(A/N:- *warning* do not interpret this chapter in wrong way. Contains suicidal thoughts.)
My body freezes remembering that day, a bead of sweat run down my cheeks.
I was Eight years old at that time when I forced my parents to take me to the amusement park on the weekend.
When we were on our way to the park an overloaded got out of control and collided with our car. The father died on the spot while my mother died in the hospital in front of my eyes.
I always regretted about that incident, if and only if I might not have forced my parents to go to the park, then we would have lived a happy life.
"Let's go Rachel Dad is waiting in the car"I heard my mom's voice and hastily went to stop her from leaving.
"M-mom!, don't go, you will die" I shouted but she didn't hear my voice, then I tried to hold her hand but..
'w-what, my hand passed through her body' I realised that only my consciousness was present here not my body.
I started panicking and tried to stop them in every possible way but all of my efforts failed meserably.
My father was on the driving seat and me(Rachel) and my mother were sitting on the back seat of the car. I sat next to my father as I didn't have to open the car door to enter.
I started thinking what to do, Furthermore I tried to touch steering wheel, breaks and other things but to my bad luck i failed.
As we were reaching the destination my heartbeat started beating at very high rate, soon I saw an overloaded truck coming from our front.
After jumping on the speed bumps, the goods of the truck shifted to one side due to which the truck lost its control and started coming towards us at a fast pace. My father tried to turn the car quickly but the truck collided with our car and....
*Boom**Thad*Thad*Thad*
After rolling for three times our car stopped.
Hearing the same voice which haunted me for years my vision becomes blurry, I saw a highly damaged car....., inside the car I saw my father's unconscious body..., And on the back seat I saw my mother covering me with her body.
Then suddenly the place changed and I saw myself crying while sitting beside my mother's bed, I still remembered her last words.
"Rachel, don't cry my son and always be a good boy okay, mama can't be with you now, don't cry my baby mama is going to the God's place and she will request him to give you everything, always remember this my boy that I am always with you and don't do anything bad always be kind to others and make me and your dad feel proud of you..*sob*..self" My mother said with a mournful smile, trying to hold back her tears.
"Nooo mama, I don't need anything, I only need you, uhwaa uwhaa"Rachel cried hard seeing her mother's condition.
Seeing her child crying Emma put her hand Rachel's head and started caressing but then her hand stopped.
*Beep*Beep*Beep*Beep*
I still feel her touch on my head, seeing this seen I started crying.
Soon the place changed and because I didn't have any other family members I was sent to an orphanage.
Scene changed automatically and I saw myself sitting at one corner of the garden in orphanage.
Rachel(I) always remained alone in orphanage and start crying remembering my parents. But one day a little girl of my age came to me and asked my name.
"Hello, what is your name?" The girl asked Rachel but at that time I didn't replied to him at all and seeing my gloomy she started talking herself at first I thought she might get bored and leave me alone but she never did.
"Hello,.."
"Hello can you tell me your name? Please" next day
"Hello, if you tell me your name I will tell you mine"
Next day
"Today's whether is good why don't we play some game"
Next day
"What do you want to play today"
Next day
"You know yesterday my mother take me to see the doctor she told that I always talk to myself at home, then I informed my mother and doctor that I was just practicing so that I can talk to you without getting tired"
*giggle* A smile escaped my lips and seeing my smile the girl became very happy and started clapping.
"Hehe, you smiled, you smiled, you smiled, now tell me your name" she asked
"My name is Rachel, what is yours"
"Hehe, My name is Silvy"
Yes, I made the character of Silverene based on this girl, Silvy, because she was my childhood friend and...
At that time she told me that she was the daughter of an renowned entrepreneur and this orphanage was handled by her mother, she always visited the orphanage with her mother.
Soon the time passed and we became best friend but one day she didn't come.
After two days we were informed that Silvy and her mother was Killed by some business rivals while they were coming to the orphanage.
Seeing this again I started feeling dizzy as I looked towards my past self, he looked lifeless tears were rolling down his cheek.
At the age of fifteen I left the orphanage and started doing part time jobs while continuing my study but I started feeling empty.
I wanted to run somewhere fare away but my mother's last wish always resounded in my ears.
I always thought that I have to remain good and kind to everyone but from inside I couldn't able bear these hypocrite peoples around me.
So I started writing this novel named ' An evil Hero', yes I didn't started writing this novel because these kind of protagonists were famous at that time but I wrote this character to satisfy myself.
But when I felt like that I don't want to be like this person, because I always felt happy helping others, at that time I stopped writing.
Seeing my dying by a gunshot I saw that police was taking my body to the hospital.
'huh!, I always thought that I had died instantly but I don't remember that I was taken to the hospital'.
After this my vision got blurry and I lost consciousness and when I opened my eyes I cursed out loud.
"F*ck, what the hell is this why I am at the beginning again," I couldn't bear this pain again but this continued again and again and again.
Seeing my parents and Silvy's death again and again, I started losing my mind, my eyes were red no tears were coming out.
I laid lifeless on the floor as I saw the same sealing, god knows how many times.
When I was about to lose my sanity, a glowing knife formed in the air and moved towards my hands, I grabbed the knife and suddenly a sound resounded in my ears.
"You only have two options to escape from this misery and live your life happily with your parents and Silvy"
" First, Take this knife and kill those who killed your love ones and live happily with them or"
" Kill yourself and escape from this meserably life".
Hearing his words I thought for a long time at first I thought of killing that truck driver for his mistake but then I realised that he didn't even killed my parents yet, 'do I have to kill him before this accident ' I asked myself.
But then I remembered my mother's words to not do anything bad. I started scratching my head 'what to do, what to do , what to do, what to do, what to do '
It started breaking me from inside and my head started hurting, I grabbed the knife in my hand, and put it on my neck then.....
(A/N:- Research has shown that laughing for two minutes is just as healthy as a 20minutes jog. So I sat at the park and laughed at the joggers. And Now I am in the hospital because of the beating, NEVER BELIEVE RESEARCHS OR GOOGLE. But still I wrote this chapter with my left hand so that you can give your reviews and power stones.)