After returning, the couple who were looking for their children naturally left in disappointment. In this extremely dangerous world for females, how can it be so easy to find a lost female cub?
Another farce came to an end. Seeing the sad departure of the couple looking for a child, Wuqing suddenly felt a little bored. So he hugged the recently made lyre, jumped to the top of the kapok tree in the courtyard, and started playing.
Thinking of the disappointed expression on the father's face when he saw her, tears welled up in the man's eyes but he tried hard not to cry. He couldn't imagine how painful it would be to lose a child, and he didn't know if there had been such a person looking for him with the same mood.
He didn't know if he was lost or abandoned. If he was just lost back then, did his parents find him like this? The question buried deep in my heart as a child was brought up again - is he a wild child that no one wants? Was he abandoned by his parents? I remember when he was a child, he was so envious of those children who could act coquettishly in their parents' arms...
The sound of the piano began to become a bit chaotic, and Qingqing closed his eyes. He didn't know when his heart had become so fragile. These are old things, why do you think of them again? He is no longer a child. The weak and innocent child he was back then is long gone! Could it be that after being treated as a child here for so long, he really became a child? Focusing his attention on Qin, Qing Wu controlled his somewhat chaotic aura.
The old man who taught him before said that a killer should not be full of murderous intent and should know how to restrain himself; if he mixes in the crowd, he should be no different from ordinary people and not expose himself easily. Rhythm is a way of elegance and a way for him to cultivate himself. Of course, it can also be a tool for him to kill people. I once wore thousands of masks and performed various roles vividly, but it was ridiculous that I never knew which one was the real me.
Sometimes he thought that if he was not a killer, if he was just a child of an ordinary family, he might have married a wife and had children by now, living a peaceful life of men farming and women weaving; filial piety...
But there is no "such" in this world, and this is his fate. As an orphan, he is already very lucky: he did not starve to death on the streets, nor was he sold into a small shop; after being picked up by the organization, he did not die in training; even if the force value of each task object is higher than He was much better, and he successfully completed the tasks; in the end, even if the organization sent people to kill him, he was still alive and well? Thinking of this, Qingqing felt that maybe God still had eyes for it, and he couldn't ask for too much as a human being.
The happiness and misfortune in this world are just man-made feelings. Why should I care so much. No one will sympathize with a cold-blooded killer, even if he cannot control what he is now, but so what? He is what he is, he is who he is, and he doesn't need anyone's sympathy!
After preparing dinner, Usus walked to the front yard. He wanted to ask A Qing to eat, but he heard the music of A Qing's piano again. This Qin was made by Ah Qing herself. It is a magical instrument and the music it plays is very nice. However, Usus felt a little heartbroken when he heard today's song; it was obviously a cheerful song, so why did he feel sad? This song seems to be telling a relaxing story, but beneath the relaxed surface is hidden this indescribable pain...
"Qiang——" One of the strings suddenly broke, and the leisurely sound stopped abruptly. After taking a look at his fingers that were cut by the strings, Wu Qing picked up the piano and dropped it from the tree.
"Aqing, your hand." The sudden stop of the piano music made Usus come back to his senses from the pain. He had been paying attention to the person playing the piano on the tree, and naturally discovered the finger that started to bleed. Taking the lyre from Ah Qing's arms, Usus carefully inspected the scratched finger, then opened his mouth to hold it.
Feeling the warmth on his fingertips, Wu Wuqing stretched out his other hand and stroked Usus' resolute cheek - this man really spoiled himself, otherwise he wouldn't have seen the couple looking for a child. Being emotionally disturbed by your partner and thinking about those dreams that are no longer possible, people are indeed creatures who are prone to get more and more and are greedy.
"Just put some medicine and you'll be fine. Let's go in and eat." After staring at Usus's eyes for a while, Qing Qing said, "By the way, take out the wine that Feili and the others sent last time. I want to drink it." "It seems like he hasn't had a drink for a long time, so he will let himself indulge for a while today.
"Okay." Usus released his fingers from his mouth, kissed Aqing's forehead, then turned around and went into the house to get something. The wine was given to me by Fili Fuliang last time he came to express his gratitude. This stuff is usually brewed by females from fruits or grains, and most females prefer to drink it. But I heard that wine is easily intoxicating, so Aqing is not an adult yet so we can't let him drink too much...
The meal was quiet, but the atmosphere tonight had a slightly melancholy feel than usual. After the meal, the plates were removed from the dining table, leaving only a bottle of wine and a glass on the clean dining table. After finishing the glass of wine, Qing Qing picked up the jug and filled it up for himself.
"How did Ah Qing live before?" Usus, who had been standing by the side, asked the question he had always buried in his heart. Originally, he thought he could wait until the day when Ah Qing was willing to talk about it. But after what happened today and hearing the music played by Ah Qing, he felt that he couldn't remain so passive. He should care more about Ah Qing.
At the same time, Usus couldn't imagine how a female cub could survive outside. Ah Qing must have suffered a lot. If the pain in her heart wasn't too deep, how could it be infiltrated into the music he played? No wonder Ah Qing behaved so maturely and was much more sensible than the cubs and even the adult females in the tribe. Thinking of this, Usus regretted not meeting Ah Qing earlier, so that he might not suffer so much.
