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Chapter 20 - Apologize My Heart pt1

"Bro, are you really incapable of apologizing to anyone?" Shitty Hair asked and I grumbled. 

"What the fuck? If they actually deserved it then yeah. But none of you extras deserve it!" What's the big deal? I mean fuck it's not my fault Shitty Hair was in my way when I was setting off an explosion. 

"Hmm, even if I don't. Midobro does," I froze at his words before turning my deadliest glare on him. 

"Don't pretend to know shit that you don't," I could even hear my voice growl at my words. To say I was pissed would be a huge understatement. 

"Then explain it to me. What did Midobro do exactly to deserve your hate?"

"What the fuck?" We had been walking back to the dorms after class and at this point I just stopped on the sidewalk, confused. "I don't hate him?" 

Dunce Face, Raccoon Eyes and Soy Sauce Face started cackling and even Shitty Hair couldn't help chuckling. I looked at them confused, seriously how the fuck did they get that? When it looked like they really weren't going to answer I set off a few explosions to get their attention. 

"Why the fuck do you think I hate him? We fight, there is a difference," I crossed my arms and waited for their answer. 

"Bro, are you serious? Dear All Might!" I blinked, still waiting, not amused by Shitty Hair at all.  

"Dude, you are always trying to kill him. Like literally, how can we not think you hate him?" Dunce Face finally answered me. 

I could feel my face darken, "Don't pretend to know what you don't." 

Raccoon Eyes was watching me seriously at this point, "Midoriya thinks you hate him. So why wouldn't we?" 

"No he doesn't," I rolled my eyes at her. "Stop making shit up and use all that extra time you're using to stir shit up to study instead!" I was still grumbling.

"Bro, Midoriya told me during your rescue mission that if it was him reaching out for you, you wouldn't take it." I froze at his words. 

"He is right. I wouldn't have. Mind your own business. There are some things you extras don't need to know," Even I heard my voice soften at that but I'm not giving them their way. They don't know about OFA. They don't know about our history. And most importantly they can't know that I'm in love with him. 

I left them there, not caring about what they were trying to say or ask. I went back to the dorms and by the time I got there I had all four of them hanging on me trying to stop me. I rolled my eyes and set off a couple explosions and all but Shitty Hair let go. So I set off another one in his face before getting in the elevator. 

I pulled out my phone and texted Deku. 

Dynamight: My room. Window. 

I saw him answer with a smiley face and I put my phone away. The elevator opened showing my floor and I went to my room, unlocked it and slammed it shut when I heard breathless yells for me to wait from the staircase, my idiots trying to catch up with the elevator, I wouldn't let them in. I locked the door, I can only take so much stupid at once, thanks. 

I changed and hung my clothes up, now in a tank and a pair of pajama pants, All Might themed. I unlocked my window and opened it to find Deku holding onto the ledge. I stepped out of the way and he climbed in, letting me lock it again. 

"What's wrong Kacchan?" He looked so worried. Fuck it. 

"Do you hate me?" I asked him, crossing my arms. 

"WHAT!?! No, I could never hate you!" It's a good thing my room is soundproof because otherwise I'm pretty sure that the extras in the next dorm building would have heard his screech. 

"Do you think I hate you?" I kept calm, rubbing my ear a little from his overreaction but honestly I'm just used to it by now. 

"Well, uhh..." He went quiet but looked up nervously. "I was hoping you didn't anymore?" I stared at him blinking several times. I walked past him and just fell on my bed before rubbing my face groaning. 

"So the extras were right," I can't believe this shit! I mean after everything we have gone through, he thinks I... 

"Kacchan?" I looked at him to see him standing next to my bed. I patted the space next to me and he hopped up next to me and made himself comfortable. 

He laid there next to me silent as I put my thoughts together, "I don't hate you. I don't really think I ever did. Thought I did back in middle school but... Not really." I open my eyes to look at him and see him with bright eyes. "Please for the love of All Might do not start fucking crying!" And now I'm regretting letting him in here. 

"It's just," he paused looking for the right way to say whatever the fuck was on his mind. "I always hoped that you didn't. I mean you have always been so amazing and I was just me and," he started mumbling again. It was really a bad habit of his but I liked it. I like the fact that even after all this time he couldn't keep all of his thoughts in his head. It just proved how smart he was, that it came spilling out of him. 

"I mean," He shook his head. "Sorry I was mumbling again wasn't I?"

I shrugged, "It doesn't bother me like it used to. Don't worry about it." I saw him smile and he tried to hide a yawn from me, making me raise an eyebrow at him curiously. 

"I haven't been sleeping much lately, I mean it's our last year of UA. Add to that my birthday is next weekend and I'm excited to see what a real birthday party is like. I haven't had one since we were 4," he yawned, not bothering to try and hide it. Our first year no one knew when his birthday was and our second year we were, surprise, attacked by the League. So I guess he hasn't. 

I smiled and reached over and pulled him closer so that his head was now on my shoulder, "I was thinking about taking a nap anyway." 

"Kacchan!?!" He tried to pull away. 

"Chill out, I won't kill you. Besides we're both tired so why would it matter?" Sometimes people confuse the hell out of me. We used to sleep together all the time when we were brats, so what's the difference? 

He pulled away anyway and jumped off the bed before turning and bowing to me. "Kacchan, I'm sorry but I'm gay. I can't knowingly accept while you trust me-" 

"So?" I cut him off. I wasn't lying when I said I wanted a nap. I got up early this morning for extra training. 

"Kacchan, I..." 

"Oh. You have a boyfriend and they would get upset. I guess I understand that," well now my heart feels hollow. Fuck, I mean I knew I didn't have a chance but still. It hurts. 

"What? NO! I don't have a boyfriend! I'm single! Very single!" Deku was screaming again and I just watched him as he kept turning brighter and brighter red. 

"Then what's the problem?" 

"Kacchan... Please don't make me say it. I already know it's hopeless," Okay now THAT got my attention. 

"Oi just spit it out already," I sat up grumbling, I glared at him. I mean it's not like I'm asking him to cuddle me or some shit. What the fuck is the matter with him? 

He let out a sigh as if accepting his fate, seriously he is acting like I'm about to kill him over this. I'm just tired. 

"Kacchan, I love you." 

I froze, and looked up slowly. This was not at all what I was expecting. I studied him, he stood there ready for whatever I threw at him. I blinked, how could he like me when he expected me to hurt him? 

"Deku?" He looked up when I started talking. "Do you like pain?" I watched his eyes widen and he shook his head no fast but he kept his mouth clamped shut. 

I let out a sigh, "Thank fucking God. But why do you like me? I hurt you? A lot." 

"..." He stared at me with his mouth open before he caught himself and tried to actually talk. "I. I. I. I don't know, you're just so amazing. Everything you do is like magic, I can't look away." 

"Magic?" I started laughing and I climbed back into my bed and patted the space next to me again. He hesitated but he did finally climb in next to me and I motioned for him to relax on my shoulder again. Which he finally did. 

"Just go to sleep, Nerd. You're sleep deprived," I chuckled and wrapped my arm around him to keep him close so he wouldn't fall off the bed. I could hear him pout but he snuggled into me, I reached over and turned off the light and relaxed. 

My crush has a crush on me? That's a nice dream but I'm sure that once he is thinking rationally again he won't feel that way. For now though I could enjoy holding him, and pretend. 

***

"Kacchan? Your phone is vibrating," I woke up to Deku grumbling. I looked around and sure enough my phone was going off on the nightstand. I reached over and picked it up. 

"What the fuck do you want?" I didn't even bother to look at the caller ID, my voice thick with sleep. 

"Young Bakugo! I'm so glad you're alright. Do you know where Young Midoriya is? No one has been able to find either of you and his mother isn't answering her phone." I looked at my phone wincing at the backlight. 

"All Might it's only 6:30 on a Friday evening," I started rubbing my face.

