In a broken house filled with nothing but bottles of bear on the floor.
Screams of pain and the sounds of punches striking meat could be heard.
"Are you happy living your fairy tail? wake up to reality!" Says a man with a tone of rage
He is beating a boy on the ground, the boy is coughing blood and is barely conscious.
Why?! Papa Mama save me!
"You are weak, it is your fault" Says the man
....
I wake up in a panic crying, I look around and im still here.
What happened? it's been years since I had a nightmare like that.
I sigh in relief, I dont need to feel fear anymore.
Maybe that part of me will always be there in the shadows but I will not let it shake me, today is a good day and im going to hug Papa and Mama, eat a delicious breakfast, and play around the village.
Oh! let's do it!
I smile and put my hand up, getting out of bed and putting on my clothes.
I go toward the kitchen and greet Papa and Mama, after breakfast, I talk with Mama about going out to play in the forest, she didnt like the idea but Papa and I did our best to convince her with a lot of hugs haha.
Im already at my 2 stages too, which means that my forearms are unlocked. Im much stronger, there is no danger about me going into the forest.
I get out cheerfully, passing through the village running.
Exploring time! maybe I should pass by Auntie Griselda's house to talk and get a cookie before going inside the forest, yes good idea me!
I make my way toward Auntie's house. Her window is open and I can see her using the kitchen from the street.
I approach and scream scaring her.
"A! Oh it is your Nyx!" She says laughing after the scare
We laugh a little and she gives me a cookie, delicious!
I make my way toward the forest chewing on a delicious cookie now.
Sometimes I think about Auntie Griselda, she seems very lonely, must be sad to be at home alone almost all day. I wish I could do something for her, she is always playing with me and giving me food.
But I dont see how can I help her sigh...
While lost in thoughts I finally arrive at the edge of the forest.
It is beautiful! and very colorful too. Time to enter!
My objective today is that hill over there, and I have to remember to mark some trees on the way too, Mama said I should do it to not get lost.
Walking for a while I got scared after hearing a sound on a bush.
Must be a spiky rabbit, but is better not to give it any chance.
I look for a while and I see a little white rabbit with a pointy horn on his face, he just passed and didnt bother with me.
It is a little cute haha.
I continue my way.
Mama tells history about giant beasts sometimes, and some can even burn things with their breaths, it is a bit scary.
After some time I got to the foot of the hill.
I look around a little and I see something strange, 3 trees making a triangle a few inches away from the hill, looks like they are hiding something for some reason.
I went there curiously, and I saw that on the wall behind the trees, there was a passage and something written on a tree.
"If you possess what is needed, you will know" It reads
I dont know so I think I dont possess what is needed hm... I cant enter because these trees are blocking the way, and inside it looks very dark is better if I just ignore this place.
I continue my way to the hill, I need to hike a bit but it is a little hill so I got there relatively fast using magic to go faster.
Wow! I can see a few houses from the village! and the forest is so beautiful from here too.
Time to throw things around haha!
I go closer to the edge and I use magic to create a stone.
I threw it and I got to see it falling on the horizon.
Haha, this is kind of satisfying.
I played around for a while until I thought it was time to get back home.
Mama will kill me if I dont get there to eat lunch!
I wish I could come here with Neriel to play, but I understand it can be scary going out while people dislike you.
I run the faster I can on the way back to not get late, using a spell called wind trail, It permits me to use the wind to boost my running speed.
I arrived home and Mama was still finishing preparing lunch, yes right on time!
....
Im in my room reading a book on my bed in the afternoon.
The History of the Hero, a book about the hero adventurers, I do not know if it is real or not, but Mama says it could be real.
It is about a hero who uses his powers for justice. Traveling the world facing menaces that could destroy everything.
I close the book and lie straight on the bed.
Sigh... today I have nothing to do, Mama says it is dangerous to try to build vases on your body too fast because it can damage the already existent ones, so I cant train too.
After I got to open my whole arm it got much more difficult to open the rest, I read that when you reach a point where you get locked you need to use mana gems to continue more effectively, but mana gems cost a tom of gold and we are poor.
Nothing I can do, I think I will get out for a little.
I rise from my bed going toward the wardrobe.
Im bigger than Mama now, because I have a strong body like Papa!
My hair is getting a little bigger I think I should ask Mama to cut it again.
I put on a baggy black tunic with long sleeves and a gray trouser.
Clothes are difficult to come by around here, Baifu is a tiny village and few merchants come around from time to time to buy some crops and sell their items too.
Papa bought me these trousers for my birthday, though Mama didnt like a girl wearing pants she is still weak against my cuteness haha.