"Huh? You want to know?" Qingqing picked up the wine glass and took a sip of wine. The wine was not strong, fragrant and delicious, but it was also very intoxicating. Even though I drank a lot, I couldn't taste what it was made from. He didn't deliberately try to relieve himself from the hangover, but just let the alcohol numb his consciousness. When did he not dare to get drunk again? Maybe he can get drunk again today, because there is no one here who wants his life anymore.
"How did I live before? In the past, every time I opened my eyes and saw the sunshine of a new day, I thought it was a miracle. It was a miracle that I was still alive." While drunk, Qingwu began to talk to himself, "My own kind is the most dangerous creature there. Killing and being killed is my destiny; in order to live, I must become stronger; in order to live, I must kill, kill my enemies, kill my friends; finally I am the only one left, well - alive; in this world, I am alone again..."
"A Qing, you're drunk." Hearing A Qing's strange words and feeling the speaker's increasingly heavy emotions, Usus snatched the cup from Qing Qing's hand and hugged the person into his arms. Ah Qing must be drunk, otherwise why would she say so many words that no one can understand?
"Give me the cup, I'm not drunk; I have gone through a lot of hardships in order to learn how to relieve hangover! After I mastered it, I have never been drunk again... Don't you want to hear what I said about the past? Give me the wine , I will continue." Wu Qing said and grabbed the cup from Usus' hand.
"If you don't want to talk about Ah Qing's past, don't talk about it. I don't want to know." Usus had some questions that he regretted asking tonight. He couldn't understand what Ah Qing just said: why are the most dangerous people of the same kind, why should they be killed, and where did Ah Qing come from? Although he had countless questions, he probably knew that killing and loneliness were what Ah Qing meant in his words. Seeing Ah Qing's current state, he didn't dare to ask any more questions. What could he do if he knew those things? It would just bring back bad memories of Ah Qing.
"No! I want to say it!" Qingwu began to struggle and refuse in Usus's arms. Why didn't he let himself say it when he didn't want to know? I have never told anyone these things. If I can tell him today, he should listen carefully!
"Okay, tell me." Usus hugged the person in his arms. Ah Qing was so drunk that she started acting like a child. Although it was cute, it was also heartbreaking to watch. Now he could only let him make trouble, and he would stop naturally when he got tired. Usus looked at the person in his arms fondly, and he really shouldn't have let Ah Qing drink too much.
"Well, you have to listen carefully." Wu Wuqing tugged on Usus's ears, "I am alone again. I stood on a high place alone, only to find that there is a higher place, so I started from a very high place. From a very high place - I jumped down..." Qingwu raised his head and looked at the sky for a while, then he suddenly laughed: "Haha, Usus, do you think I was destined to be like this - I was destined to be like this? A person will not be happy in life; he will not die well in death!"
Hearing this, Usus couldn't help but frown. How could anyone curse himself so hard? What kind of life would make you have such terrible thoughts? Is it precisely because of this that you usually don't pay much attention to everything and live your life wantonly? Since you only care about whether you are happy today, let me plan your tomorrow. One day I will let you forget the pain of yesterday...
"No, no, Usus, you should leave me quickly, or throw me away. Well, my parents threw me away. They must have known that I was not a good person, so... well, You are a good person..." Qingwu continued to struggle in Usus's arms, but unfortunately the alcohol had already set in, and he began to lose strength, and his head began to become drowsy.
"Throw it away?! I won't throw you away." Usus tightened his arm and stretched out a hand to pat Ah Qing's back, carefully comforting the person in his arms. Throw it away? How could he be willing to throw him away? Meeting Ah Qing was a blessing he had gained in his previous life. parents? Usus didn't quite understand this word, but it probably meant father and father. How could they throw away their children? Why would Ah Qing think so?
"Good boy, let go. God is punishing me, a bad guy. It won't be good if I implicate you, haha..." Qingqing buried her head in Usus's chest and chuckled: "I like a bad guy, Usus." It's not going to get better for you, so let it go.
Heartache, even more heartbreaking than when I saw Ah Qing injured and vomiting blood. Hearing Ah Qing's low laugh, Usus felt his heart bleed. Even if it was just some vague drunken words, the pain in those words was extremely clear. Usus felt that he had become cowardly, and he did not have the courage to listen to Aqing's words anymore.
Lowering his head to seal the red lips that were about to open, Usus kissed her hard: "Aqing, let the past go. I will definitely let you forget all the pain." Although I don't know what you went through in the past, thank God for still allowing you to live well and for allowing me to meet you. It is indeed a miracle that you are alive, and it is even more of a miracle that I met you!
The kiss lasted for who knows how long. When Usus stopped, he found that the pregnant woman had fallen asleep quietly. Of course, the possibility of fainting from his kiss is not ruled out.
Usus carried the person back to the room and carefully placed him on the bed. Fetching a basin of warm water, Usus wiped the sleeping baby's face, hands and feet clean, and quietly looked at the sleeping person beside the bed. He felt that it was a great happiness to be able to take care of the people he loved like this. …