"I know it's just there was no record of either of you leaving campus or anyone giving you permission to leave either." All Might was starting to sound disappointed. 

"Fuck, chill out would you? We just fell asleep after talking. WAIT, DO NOT REPEAT THAT!" I could practically see him about to do exactly that. 

"We have been training a lot and decided to take a nap. Why didn't anyone just oh I don't know, try ringing my doorbell?" 

"Doorbell?" He sounded so confused. 

"My room is soundproof because of my explosions. I can't hear if anyone just knocks on the door," I grumbled in answer. 

"Oh. So Young Midoriya is with you? Can I talk to him please?" 

"Hold on," I put my phone on speaker and shook Deku. 

"Oi Deku! All Might is looking for you, get up!" I kept shaking him. 

"Sleep!" He grumbled trying to bury his face in my chest, he even tried pulling the covers back over us. 

"Oi! Did you hear me? All Might fucking wants to talk to you!" I debated about rolling him over so he would fall out of the bed. 

"Young Bakugo, I can just come and-" 

"OH FUCK NO. DEKU GET YOUR ASS UP OR I'M GOING TO BLOW IT UP! HE IS NOT COMING TO MY ROOM BECAUSE OF YOUR NERDY ASS!" I started screaming and Deku whimpered before rubbing at his eyes. I groan. 

"All Might let me call you back in about one minute." I didn't wait for him to answer and just hung up and pulled up the All Might theme song on my phone and hit play. When it got to the end Deku sat up sleepily mumbling with it, "I am here," before looking around and finally realizing where he was. 

"AH! I'm so sorry Kacchan!" He flinched back and lost his balance and was about to fall back onto the floor but I caught him, pulling him into my arms. 

"Fuck are you trying to make everyone think that I'm actually trying to kill you?" I grumbled only to hear my phone vibrating again. "That's probably All Might again."

"Wait again!?!" He looked like he was about to freak out so I grabbed him again and held him close before answering. 

"Yo?" 

"Uhh, Young Bakugo?" All Might asked now confused how I answered my phone. I put my phone on speaker. 

"You're on speaker, the Nerd seems to be trying to kill himself by hitting his head. No, I did not hit him," I groaned when I heard him start to say something, only to sigh. 

"Sorry, of course you wouldn't. Young Midoriya? Young Bakugo? You two missed our training session today. Are you both alright?" 

"Oi! You canceled that, remember?" I yelled in answer. 

"Yeah All Might, you said you couldn't make it because you were going to Hosu for some kind of meeting," Deku piped in. He still sounded exhausted but he was awake now. 

"Didn't you get my message? The meeting was canceled so I was able to come back." Deku started freaking out but I pulled up my messages and saw the time stamp was for 5:48. We were planning for 6. 

"All Might you sent that at 5:48. We were already asleep by then. You should have tried calling with that kind of last minute change. We've talked about this," I groan again. 

"Oh. Right, of course. Sorry you're right. Sometimes time just gets away from me," he chuckled. 

"Does this mean we have training tomorrow again?" Deku asked hopefully and I wanted to laugh at how cute he was being but instead I listened close to his answer. 

"Oh right of course! How about 4am? Then we can get in a good workout before breakfast. Then the three of us can get a coffee after we clean up?" 

"Yes!" Deku and I answered together and we actually laughed. All Might is the only one who actually got to see us get along for any length of time thanks to these training sessions. 

"Great! Oh before I go, What were you two doing to fall asleep?" He asked and I rolled my eyes when I saw Deku going red. 

"We were just talking and I got up early for extra training, my alarm probably would have woke us up in a few more minutes. 

"Ah, it's good to hear that you two are getting along. I was starting to think I was the only one that got to see you two working together," he laughed. 

"Hmm, you might be. But everyone else seems determined to ruin my mood before giving us half a chance," I yawned stretching. 

"So Young Bakugo? Why didn't you want me to see your room?" I almost hit my head on the wall behind me and Deku actually laughed. 

Deku decided to answer for me, "He doesn't like people to see his space. I've seen his room hundreds of times growing up so I don't count, I guess," I huffed and turned away, we are both sitting up on my bed and I'm pretty well done with Deku laughing at me. 

"Ah I see. No worries then. I'll see you both bright and early!" He laughed before hanging up. 

I pick up my phone and start scrolling the class chat and notice Deku trying to look at my phone. It's not like it could hurt right? I grab him around his waist and pull him into my lap hearing him yelp but he quickly shut his mouth. I just shrugged it off and rested my chin on his shoulder and continued to scroll through the class chat with my arms around him so that he could read too. He finally relaxed and eventually got comfortable. 

First the Baku squad gc, I still can't believe Shitty Hair named it that. 

Shitty Hair: Has anyone heard from Bakubro?

Dunce Face: Not since he ran from us after school. 

Soy Sauce Face: Don't-

Dynamight: You want to fucking die? 💥💥💥

Dunce Face: No! 

Shitty Hair: Bro! Where have you been?

Dynamight: How is that any of your business? 

Shitty Hair: Bro All Might was looking for you and Midobro! Wait have you seen him? 

Dynamight: He isn't looking for us. We already talked to him so whatever. 

Shitty Hair: Bro! Are you with Midobro? 

Raccoon Eyes: I heard a juicy rumor!

Dunce Face: What is it? 

Raccoon Eyes: I heard that Midobabe is actually gay! Can you believe it? He was such a cutie and now I've lost him without even getting to try. 😣

Dynamight: First off. HOW THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN HEAR ABOUT THAT? 

Dynamight: Second, who the actual fuck cares? 

Raccoon Eyes: 😅

Raccoon Eyes: WAIT! DID YOU ALREADY KNOW!?! 

Dynamight: We grew up together. Seriously, why are you always so surprised? 

Raccoon Eyes: You knew!!! Has he ever had a boyfriend before? Has he ever had a girlfriend? What were they like? Now that I think about it. What was Midobabe like before UA? He is always so shy and- 

Dynamight: Shut up for fucks sake. Why the fuck would I tell any of you that? 

Dunce Face: YOU KNOW!?! 

Dunce Face: Wait is that why you "don't hate" him? 

Dynamight: What the fuck is that actually supposed to mean? 

Soy Sauce Face: It means that we still don't believe you. 

Shitty Hair: 😅 Sorry Bakubro. 

Dynamight: How many times do I have to tell you to STOP CALLING ME THAT? 

Dynamight: and I don't hate him. Why won't you let it go? 

Deku was watching. He seemed surprised that I didn't care he was reading a chat he wasn't actually a part of but relaxed when I started grumbling about my extras. 

Dynamight: Fuck it. If you're not going to believe me anyway I'm gone. 

Shitty Hair: WAIT!!!!

I raised an eyebrow at that. He usually isn't so demanding and for that matter he knows better than to demand anything from me. 

Dynamight: You better have a good reason.

Shitty Hair: It's just

Dunce Face: You can do it Dude! 

Raccoon Eyes: 🤩

Soy Sauce Face: Hey let him ask first.

Dynamight: Ask what? 

Shitty Hair: Well uhh you see. I didn't really expect you to be so indifferent about someone being gay. 

Dynamight: Why would I care? It doesn't involve me. 

Shitty Hair: Right. Right umm but what if it did? 

I looked at my phone and blinked several times and then looked at Deku who held up his hands in surrender. 

"You see what I'm seeing right?" I asked to be sure. He nodded but kept his eyes on the phone. 

Dynamight: I guess I would care. Why? Who in the fuck wants to involve me? We all know I'm an ass. 

Shitty Hair: 😥

Dunce Face: Oh my All Might. Ask or I'll do it for you! 

Soy Sauce Face: NO!

Raccoon Eyes: NO!

Shitty Hair: It's okay I'll ask. 

Shitty Hair: Bakubro. I was wanting to let you know that. I really like you and I was wanting to know if you would go on a date with me? 

I stared at my phone again and then at Deku and then my phone and then back at Deku. "Did you two plan this?" He shook his head, his face already bright red. "Good. I really would have been pissed."