I make my way toward the kitchen and Mama is drinking tear on the table.
"Mama, can you cut my hair a little? I think it is too big" I say casually
"Sure dear, grab a chair and put it on the porch" Mama says casually
Mama go get a scissors and I sit on the porch.
Maybe I should try a shorter hairstyle this time hmm...
Looking at the afternoon sky in the yard my mind drifted to the future, what I will do from now on? I should start considering working around to help Mama and Papa with gold, im already 15 years after all.
The adult age is 16 then im almost an adult! I cant live freeloading at Mama and Papa's house forever.
Papa and Mama are already old after all, Mama was 40 and Papa was 43 sigh... maybe that should be my objective, give a good life for Papa and Mama as they did to me!
Mama arrived with scissors.
While she cut my hair we talked.
"Mama, I think I know what I want to do now" I say joyfully
"Oh? And what it is?" Mama says surprised
"I want to give a good life to Mama and Papa like they did to me" I say cheerfully
Mama stops her scissor and I turn at her to see her eyes filled with tears.
"Mama?" I say puzzled by her reaction
Mama hugs me tightly.
"You already did Nyx, you are the best daughter in the whole world" Mama says with an emotional tone
I hug her back.
"Mama you gonna make me cry too" I say with an emotional tone
We laugh a little and continues to talk about things while she cuts my hair.
Mama cut my hair in a mid-length boy style, and I can comb the bangs to each side and look good because of my wavy hair.
Time to take a bath now! there is a bucket that I can fill with water to take baths, Mama said that there are rich people around the world who have things called bathtubs it is like a pool, take baths in a pool sounds cool!
I take out my clothes in the bathroom and I take a good look at myself.
My body is even more muscular than before, well I train a lot of sword and magic so it is only natural. My body has been lean and muscular ever since I was little but lately, im growing even more. not only my body too... I have some hair under my arms now and in other places too... argh and just remembering my first period makes me feel pain, it is not so bad because I have magic to strengthen my body though. I can deal with the hair growing down there and under my arms too with tools so I guess it is okay.
Mama said im passing through puberty, and when it ends I will be a full-fledged adult! I laugh a little remembering how Papa cried when I had my first period saying I was growing up so fast.
I finished taking a bath and I put on my clothes.
It is almost dinner time, so I will be going to the kitchen to see if Mama needs help with something.
When I got there Papa was talking with Mama while helping her, and I sat down at the table.
"I heard a rumor in the work today, apparently some important noble at the capital wants to buy the village, but the chief refused his proposal because he is not looking to sell" Says Papa casually
"Well, the chief family built everything here from scratch a few years ago, I understand his choice" Says Mama casually
Wow, so a few people could build a whole village! I thought that it would need a lot of people, but it is a small village maybe in that time it was even smaller.
Soon Mama came to the table with the food, a good soup of vegetables to warm the stomach! I love Mama's food.
We eat and talk for a bit at the table before we go to bed, I pass in the bathroom to brush my teeth.
I lie on my bed looking at the ceiling.
Today was a good day again. I think while slowly closing my eyes.
...
In the night, right before dawn.
"AAAAA" I wake up in a hurry after hearing a woman screaming outside.
I hear screams from everywhere, what is happening?
People are calling for help and fire smoke smells in the air.
Papa bangs into my room with fear on his face.
"Nyx! You have to hide right now!" He yells in fear
My expression turned to fear when I saw Papa scared.
I run with him to the yard and he puts me underneath our house.
"Stay there Nyx! Dont make a sound! Papa and Mama love you, I will be back in no time with Mama" He says smiling but his eyes are filled with tears
Then he runs inside the house. Im underneath our kitchen and I can see it a little through the cracks.
Im scared, what is happening? Papa Mama where are you?
I put my hand on my mouth to shut it, tears fall from my face slowly while I think the worst.
Soon I heard our door bagging and an unknown person entering.
A tall man with black short hair, he looks a little old, with a big beard well shaved. His body is bulky and he is wearing armor, a shiny ice-blue armor with a wolf crest on his chest.
I heard the sound of a punch and I saw Papa flying across the kitchen and hitting the wall with a hole in his stomach.
It takes all my self-control not to scream and cry while I see my father dying.
Please... this is a dream, right? it must be a bad dream, wake up Nyx, Papa... dont die Papa.
Tears dont stop and I tight my grip around my mouth so the sound dont go out.
Soon I see the same man with his hands around Mama's neck, he is suffocating her and she is trying to get out of his grip desperately.
