do you like to eat?"
"Uhm, can I have both?" he said because there are his favorites.
"Alright! I'll bring it to our terrace, so just wait there."
"No," he suddenly refused.
"And why is that?"
"Let me help you, I'll be the one to prepare our coffee."
I smile and it really surprised me. "Alright, then, let's do it!" I happily answered.
We had a really great day this night and I couldn't help but to feel a bit worry. I cannot explain it but it slowly embraces me as the night goes on and now, we're in our room. Silently watching a movie that we both agree to watch when suddenly he received a call.
He excuses himself for a while and I don't know but I sense it, Haimon will leave me again for a reason he won't tell or he will shield it as his work. Thinking of it makes me feel unease and I couldn't take it to myself.
"Love, I need to go for a while."
As I expected, "what is it?"
"About some work." Lies. I wanted to shout but keep quiet. "I have to go."
"Can you spare some time to tell me of what exactly is that work?" I finally asked.
"What?"
I take a deep breath. "You've already been at work this whole day and tonight that we've peacefully getting our time you just suddenly leave me just because of some work? Isn't it too much for you to take this time to work? And what is this late work you're going? What's so important of it that you hurriedly leave me?"
"Love, I already told you about this. We--"
"Cut the crap, Haimon!" I snap out. "What's your secret?" I directly asked him without thinking of the consequences.
"Love, what are you saying?"
"Your secrets? Can you just tell me what is it?"
"I don't have." he said before he sighed. "Alright, I think you're just exhausted. You need to rest now."
"Damn it, Haimon!" I madly said and this time I couldn't take it anymore. "Can you be honest this time?"
Haimon looks at me for a while. "See, I know that I break my promise to you about the vacation and be with you as you take your leave but you know my obligations."
What he said snaps me out in anger that I couldn't ignore longer.
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