Dynamight: To clarify. You did see the part where I said I was an ass right?

Raccoon Eyes: 🤦

Dunce Face: 😣

Soy Sauce Face: 🤐

Shitty Hair: I mean yeah but I don't think you are. I think you're manly and so cool! 

Dynamight: Look Kirishima. It's nice that you think that way but I don't think of you in that way. 

Dynamight: I don't mean to trample your feelings. I'm just trying to be honest.

Shitty Hair: I understand. Thank you for being so nice about it. 

Dynamight: Good because I deleted those messages before fucking Raccoon Eyes could screenshot it. 

Raccoon Eyes: WHY!!!!! It was a once in a lifetime chance and you even used his real name! 😭😭😭😭😭

Dynamight: Overdramatic ass. 

I switched over to the class chat to see Tsu trying, yet somehow failing, to tag Deku. 

Dynamight: The fact you are failing so hard. 

Dynamight: Why do you want the nerd anyway?

Froppy: I'm trying to tell him sorry. I mentioned something in front of Ashido and she kind of took it seriously instead of food for thought. *kero*

Dynamight: So your the reason Raccoon Eyes is hounding me on Deku's love life? 

Froppy: I assume so. But I didn't mean to! *kero* 

Uravity: Wait Deku's love life? What love life? I didn't know he had a girlfriend. 

Froppy: I don't know if he does but I mentioned that for all I knew he could be gay when Ashido was asking who I thought he liked and now I guess she is hunting it down. *kero*

Dynamight: Of course she is. She lives for gossip and there has been virtually none in almost a month. 🤦

Froppy: Sorry Bakugo. *kero*

Dynamight: Whatever. By the way if you're wanting to actually tag him then you need to take the space out for it to work. 

Froppy: Oh! Thank you. I didn't even notice it. *kero*

Froppy: @Deku

Deku: Hey Tsu! What's up?

Froppy: I'm so sorry. I kind of started a rumor about you without meaning to! *kero*

Deku: You're the one that said I was gay?

Froppy: 😓 yes. But I really didn't mean to! 

Deku sat in my lap and I could feel him relax. I guess it's been bothering him and considering he now knows how it started he can either confirm it or deny it. I don't understand why people are so nosey. It's really none of their damn business in the first place. 

Ingenium: Tsu! That was highly inappropriate and hurtful! What if he was forced to leave UA? 

Dynamight: Why in the fuck would that even be a possibility?

Ingenium: Language! 

Dynamight: You know I don't give a rat's ass. Now answer! Why would the nerd have to leave over something so stupid? 

Ingenium: Because you can't be a hero if you're that way. 

Dynamight: Are you fucking stupid? A person's sexual orientation literally has zero impact on it.

Ingenium: I was taught-

Dynamight: It sure as fuck wasn't by Aizawa Sensei. You realize he is gay. Right? 

Ingenium: BAKUGO! Do not speak such things!

Dynamight: 🙄

Dynamight: @Eraserhead

Ingenium: What are

Eraserhead: Now what! 

Eraserhead: Wait... Bakugo is the one that called for me? 

Dynamight: Glasses needs education. Somehow he thinks gay people can't be heroes. 

Eraserhead: Don't be ridiculous. 

Ingenium: You really didn't need to drag our teacher into this Bakugo! As I said they do not allow people of that persuasion to gain a hero license. 

Eraserhead: ... 

Eraserhead: Bakugo you have my apologies. You are correct he does need education. 

Ingenium: What do you mean Sensei? 

Eraserhead: It means. HOW IN THE FUCK DID YOU COME TO THAT CONCLUSION? WHO IN THE FUCK DO I NEED TO DRAG INTO OUR CLASS TO EDUCATE PROPERLY?

Eraserhead: Sexual orientation is a protected statute just like gender or race. So long as both people are willing and freely giving consent this is not even a topic for discussion. 

Ingenium: But my father said-

Eraserhead: @Nezu

Eraserhead: Your father said what exactly? 

Nezu: Oh dear. It looks like we are going to be very busy for a while. 🍵

Dynamight: Anyway have fun Glasses. You are about to get a very long lecture on professionalism. We all know just how much you like those. 

Dynamight: @Deku Want to train? 

Deku: Sure! Let me get changed! 

Eraserhead: WA-

But we both logged out and I turned my attention back to Deku. 

"Do you really need to change?" He looked like he was already ready to go training. 

"No but no one else needs to know that," he blushed a bit before turning to face me better. He was now laying sideways on my lap making it to where I couldn't rest my head on his shoulder. "Thank you Kacchan. For helping me with all of that." 

I shrugged, "Is gay pride still a thing?" He nodded smiling up at me. "Then I guess us gays need to stick together." I saw his eyes widen at that. Nope he didn't miss that at all. 

"Wait, you're gay too? But then why did you refuse Kirishima? I thought he was your best friend and you also refused me," Deku started mumbling to himself. 

"No I didn't," I answered calmly, watching as he started to fidget only to freeze. 

"I saw you refuse Kirishima!" 

I nodded, chuckling a little, "Yeah. I did." 

"And you refused me before we fell asleep," he slumped now trying to hide his face. 

"No I didn't," I felt as his body went rigid. "I just didn't believe you. There is a difference. I like you a lot but I'm not stupid enough to believe that I deserve you or that you actually want me. You were just sleep deprived and you're embarrassed by the whole thing now." I shrugged, the truth hurt but it was still the truth. 

"But-!"

"No. Now are we going or are you going to ruin my mood?" 

***

It was a lot of fun, going to the gym together, we even had a sparring match while we were there, no quirks of course but still. It was a lot of fun. Probably the most I've had since we were very small. 

"Maybe we could go out to eat instead of with everyone else? We did already take showers here," Deku suggested and I looked up, surprised at the suggestion. I don't think we've ever just hung out together before. 

"Sure, why not?" I gave him a small smile and he beamed back at me. Something so small could mean so much to him. I wish I could make him smile like that. 

"There's this Thai place I really like just down the street from here so we shouldn't even need permission since we aren't going that far and we are already out anyway. But then again with our luck we should at least ask All Might," Deku started muttering cutely and I just let him. Where is the harm in just watching him? 

"Sounds good, I need something hot enough to actually taste after Shitty Hair's cooking last night," I grumbled. He thought that he actually needed to add sugar to coconut curry. I mean it's already not my favorite but that was just nasty. I waited as he called All Might, he put it on speaker phone and when he verified that we were standing together he gave the okay and even sent it via text message so no one could try and argue later. 

*cough*Aizawa Sensei*cough* 

He already hates that we are allowed to leave at all but thanks to All Might and Aunty we can. Don't get me wrong there isn't anything between the two of them except Deku but Aunty begs for Deku to visit more than once every two weeks and All Might needs us to be able to train outside of UA. We are interrupted too often otherwise. 

Once everything was said and done we made our way to the restaurant and it was actually really nice to be able to sit back and just chat. I mean I don't think we have just talked since my shitty apology so this is nice. We were even laughing at some of the silly ass shit our squads did. 

"There is no fucking way!" I am laughing so hard that I'm clutching my sides but somehow I haven't caused too much of a disturbance. 

"I'm serious though!" Deku hisses in his excitement not trusting his voice. "Iida really told me that I needed to learn more about hacking all because I crashed Mei's newest baby before it could explode. It still blew up but it wasn't around as many people as it would have been," he shrugged and I'm covering my mouth to try and keep my laughter down. 

"Oh my All Might," I sighed, wiping at my eyes to try and calm down. "Did he ever get the nerve to ask her out?" I asked and Deku looked at me confused. 

"How did you know he liked her?" 

"It's pretty fucking obvious, everytime she comes around he flinches and watches her until she leaves. At first I thought he was holding a grudge from the summer sports festival our first year but then I noticed his eyes never really matched that," my turn to shrug and Deku giggled cutely. 