His expression is unfazed like he is killing an insect and dont feel anything. He looks right into Mama's eyes while suffocating her and he says in a low voice.
"Blame your chief for not selling to the White Wolf clan" He says unfazed while Mama died
He lets go of her neck and she falls on the ground lifeless.
Her eyes are open and looking in my direction.
Mama... no no Mama wake up... dont look at me like this. Papa Mama please wake up.
A dream only a dream, wake up Nyxia it is time to have breakfast with your family. Please let me wake up.
Dont matter how hard I try to wake up it never ends, all I can hear are screams everywhere and heavy footsteps. Swords slicing against meat, and the smell of blood and smoke on the air.
I stand there frozen with my hands in my mouth crying.
I beg any god that is out there, please please, dont let my family die. Let me wake up from this nightmare it is all I ask for! Please dont let them do this to us.
Someone please, a hero anyone to save us, just send someone to help my family!
I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you I beg you... PLEASE JUST WAKE UP.
You still didnt understand? No one is coming to save you hahahaha.
Who said that? Who is there?
I look at my side and I see a boy, he is pale and small wearing rags, and is bleeding, he is lying down at my side. I know him, it is me from before.
He looks at me with his dead eyes and grim smile.
You are in the same place you always were, waiting for someone to save you.
Shut up! Shut up, I changed you are not me anymore, go away!
Pathetically waiting for someone to save you without doing anything.
Get out of my head! You are wrong!
There is no one to save you, no one cares about you, you are dead weight.
I have Papa and Mama! They love me and care for me! You are dead stop talking!
Do you have Papa and Mama? look right there.
He says pointing his fingers toward Papa and Mama's corpses.
No no! Lies, this is a dream im sure of it.
You are alone again, with no one to care about you. Get out of your fairy tail, darkness is knocking on the door, hahahahaha.
The boy laughs repeating inside my head over and over again.
Stop! Leave me alone, please!
Thats what you are, a parasite feeding on other people's pity, desperately waiting for someone to save you, too scared to do something, too weak to do something.
Please stop! wake up Nyxia! wake up! make the pain stop!
Was it enough? having a loving family, and good friends, "Oh I want to make Papa and Mama happy" hahahaha, but in the end, you are too weak to protect them.
Why im so weak urgh... why why...
Were you satisfied? Playing the happy family? hihi
No... I have nothing again, Papa Mama!
Nothing? but you have something.
What?... what do I have?
A name, White Wolf Clan.
When I hear him saying this, my mind clears out for a moment and I feel something awaking inside me, darkness.
When darkness swallows you, you just need to swallow it back hihi.
Something is filling the vases of mana in my body, darkness.
Seems like it will be a long night here hihi, let's talk even more.
And he didn't stop, no matter how much I tried to shut him up, no matter how much I covered my ears with my hands, no matter how loud the screams of pain were outside. His voice was there, inside my head and I could hear every word.
Again and again and again and again and again and again...
For hours I lay there in fetal position at the dirt underneath my house, while he talked and laughed about my whole life.
When dawn came, the boy left no... I think he never left, he is inside me.
I slowly crawl in the dirt to get out.
I reach the edge and give a final push to get to the yard.
Im now lying on my back looking at the blue morning sky.
Im... alone.
My eyes are dead, I cant even cry anymore.
"Hihihihihahahahaha!" I laugh sinisterly on the floor
I stand on my feet.
I WILL BURN THEM TO THE GROUND! KILL, TORTURE, MURDER EACH ONE OF THEM AND EVERYONE WHO GETS IN MY WAY.
My expression is of chee rage, my eyes are red from crying all night, but in a blink, it all stops. my expression turns emotionless and my eyes dead.
I will have my revenge, but not now, control yourself Nyxia.
I have more important matters to attend to.
I walk inside my house and see Papa in the kitchen with a hole in his chest.
Papa... I know Papa you didnt enter with me to not let them suspect there was another person.
If Papa and Mama hid with me down there they would know, there is no way a house would be empty here after all. they sacrificed themselves for me to live.
I pull Papa's body to the yard and leave it there while I go to take Mama's body.
Mama... im sorry Mama, for not being strong enough to protect us even after you taught me about magic.
I put her body at the side of Papa's body.
I put my hand on the ground and I use a spell to make the ground swallow them.
I create a few stones with magic to put on their graves.
I get on my knees in front of the grave with an unfazed expression.
"Papa Mama, if you two can see me from paradise, look no more, and forgive me for what I will do from now on" I say with a cold voice with a hint of rage
The sky slowly turns gray and rain soon starts to fall.