Forty-Four:
Unknown
I repeatedly ask myself, 'why? Why I kiss him back? And why do I feel that I already knew him from the very beginning even though we never met before? Who he really is?'
The man that I only knew in my dream however, the feeling of being so familiar around him gently touches my heart and my memories. I don't know and I couldn't understand it, how Almos invade my memories. As if he was already a part of me that I couldn't remember a part of my past where are hearts beats as one.
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I was lost for a while that I didn't know that my surroundings already change, I just recognize it when someone suddenly bumps at my shoulder that wakes me from my deep thoughts.
"Sorry." This person quickly apologized but it isn't what she said that surprised me but it was her outfit.
"Wh-what are you wearing?" I asked without even thinking of it.
"Pardon?"
I saw and read in her eyes the surprise at my question and no wonder she'll look at me as if I'm the one that gone crazy for I also wear the same clothes that she's wearing.
'Where on earth am I?' I wanted to shout out but I can't as I rolled my eyes around my surroundings.
Impossible things do come true, right now I am experiencing it.
It's like I enter an ancient time that I only saw at the paintings which only hang inside museums. Even the attire of the whole place screaming an old and lost civilization that even the paintings nor the structures that was left as ruins or even the artifacts that was found could not depict how wonderful and breathtaking this whole place. It such a magnificent sight no one can ever draw or explain in words how truly magnificent this ancient city.
I cannot even figure out how I end up to this place. I lost for words, I even lost my mind and it begins to eat me alive, my heart pumps fast as the panic begins to build makes me hard to breath. I almost catching up my breath and my vision begins to swirl I can't even stand tall.
Before I knew it, my world just falls apart.
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"Lady Fe!" I can hear this faint calling, an unfamiliar voice, so who is Lady Fe? "My Lady, can you hear me?"
My eyes slowly open yet as the light shines through my eyes I close it and try to cope up with this unknown light that blinds me. Until I finally see this woman standing right next to me, and her face tells it all. The worries and fears are written all over her face for a reason I don't understand.
I don't even know if where am I as I finally got the chance to look around when my eyes finally back to normal. I don't even know who this woman was standing right beside me, who just suddenly kneeled and hold my hand so tight I could feel her warmth that embracing me.
Right at that moment, I knew she's someone that I knew. A family member, maybe…
"My Lady, I am so glad that you are finally awake. You don't know how much you made me feel so worried."
I blink my eyes before I speak, yet my words are so unfamiliar that I felt I'm not the one who's talking rather, it was this 'lady' named 'Fe' that talks not me.
"I'm sorry Niña, I didn't mean to make you worry."
"No, my Lady." she answered as her voice trembled. "It is my fault that I--"
"No, don't say that." I quickly stop her words and squeeze her hand trying to give her some comfort and making sure that I'm totally fine with words. "I'm fine. Really fine." Even though the truth…
'Where the hell I am?'
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Times, days and weeks passed by and I'm still trap in this ancient time and also trap from this body named Fe but whenever I look at myself in the mirror. I only see myself, the same face the only different is the shade of my skin. I look much whiter and slimmer and my lips were thin and pinkish in color. While my eyes look so foreign because it's only my first time seeing myself wearing a light green color eye.
I am so thrilled and amazed at my eyes when I first saw it but the longer, I stare on it, I begin to understand the deep meaning of it. The fear, sorrow and pain have been tattooed into her eyes and I know the reason why.
Fe came from an orphanage and she was adopted by Dougenis Family, at first, she became a happy and contented child as she thought it will never end yet when her adoptive mother unexpectedly gets pregnant that they've thought can never ever bear a child, the reason why she was adopted. Changes as soon as the new born child came in and everything that she had gradually lose out of her hands.
Her parents treated her differently as they got their own flesh and blood child, her life begins to suffer as she needs to work up just to be able to find some place in their house. A payment for letting her to stay and be part of their family even though they can easily bring her back to the orphanage, they hold for their honor as a good example for adopting a child the reason why she stays at that house.
Fortunately, there was Niña in her life that raised her and treats her as her own, the one filled her love and care that she needed. Although, it doesn't change the fact that she lives her life filled with sorrow and pain as she grows older, forcing herself to be happy. To live her life to the fullest even the truth she's been hurting and soon she'll be facing her greatest fear.
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