"He won't admit it and Mei isn't interested in anything but her babies at the moment so I guess it's a good thing," he rolled his eyes and we were both laughing at their behavior. 

"Well you saw what happened with Shitty Hair," I paused and saw him nod. "Well Soy Sauce Face and Raccoon Eyes are teasing each other pretty fucking hard, it's so fucking gross. Sometimes I wonder if they are already dating just for Raccoon Eyes to bitch about finding a boyfriend again." 

"What about Kaminari?" Deku asked, taking a sip of his lemonade. 

"Gay and in denial, he keeps flirting with Ears but we all know he isn't actually interested and she is getting more and more pissed about it because she has a thing for Ponytail and he keeps interrupting them." I rolled my eyes at his denseness. "That's why I keep calling him Dunce Face." I love to hear Deku's giggles and the fact of the matter is that I have all of his attention, no one else. 

"Shinso has more than a crush on Kaminari but he won't admit it either," he giggled before he seemed to think of something else. 

"What? It's never good when you get quiet," I teased him with a smirk that he blushed at. 

"I was just thinking about how much I like you and even though you know, you are still spending time with me. It's nice," his face was a light pink and I swear to All Might he was cuter than any fucking strawberry. 

"What did you expect to happen? Was I supposed to bite your head off or blow it?" I teased and now he is bright red but he wasn't denying any of it either. "Damn, kinky much?" I laughed and he whined, hiding his face. 

"I wasn't thinking that BEFORE you said it!" He defended himself and when he looked up we both started laughing. I paid the bill ignoring Deku's arguments until he finally thanked me. 

"You're welcome," I smiled at him before adding. "If you really do like me and it's not just you being sleep deprived, maybe we could go on a real date. But you would have to take care of yourself," I gave him a glare but even as we walked down the sidewalk he jumped up and wrapped his arms around my neck, almost throwing us off balance and onto the ground. 

"Really?" His big eyes begged and fuck it, I'm going to be selfish. 

"Do I lie?" I asked him, tilting my head and now he hugs me close and I could feel him shaking his head no. 

"It just feels like a dream," he sighed and I couldn't help chuckling. 

"Let's start with friends and when you prove that you are making an effort to take care of yourself, well we'll go from there," I smiled while hugging him back. 

"I can live with that!" He laughed in his excitement before letting me go and walking beside me again while we made our way back to school. 

"So can I," I smiled and hooked my pinky with his. "I hope you take good care of yourself," I whispered and there he goes blushing again and damn those cute giggles will be the end of me! 

"We still have time before you normally go to bed, want to study together?" He suggested nervously twirling one of his curls with his other hand's fingers. 

"Hmmm, I do still have the English assignment due next week to work on," I hummed and his smile brightened. I couldn't help noticing that he didn't unhook our pinky fingers and if anything it felt like he was squeezing just so he didn't have to let me go. 

"I'm not against romantic gestures or signs of affection," I cleared my throat and looked over at him to see his eyes wide and bright. "Not from you anyway." 

I felt him intertwined his fingers with mine and give me a light squeeze

 "Something like this?" He asked, hesitatingly. 

"Just like this," I gave him a grin and I could feel my face getting hot. Am I being too childish? But I like it and if the way he is smiling is anything to go by, so does he. So is this okay? 

"Kacchan is actually letting me hold his hand!" Deku was quietly muttering to himself but he was all but squealing in his excitement. Guess I didn't really have anything to worry about after all. 

"Come on Nerd, I know you need help with math," I grinned at him and he picked up the pace to keep even with me while smiling so big that it hurt my face. I reach up to rub my face and I'm surprised by what I found. 

I had to be smiling just as big as Deku. 

***

"Kacchan can I come over? Please?" Deku barely sounded like he could hold himself together, like he was about to break and my heart felt like it was being ripped out just by hearing it. It's been a month since our little heart to heart and I for one thought that we were making progress. I was even going to bring up dating tomorrow when we snuck away from everyone else to relax. 

"My idiots are here, I'll kick them out," I answered and before I could do more than stand up they were all groaning and asking why but Deku stopped me. 

"No, they can stay. I just need… I don't know. I just need you," his voice broke at the end. "Please?" 

"Door or window?" I asked and he answered before hanging up. 

"Not one fucking word from any of you!" I glared at them but they only looked curious and relieved that I wasn't actually kicking them out after all. 

I opened the balcony window and in less than a moment, there was Deku. "Kacchan I-," but he couldn't finish and just started crying, collapsing in my arms. The way he caved so completely left me speechless. What the hell happened for him to break like this? 

"Lock the fucking door," I hissed at Soy Sauce Face who jumped and did just that. I just stood there and held him for a long time but when I decided that he needed more than just a hug. I picked him up with him barely squeaking in surprise and carried him to my bed. I sat with my back to the wall and with Deku in my lap facing me, once he was comfortable I just leaned back and waited. Minutes, hours, I don't know how long it took. Only that he had finally fallen asleep. 

"Dumb Deku, you shouldn't tear yourself up like that," I grumbled but let him sleep anyway. I could see the looks on my idiots faces, none of them knew what to do or what to say. Hell Dunce Face looked like he was about to meet his maker and if he does anything too stupid I can arrange just that. While Shitty Hair looked absolutely heart broken. 

"So umm," Shitty Hair looked like he was about to pass out from shock but I just waited, lifting an eyebrow when he froze up. "You really don't hate Midobro?" 

I rolled my eyes and clicked my tongue, if it wasn't for the fact that I would have woken Deku up I would have asked him what the fuck that meant but I already know that I'm loud and I would have woken him up for sure. Dumbass, all of them actually, how many times do I need to tell them that; no. I don't hate Deku, for them to get it through their thick skulls? 

It was almost time for curfew when I decided I needed to wake the cute murder bunny up. "Oi, Izu," I gently shook him and I swear you would think I shot someone from the looks on my squad's faces. "It's almost curfew," I whispered, ignoring them.

"I don't want to go," he whined, holding me tight in his half-sleep state. 

"You can come back after the Caterpillar leaves," I groaned as if he were twisting my arm. 

"Really?" He peeked up at me with his red rimmed eyes and I had to swallow my rage at the sight. Oh a bitch is going to die, the only question was; who was it? 

"Yeah, you want to talk about it now or later? At all?" I asked and waited when he didn't outright refuse. 

"You know how Iida thought that heroes couldn't be gay?" He asked and I nodded slowly repeating that heroes don't murder, like a mantra in my head. "Well turns out he doesn't think he can be friends with someone who is gay because he thinks it's contagious now. We had a fight about that and I really wanted to call Aizawa Sensei but then he said that gay people were just dirty and I just couldn't talk to him after that," he snuggled into my shoulder and I hugged him while trying to calm him down. I pulled out my phone. 

Fucking bastard! 

Dynamight: @Eraserhead 

For once my idiots didn't flood the GC with stupid bullshit and I'm pretty sure that they are very afraid. Deku had his face hidden in my neck again so he couldn't see the sheer amount of rage I was feeling and I was trying really fucking hard but to disturb him. He didn't even reach for his phone when it vibrated from the class chat. Does he even have his phone on him? 

Eraserhead: Bakugo? 

Dynamight: I thought you educated fucking Glasses? What the fuck happened? 

Ingenium: Bakugo! I have a name and you shouldn't address our teacher in such a manner! 

Dynamight: Shut the fuck up right now you homophobic asshole! I'm not talking to your constipated ass! 

Eraserhead: Bakugo, calmly tell me what happened. 

Dynamight: Turns out the homophobe thinks being gay is contagious. 

Eraserhead: ... 

Eraserhead: Iida? 

Ingenium: That is correct but why are you bringing this up now? 

Eraserhead: I'm going to strangle- 

Nezu: Young Iida I have already called your family here for an emergency meeting. Please get dressed and come to my office. 

Nezu: Aizawa, after you have composed yourself please come as well. 

