Derek was now going through life in a way that he had never imagined for himself.
A life where he did not have Emily as a PA, and she was no longer his girlfriend, or anything else to him.
It was not a good feeling at all, not having her close. Not being able to see her on a regular basis. Not having her calming presence by his side. It was pure torture.Derek's own personal hell.
Absence did not make the heart grow fonder, as most people said. Those people were clearly either very high, or were in deep denial.
Now that he was speaking from experience, Derek had come to his own conclusion. In his opinion, absence actually made the heart grow desperate. How on earth had Derek ever even convinced himself that he was fine without her? He missed Emily something fierce. Derek could deny it until he was blue in the face. But at the end of the day, the truth was the truth,and lies could only go so far. At some point, Derek had stopped trying.
