Seventy-One:
'Me as a former God'
What does Epiales wanted to tell me? God? Am I one of the Gods before I became an Angel? Then, that's explained why I do have such power like one of the Gods and even has the holy weapon that was blessed and gifted by our Father. But then, I cannot recall anything about me as a God. That made me to decide to ask to enlighten the dark side of my memories.
"No. Let him say what he knows." I answered with full of determination because I badly wanted to know the whole truth, as what he just said, I as a former God. "Who am I before I became an Angel?"
Silence.
"I'll guide you in search of your lost memories." Suddenly Dione came in.
"No, you can't do that!" it was Ilmatar who spoke.
"Why are you so afraid of bringing back Almos memories, Ilmatar?" Dione seriously asked as she stares back at her. "Are you hiding something from all of us?"
Ilmatar's face gets so serious that everyone at the Nightmare Realm clearly sees it. Even the tension surrounds her gets greater which made Dione in an alert position since that Ilmatar is in the verge of strike.
"Ilmatar," it was Epiales who breaks the tension. "Will you calm down first?"
"Don't order me around, Epiales. Because I have all––"
"Blunda audr! Un hórna very carefully, because raehta now ono erní at iet realm un ono weohnata ach nen eka say." Suddenly Epiales spoke our old language and I know his reason why he did that, he doesn't want to scare Jeanne who's listening right now.
Silence.
"Now! Now!" it was Morpheus. "Let's get out of here first. This Dream of Illusion isn't appropriate to tackle things. So," he looks at Jeanne and smiles. "Are you fully awake now, my dear Lady?"
…
I was surprised when I heard from Epiales that Almos was a former God that made him to eagerly want to reveal the truth but then suddenly Ilmatar changes and it seems she was really hiding something.
What is her reason for preventing the disclosure of the truth of Epiales? What is she hiding? What really happened in the past?
Questions that I also want to be answered but with the tension I see and feel I will not be able to ask the questions that are inside me. I rather choose to keep quiet and let them lead the way until Morpheus asked me that break the silence I'm in to.
"Are you fully awake now, my dear Lady?" he asked with a nice smile.
I don't know why I couldn't feel at ease no matter how nice he will smile at me. Or even Almos's concern for my condition after I learned the whole truth that everything was just an illusion. That the life I thought was normal was not because the truth is, I was in another place where the Gods and Goddesses together with the Angels, here they live. And my family along with Chadd's family is now in a safe place away from the terror-sowing Azazel.
"Jeanne?" it was Almos who breaks my silence. "Are you alright?" he asked as soon as I look at him.
With a simple smile I answered. "Kind of…"
"She feels a little bit lighter after waking up from the illusion set upon her. So, it was just a normal reaction for her to feel lost and at the same time to have lots of questions. Since, she is not one of us." It was Epiales and he was right, as a human, going in into Gods realm is not easy for someone like me.
The reason why I feel kind of lost right now even though questions are filling up into my head and none of it was asked vocally I just left it to myself because I truly feel lighter as if there is a void inside of me.
"Alright, let her rest for now." Morpheus answered.
"But not here Morpheus." Kamali answered.
Morpheus look back at him. "Are you suggesting we need to go back to your realm?"
"Indeed. Because the Dream Realm is too much for her to handle," Kamali answered with full of determination.
Morpheus sighed heavily. "Eru ono willing eom keep her unin danger? Because nen eka recall thäet, ono could néiat even detect Epiales framvír älfr abducted Jeanne un Almos. So, why ach vae need eom agree oth onr suggestion?"
"Wiol sem eka cannot comment." Kamali simply answered.
Morpheus just smiled before turning his gaze back at me. "Do you want to go with God Kamali?" he asked me and for some reason, I wanted to come back from where Kamali resides. Though the thought of separating myself to Almos fears me because I am not sure if I'll be save without him around me. So, it's kind of fifty-fifty on my behalf.
"Don't over think my Lady," suddenly Kamali spoke up to me. "If you want to stay with God Morpheus then, you may and I won't force you to come with me."
I stare at him and longer enough for me to think about the dream or the memory that I just saw when I first met him. I badly wanted to come with him and ask about that memory to clear up my mind.
"It seems she could––"
"I'll go with you God Kamali." I decided.
"Jeanne." It was Almos who eventually got surprised from my decision.
"I'll be fine, Almos." I said. "Just fix first your realm and then return to my side once you are done, okay."
"Are you sure you'll be fine without me?" he worriedly asked.
"Yes, of course. Besides, Sylvia will be with me, she'll protect me any time, right Sylvia?" I asked looking at her.
"Yes, I will."
"See."
Almos sighs heavily. "Alright, then, I promise you it won't be long. I'll fix it as soon as possible."
I just nodded even if deep within me fear begins to bloom.
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