Nezu: Young Bakugo, is there a reason you have become privy to this information? 

Dynamight: I'm gay. I make it my business to know who I'm safe around and who I can and can't trust. 

Nezu: I see and judging from the lack of responses from your classmates should I take it that they either already knew or didn't know that information? 

Dynamight: Why would they need to know?

Nezu: I see your point. I apologize if I've made you uncomfortable. 

Dynamight: So is Glasses getting educated this time? I'm getting tired and I'm not staying up for all this shit. 

Nezu: I understand. You will not be harassed further. 

Ingenium: But I didn't say any of that to Bakugo or say anything rude! I only stated the truth. 

Dynamight: I'm about to show you what fucking truth looks like homophobic bastard. 

Nezu: Then to whom did you say these incredibly rude, outrageous, slanderous things to? 

Ingenium: Slander? 

Ingenium: I was talking to Midoriya and he kept getting mad for some reason. 

Dynamight: Like I said I'm gay. Of course you pissed him off. 

Ingenium: Why would something that applies to you affect Midoriya? 

Dynamight: You're fucking joking right?

Ingenium: I realized the moment I sent that. 

Dynamight: So you admit you're a piece of shit homophobic dumbass? 

Ingenium: Language! We even have teachers reading this! 

Dynamight: And? I tagged Sensei for a fucking reason. 

Ingenium: Why do I keep expecting you to be a decent person? 

Dynamight: I am. You're just too homophobic to realize it. 

Nezu: Okay then. Young Iida, your family is here, where are you? 

Ingenium: I am-

Nezu: Nevermind you're here. Young Bakugo if anything comes up I may need you and Young Midoriya to write a statement so be prepared if the need arises. 

Dynamight: Deku is pretty fucking mad right now. I'll tell him when he calms down. 

All Might: ? 

Dynamight: I'll tell you later. It's something from before we came to UA. 😒

I would have thought that was the end of it. I almost put my phone away but then a message caught my eye that made me grin. 

Shoto: I'll have a statement ready. I'm writing it now. I'm not straight either and he wouldn't shut up no matter how many times I asked him too. Midoriya was only trying to help me because he already knew. 

Nezu: I understand. Then boys if you wouldn't mind having those statements ready and I must ask for professional reasons only but are either of you involved with anyone? 

Nezu: I do not need names. 

Shoto: Involved? 

Dynamight: He wants to know if we are dating anyone. No, not yet for me. 

Shoto: Oh. Then no I'm not in a relationship. 

Nezu: Thank you and please understand that no you are not barred from dating anyone anymore or less than any other couple regardless of orientation. 

Shoto: Are they barred? 

Dynamight: No. That's what he is trying to tell us. 

Nezu: Thank you Young Bakugo. Now I have a meeting to attend to. 

Eraserhead: Bakugo you and I are going to have a chat tomorrow. 

Dynamight: About what? 

Eraserhead: Those that are a part of the pride community need to take an extra class to prepare them for the bigotry that comes from working with the public. 

Dynamight: Did you know I was gay before I said I was? 

Eraserhead: No. 

Dynamight: Exactly. Shove your class up the homophobic bastard's ass. 

Eraserhead: Oh he has his own extra classes to deal with. A great many of them. 

Nezu: *Sigh* A day where one of my staff doesn't curse at least one of their students will probably never happen. 

Eraserhead: Nope never. 

Nezu: Could you at least pretend to be apologetic? 

Eraserhead: Nope never. 

Nezu: You still have to come to this meeting. 

Eraserhead: Damn it. 

Dynamight: I'll punch the fucker if he comes at me with his bigoted bullshit. I'm warning you now. Same with the Grapist. 

Grape Juice: Hey! I have never- 

Dynamight: What the fuck? Huh? You've never what exactly? 

Dynamight: Never touched one of the girls or guys without permission? I don't remember Ponytail saying you could use your quirk to hang off of her. Ever. 

Dynamight: Never tried to peek inside of the girl's locker room? Why did I set an explosion off in your face last week you perverted fuck? 

Dynamight: It's not like you've ever shown respect or care for your fellow classmates in your fucking twisted bullshit excuse you call a life you waste of fucking air and resources. 

Dynamight: And if you EVER start gropping me or otherwise harassing me or any other gay man I swear to fucking All Might that I will end the pathetic existence that fucking dared. 

Dynamight: Do I make myself completely understood, you worthless sack of shit? 

Red Riot: Bro. I know you turned me down and I don't want to make you uncomfortable but that has to be the manliest thing I have ever witnessed in my life. 

Shoto: 🏳️‍🌈 

Shoto: Am I using this right? 

Dynamight: Yes. 

Red Riot: Yes! You so are! 🏳️‍🌈

Froppy: 🏳️‍🌈 Count me in *Kero* 

Uravity: Bakugo, I can't believe I'm saying this but can I hug you? I've never felt so validated in my life. 😭

Dynamight: No. I'm not any different from any other fucking day. 

Creaty: If memory serves you are a fan of a particular someone too correct? 

Dynamight: Ponytail what are you up to? 

Creaty: I'll take that as a yes. I'll stop by your room before you go to bed. 

Dynamight: It's 7:52

Creaty: I'm on my way. 💖🏳️‍🌈

Ear Jack: So you're not always an ass. 

Dynamight: Who the fuck says that? I am who I am. Period. 

Ear Jack: 🫠 

Dynamight: What? Got something to say? 

Ear Jack: Thank you. 🏳️‍🌈

Dynamight: … You're welcome? 

Red Riot: Bro! Does this mean our class is a safe place? Really? 

Dynamight: I wouldn't have said shit if it weren't. Except for the two fuckers I called out of course. 

Red Riot: So manly. 💪🏻

Dynamight: I'm getting off here. You're all starting to weird me the fuck out. 

Nezu: I see the numbers growing Shota…

Eraserhead: I can see that! 

Eraserhead: Everyone is required to attend classes one hour early tomorrow for an extra class on professionalism. 

Eraserhead: Mineta this should go without saying but if you get so much as one more harassment charge you will be expelled. I personally don't even want to give you this chance. Do I make myself clear? 

Grape Juice: … Yes sir. 

Eraserhead: That includes the guys. 

Grape Juice: Oh come on! I've never- 

Dynamight: Do you want to finish that sentence? 👿 

Grape Juice: I understand sir. 

Red Riot: Bro? 

Grape Juice: What guy walks like he does? He was swishing his ass while walking into the kitchen while I tried to hide under the table but I didn't know it was BAKUGO! 

Dynamight: I will unalive you. Forget dying. I'll make sure you were never born. 

Eraserhead: It's not a crime if he was never born… 

Grape Juice: Sensei! I said I was sorry!?!?! 

Dynamight: And I said I would end you. Are we doing this? 

Grape Juice: I will be a monk. 

Dynamight: You can either live like one or I can make you one. Pick. 

Grape Juice: 😱 

Dynamight: I'm going to bed leave me the fuck alone. 

I logged off my phone and simply took Deku's phone from him. I found it in a loose pocket. He can look tomorrow. Tonight he needs to sleep. Ponytail arrived, my idiots left, Shitty Hair in tears about how manly I am and let her in for me since I was trapped under the sleeping Deku. 

I did remember to send a message directly to our teacher about how Deku had fallen asleep crying in my room and to just leave him here. 

Eraserhead: I thought you said you were not in a relationship? 

Dynamight: And? What's your point? 

Eraserhead: Are you and Midoriya dating? 

Dynamight: Not yet. Won't be at any point soon either. Homophobic asshole put a fucking creator in my plans. 

Eraserhead: … 

Eraserhead: Swear to me there will be no funny business. On your future as a pro hero. 

Dynamight: What the fuck? 

Dynamight: Nevermind I figured it out. If it was anyone else in the class I wouldn't believe them either. Hold on. 

I quickly took a picture of Deku, his eyes red and swollen and the fact that he was fully clothed already sleeping in my room so he could see what I was working with. The fact that the tears had dried on his face and there were obvious smears from when he tried to wipe them away was also noticeable. 

Dynamight: You have some kind of skeleton key for the dorms right? 

Eraserhead: … Maybe. 

Dynamight: I won't lock the bolt at the top of my door. You can let yourself in to check if you feel a need to. Just lock it when you leave. 

Eraserhead: Bolt lock aside. You are taking this all fairly well. All things considered. Mic is still being held back by Cementose at something completely idiotic one of the Iida's said during the meeting. 

Dynamight: Is All Might with you? 

Eraserhead: Yes, why? 

Dynamight: I'm about to send him that same picture. 

Eraserhead: … Do it. 

Dynamight: Glad we are on the same page. I'm going to sleep now. 

Dynamight: Oi! Deku isn't ready to come out yet so keep your shit to yourself! 

Eraserhead: I knew it. Fine. 

Dynamight: 🙄 Like you didn't already know? 

I sent the picture along with a snapshot of some of what I sent to Eraserhead and turned my phone off. Changing my alarms before putting it down. 

"You look oddly happy," Ponytail pointed out when I turned my focus back to her. 

"Oh I have a feeling that the Glasses family is about to get some very bad news," I smiled and then thought what the fuck and showed her my phone. Her eyes went wide. 

"You know Midoriya is his favorite student," she said slowly and I shrugged still grinning. 

"The fuckers deserve what they are about to get. What you don't know is that Deku and I met All Might a year before UA. When he started mentoring the Nerd. Glasses fucked up," I popped my fingers but managed to suppress the need to set off an explosion thanks to Deku still being out for the count. 

"I did not know that," I saw her swallow but pretended not to notice. 

"The man is the closest thing to a father figure to him since we started fighting years ago. Before that it was my dad and I don't think All Might has realized just what that means yet. But I have a feeling he will soon enough," I ran a hand through his hair but he was so exhausted that he was still out. "And that won't stop me from putting him in his place if he oversteps it either," I glared at her, making sure the message was clear. 

I don't think even Dunce Face would have missed the fact that Deku was in love with me. It is the fact that I am willing to let him even if I haven't yet. I saw the look on his face when he left with the others, it was very different from Shitty Hair, who looked like I cut his heart out of him, probably assuming that we were already together. No, Ponytail seemed to understand clearly that even though we were not together it wasn't from the lack of want on either side but she also understands that we are still holding back. Which means that I will cut a bitch, or in this case a bastard family. 

"Oh before I forget, here. I was going to make one for Midoriya tomorrow but since he is here anyway," she handed me a one of a kind but soon two of a kind All Might keychain that said I Am Here for Pride. A bit on the nose but I like it. I put Deku's on his phone as a charm and mine, well I was going to put it on my personal bag but Ponytail decided to help me and put it on my phone to match Deku's. I just stared for a moment before shaking the thought from my head. Deku wouldn't make a big deal- He totally would. He would make a huge deal out of not only the keychain charm but the fact that we had matching ones and that they were in the same place. Oh my All Might, he is going to be beyond happy. He is going to fucking ascend reality. 

"Goodnight Bakugo and thank you. I am going to go ask Jiro out now," she winked at me while I grumbled about it being about fucking time and she giggled as she locked the door and left. Finally some fucking peace! 

*** 

I barely woke up to Aizawa Sensei entering my room to check on us. To be extra safe I had put a pillow between us to help prevent things from getting awkward in the morning, so the fact that I had managed to wrestle Deku under the covers was a work out all on its own but I couldn't leave him in the cold. I was under the sheet but thanks to my quirk I had the blanket folded back, thanks to Deku being with me I was a little hot as it was and I didn't need to wake up to stray explosions. 

I vaguely remember reminding him to lock the door but Deku had whined in my ear and pulled me closer again. He really is a snuggly murder bunny, I fell back asleep. 

*** 

The extra class was mandatory for everyone except Glasses who had several additional classes thanks to him coming from such a homophobic family but good news for him. Even his paralyzed brother was forced to come to the classes along with the rest of his family. Something about cover-ups being exposed. The Grapist on the other hand was basically isolated thanks to the chat last night and somehow even the classmates that didn't say a fucking word last night made it a point to chat with me. 

Mr. Diabetes said he was going to try out a spice cake recipe tonight and asked if there was a particular flavor I would like. He was surprised to hear that carrot cake was my favorite but then went on a whole spew about how they make the best spice cakes and now I'm pretty interested in it. He said it actually comes out spicy and not too sweet. 

There was one that was particularly quiet and seemed to be upset, what the fuck was his name? The fucker with the shadow, bird brain, he kept looking at the frog and after forever of his moping I finally had enough. "She is bi," I grumbled next to him, making him jump. He looked back at the frog and at me again and I just nodded. I couldn't stand how mopy he was and he never causes me trouble so fuck it. Just fuck it. 

"Kacchan, are you sure we're supposed to be here this early?" Deku yawned and if it weren't for the fact that he has had his eyes closed for most of the trip to class it wouldn't make sense but as it is he was barely awake and only because I all but dragged him to class. 

"Yes, can't you see that everyone is here?" I grumbled but once we were close to our seats I pulled my arm away from him but he only put his head down on his desk and promptly fell asleep. Well fuck that too, I got him here and that isn't even my job so whatever. I could see several nervous students, the fact that they came out of the closet yesterday only seemed to be making itself known to them now and those that didn't were either quiet and using this time to doze or were extra fucking peppy because they didn't feel alone anymore even though they didn't say shit. Fucking Raccoon Eyes was over the moon while Soy Sauce Face just chuckled at her excitement. He is straight as a fucking arrow but Raccoon Eyes on the other hand? Well from the looks of it she was very much open to other people of both genders, she just kept Soy Sauce Face close the whole time. Maybe she is poly? But I guess it doesn't matter so long as Soy Sauce Face was okay with it. 

Midnight finally came in with Present Mic and Deku and the other students that were dozing were all rudely woken up thanks to the blond hero. Does he just not have a chill button? The class started and we were given not only a basic sex education class but the public relations classes needed for us to keep from beating the shit out of stupid ass reporters that said bullshit. 

We were given a test and told that we would be required to take the class once a semester to help us with our futures in heroics. Surprisingly enough Midnight was pretty quiet after the sex ed part while Present Mic was basking in the limelight. 

Eventually Sensei and Glasses arrived and regular class started but it was pretty obvious that everyone was avoiding the bastard, even the straight students. 

"What did I do?" I heard him ask Deku but Deku just huffed in frustration and walked away. Icyhot and Round Face with him while no one else seemed willing to talk to him. It wasn't until the Grapist ended up next to him that anyone said anything to him. 

"Most of our class are a part of the pride community and you basically said they were sick when you said it was contagious. What did you expect?" It was odd seeing him look up like that to talk to Glasses but still, I listened. I want to know what this bastard has up his sleeve before it's too late. 

"I read the class chat after the meeting last night. I never knew that Bakugo was so sensitive to others. It made a lot of what he said in the past make sense now," Glasses walked slowly from class. I don't know why people think I would make a terrible undercover hero. It's really fucking easy to go by unnoticed by almost everyone, well everyone but Deku but he already left. 

"Did you really think being gay was contagious?" The Grapist asked and I narrowed my eyes but stayed silent. 

"It's just that I was taught that if you find one you'll find several. I never would have thought that our whole class felt that way," Glasses sighed. 

"It never occurred to you that they were hiding from hate and only came out when they felt safe?" The Grapist asked and I'm starting to get an uncomfortable feeling that he is about to admit that he is bi. I mean I already knew but that isn't the problem. 

"We are heroes in training, we should feel safe with other heroes," Glasses stated as if it were a fact but I'm sick of this shit. 

"Should and do are two very different things Glasses. Endeavor is the current number one hero and yet Icyhot spent most of his life hiding from the bastard. Begging for mercy, does that sound like a hero to you? Does it sound safe?" I interrupted them and they spun around as if they really had no idea anyone else could have been listening in. 

"Bakugo, no wait, I apolo-" 

"Don't give me a half ass apology that you don't even understand," I glared at him, interrupting him in the process. 

"Then, could you explain why I was wrong? I truly wish to understand," he asked, his back straight and it's because of bastards like this that I hate people in general. Truly clueless. 

"With your logic being straight is a disease. Every time someone comes out as gay or some other orientation there is always one straight person that is ready to attack them. Ready to cut them down without so much as a thought as to why they think the way they do. How many villains are there that masquerade as civilians because their only "crime" is how they want to see others fail?" I glared at him and he looked shocked. 

"I don't understand. How would others failing help anyone?" He asked but the look on his face was different from before. He is actually analyzing what I said and trying to place it, trying to see it around us. 

"How does it matter to a straight person if the person next to them is gay? How does it affect your life whatsoever? Am I like the pervert here and go around harassing men just because I can? Do I use my quirk to force them to submit to me?" I shot back at him and he looked back and forth between the pervert and me. 

"Hey, that's not fair! I've never forced-," 

"Bullshit! The only reason you're still in our class is because you used your quirk to hang off of Ponytail and she had to run while carrying your ass!" I snapped at him. 

"But I've never tried to force someone to, to, to," he stuttered, he isn't willing to say the word rape or even imply it but quite frankly that's what it is, or at the very least it's what it's leading up to. 

"For someone that's always forcing people, mostly women, to do shit you can't bring yourself to say it. Disgusting fuck," I couldn't help the way my face showed my disgust at the fucker but as much as he was denying it I also saw him panicking in his own head. Maybe he'll actually become a decent person from this but I highly fucking doubt it. 

"Tell me this IIDA," I over pronounce his name catching his attention at the fact that I not only knew his name but I could use it too. "What would you do if you found out that the people angry at you aren't even all gay but simply a friend of someone who is? Or would that be worse for you? What if I finally caved and asked someone out even though I know I don't deserve him? Would me being happy really hurt or affect you in any way at all?" 

"Yes, it would affect me. Because as hard as it is to believe I want all of us to be happy. Even you Bakugo," he said with such conviction that I actually paused and chuckled for a minute which seemed to confuse him more than my anger. 

"Welcome to the rainbow. Believe it or not that's all you need to be an advocate for Pride," I smirked at him and patted his shoulder before walking past him and back towards the dorms. 

"What?" Glasses hesitated but then I heard him suck in a breath, looks like he figured it out. I felt my phone vibrate and pulled it out to see a message from Aizawa Sensei. 

Eraserhead: Good job. 

I looked at it confused before looking up and seeing him a short distance from Glasses and the Grapist and rolled my eyes and turned to keep walking away. 

*** 

"Kacchan? Could we talk? Somewhere private?" I looked up to see Deku nervously fidgeting with his fingers and Ponytail walking up from behind him with a bright smile. 

"Midoriya! Bakugo! I was trying out different things I could do with my quirk and I was wanting your help! I can make things but those things can have writing on them!" She was really excited for someone that was already perfectly aware of that function of her quirk. I mean the things she makes aren't black and white or even plain gray. They usually have colors and designs on them so how would that be any different from writing? Besides the charm she gave Deku and I literally had I Am Here for Pride written on it in bold colorful letters. 

So why is she interrupting Deku's request? 

"Umm," Deku hesitated not wanting to upset the girl but also not wanting to put off whatever it is that he wanted to say to me, so I jumped in. 

"Oi Ponytail, we have something to do. Let it wait until after dinner," I clicked my tongue annoyed but she didn't get upset and instead agreed as if that was what she meant from the beginning. I stood up and motioned for Deku to follow me to my room. The look of relief on his face was a little concerning but in the next moment he was holding my hand. 

Over the last couple weeks since the incident with Glasses he has slowly become more and more open with his displays of affection. At first our friends had hounded him nonstop, asking if he were gay too but by the end of it they just gave up and the few that were dense as fucking sin just figured it was because I was being more gentle and he wanted our childhood friendship back, otherwise they all pretty much knew that we were in deep for each other and none of them could figure out why we weren't dating at least in secret. And they all believed the fact that we weren't dating because Deku would get all sad and depressed when the topic came up leaving no one brave enough to argue or ask why. 

I walked into my room and I locked it behind Deku before sitting on my bed to wait. Deku took his time sitting at the desk instead of next to me, getting my attention further but he faced me while deep in thought, as if he couldn't figure out how to say what he wanted to say. 

"Kacchan, I-," he cut himself off again just to cover his face and rub at it as if he were stressed. Holy fuck, what the hell did he need to say so badly? 

After five whole minutes of him muttering to himself I let out a sigh and just stood up, he didn't notice far too engrossed in his own thoughts until I picked him up and he squealed in surprise. I ignored it though and brought him to my bed and laid him down before laying next to him. He tried to argue to resist but I just pulled him against me and in a second he wasn't trying to get away anymore but he was holding me tight instead. I could feel tears against my chest but I pretended not to. I don't know what is going on but I do know that something upset him. Pretty fucking bad too. 

I let him cry and rubbed his back until he finally settled down but he stayed silent for a long while. 

"How did you know I needed to cry?" He asked after an even longer amount of time passed. 

"Your eyes were red but dry, told me that you needed to cry but hadn't yet," I answered honestly and he nodded. The silence dragged on longer before he asked another question. 

"Do you know why?" His voice sounded bitter and raw, as if he were about to start crying again. 

"I'm not a mind reader so no but I'll be here for you anyway," I answered while playing with his hair, the dark green of his curls only seemed darker because of my pale skin. 

"What if I don't just want you to be here? What if I want more?" Now he sounds angry but I couldn't help smiling at the thought anyway. 

"Then I would give you more," I felt him flinch against me, obviously not expecting that kind of answer. I smiled more, "Do you want more?" The teasing tone in my voice seemed to relax him but he looked up smirking. 

"Let me wash my face first," he smiled and I let him go and he ran to the bathroom, it was only a few minutes but when he came out again he looked fresh and his eyes bright. Much better. 

I opened my arms for him, inviting him and he dived into them. "Now where were we?" I teased him a little more just to hear his giggles. 

We laid like that for far too fucking long to not be lovers already but I sure as fuck wouldn't have stopped at just hugs if we were more. 

"Kacchan? I've been good haven't I?" He looked up shyly and damn there goes my heart. 

"Hmm, very good," I agreed, playing with his hair. The way his eyes sparkled when he looked up at me could have blinded me when he smiled at my answer. 

"Good enough for us?" He asked and I paused trying to make sense of his question. 

Ah, I understand now. 

"Deku, it was never a question of if you were good enough. I just needed you to take care of yourself," I answered slowly and his eyes drooped again. 

"Is that a no then?" He asked and I can already see him fighting tears. 

"No, that's not a no. You haven't gotten hurt once since then and you've been sleeping like you should and even if you weren't I don't know how much longer I could stay away anyway," I answered a little too quickly but I hate to see him cry. His eyes were looking up, studying me with undisguised excitement. 

"Does that mean I can kiss you now?" He asked in an almost whisper, making me laugh. 

"Oh Deku, you could have kissed me that first day and I would have let you," I teased him, rubbing the tip of my nose against his. "It took everything I had to push you away. I wouldn't have been able to do it a second time." 

He smiled at me before hiding his face on my chest, embarrassed. "Damn it, I could have been kissing you this whole time!" He whined and we both started laughing. He did crawl up a little so he was closer to my face though and I saw him looking at my mouth while biting at his lips. 

"Do I have permission?" I asked while freeing his lip from his teeth with my thumb. I'm about to do what I've been dreaming about for what feels like forever and he just looks so fucking cute with his big eyes and slightly parted lips drawing me in. 

He hummed instead of answered and leaned forward to let our lips meet. It was light and mostly awkward. He wasn't quite close enough so he barely reached but still, it was our first kiss. 

I leaned down and he came forward again and this time we really kissed. The feel of his lips against mine was nice and when he licked out and I opened for him, our tongues meeting in the middle while we pressed against each other until we needed air and separated, panting. 

"Wow," he whispered, his smile beaming at me. 

"Hell of a first kiss," I answered and we both laughed a little. Fuck, now what do we do? Can I kiss him again? Should I? 

"How about the movies? There is a new romantic comedy playing that is themed around a friend of All Might's," he whispered as if he could hear my thoughts. 

"When?" I asked, ignoring the nagging feeling in the back of my mind. 

He looked at his watch and grinned, "Two hours from now." Wait… he already had a movie picked out and a time, did he pretend to be mad enough to cry in order to get me in here like this?

"Evil genius," I teased him and he giggled cutely knowing that I wouldn't hold it against him. "Yes." 

*** 

Kacchan!" I looked up smiling, Deku was running into the dorms and saw me sitting on the couch. He had been training with All Might but today was just One-For-All stuff so I was left behind. 

He jumped into my lap, tackling me in a hug and the couch flipped over, he had used what I guessed was 1 or 2% of OFA and we were left laughing on the floor. 

"Nerd, again?" I pretended to grumble and he just giggled while acting cute. He likes to feel spoiled and I can't help doing just that. I ruffled his hair and kissed his forehead before pushing him off of me and we fixed the couch. Deku easily and comfortably climbs into my lap when I sat back down again. 

The rest of our class has gotten pretty used to our rough house flirting, I don't really know what else to call it. If it wasn't for our quirks it would probably just be cute and maybe a bit sappy but Deku isn't the only one who accidentally used his quirk at the sight of him. Damn sweat glands, why are sweaty palms a thing for teenagers dating? Huh? I have had to go to see Recovery Girl for no other reason than I was thinking of Deku, last time I almost burned my face. 

"Please tell me the love birds haven't broken anything? At least not themselves or each other?" Aizawa Sensei walked in sighing and I glared at him while Deku smiled nervously but he didn't get off of me. This is after school hours, I'll be damned if he ruins our time together and besides it's not like it's against school rules to date and we aren't having sex or anything. 

Yet. 

We've only been dating for a couple months now and it will be time to graduate soon and I know it's been on my mind even if it hasn't been on his. Deku has spent the night with me a couple times since we started going out but it was just to cuddle and flirt mostly. Aizawa Sensei was less than happy when he found out but just like I told him that day; everytime he has stayed over the top bolt has been unlocked and he has come to check on us a few times through the night. The first time he was really pissy about it until he found out that both of our parents approved of our relationship, now it's just a don't do it under my roof kind of thing. 

He doesn't ask about our relationship now. Now he is almost as bad as our classmates with the teasing. 

"Nothing's broken," I grumbled some colorful insults about his lack of professionalism but he just chuckled before clearing his throat. 

"As you all know, graduation is in just a few short weeks and as I'm sure most of you will pass your actual licence exam just fine there are a few of you that leave me questioning what you've been doing the last three years," he pretended not to hear me. 

"Hey! I resent that!" Dunce Face nearly shouted. 

"Stop being a moron and you wouldn't know he was talking about you, dumbass," I yelled back at him and Deku just cuddled into my neck as if I had just comforted him. The fact that me yelling calms him down so much should be a matter of concern. I know this but at the same time it's so fucking cute I can't help giving him a slight squeeze in response. For the love of all that is holy, please don't let this be the start of a toxic relationship! I'm not yelling at him or anything, it's just my voice I swear! 

I hope. 

"Come on man, not all of us are lucky enough to be dating a smart guy and your both basically geniuses at this point," he grumbled and I rolled my eyes. 

"You're the one that hasn't asked Eyebags out yet. Grow a backbone already," I yelled back at him and I felt something on my cheek that made me blush. Cuddles and hugs aside, we don't usually kiss in front of other people, and he just kissed my cheek. 

"Kacchan give Kami a break, they are both still in denial," he giggled before wrapping his arms around me and hugging into my chest. 

"Good to know you're both still virgins, otherwise neither of you would be so red from a kiss on the cheek," Aizawa Sensei sighed as if he were relieved and I started screaming at him to just roll over in a ditch already. 

"Will you shut the fuck up already!?!" I snapped, I didn't need to look at Deku to know he was red faced, mostly because his face was pressed against my skin and it felt hot enough to burn. 

"You have to be kidding me! There is no way with how sappy they are most of the time! I mean it was like night and day the way they changed overnight," Dunce Face burst out and I turned my glare to him. 

"That's when we started dating you fucking dumbass! We weren't before then," I defended us but too late I realized how badly that sounded. 

"Dude, wait, you weren't dating before? But we saw Midoriya cry himself to sleep in your arms the day Iida said being gay was contagious!" Soy Sauce Face yelled and I wanted to snap all of their necks. 

"I also remember saying that I wasn't dating anyone then. Do you fuckers think I'm a liar still?" If it weren't for Deku being in my lap I probably would have attacked one of them by now and I'm pretty sure they all know it. 

"You clearly hated him though!" That's it! I'm done. I put Deku down next to me on the couch before attacking Shitty Hair for being the dumbass that he is. 

"How many fucking times do I have to say something? Huh?" But of course he was using his quirk to protect himself from my explosions and several of our classmates were laughing while Aizawa Sensei pretended not to know what was going on. 

"Do you really think that if I hated him that I would turn around and date him? Are you fucked in the head?" I demanded but again I could hear our friends laughing as if I were putting on a show but it was when I heard Deku's giggles that I paused and turned. He was watching me with smiling eyes while trying to contain his giggles but that only made me smirk and go after Shitty Hair even more. 

"Midoriya stop, we can't have Bakugo killing Kirishima," Aizawa Sensei groaned. 

"But I'm not the only one laughing though!" He tried to defend himself but our teacher just pointed out that I was trying to make him laugh and well yeah. So what? I ended up returning to Deku's side while glaring at our teacher before whispering in my lover's ear. 

"Ignore the fucking Caterpillar, your giggles are adorable and the only thing keeping me from murdering the extras some days," I turned my focus to my very upset boyfriend. Why does our teacher have to make things harder than they need to be? Huh? I mean really, Deku almost never gets to just act cute anymore, always playing the strong hero all day everyday. So when we are in the dorms, this should be our safe space, the place where we can just relax and study. Hell when we go out we have to stay on guard most of the time and I hate it. Forget the LOV, the public is a nightmare. My favorite dates are either when no one can see us like the movies or when we go hiking or something else when no one else is around. 

I patted my lap and Deku grinned before hopping into it and cuddling in my arms. I took a deep breath and relaxed, just letting myself calm down and settle from all the excitement. It's probably not the best considering my quirk requires high stress or my heart could stop but if Deku ever left me I'm pretty sure my heart would stop beating altogether. 

My hands sparked from the tiny explosions they set off just from me calming down and once they fizzled out Deku played with my fingers as if my hands had never hit him before. It's times like these that I can't help but love him. 

"If you two are done flirting?" Aizawa Sensei cleared his throat but I just looked up while setting my head on Deku's shoulder. My heart rate is already down and I feel sleepy, it will only get worse the longer I'm calm and the fact that Deku was playing with my fingers just felt heavenly so that was only helping to calm me more. 

"What is wrong with him?" Aizawa Sensei asked instead of actually getting on with his announcement. 

"Oh he is letting himself relax. His quirk is a mood stabilizer and it's used to stabilize the heart, mostly to slow down a person's heart rate so when he is awake he needs to keep his body in an agitated state or his heart could stop. We were going to lay down for a short nap and stargaze a little tonight so he had already started the process of going to bed and as much fun as he was having while chasing-," Deku rambled on until his voice slowly lowered into his familiar muttering and I could feel my eyelids drooping. Looks like I used up most of my energy chasing Shitty Hair around but whatever. Deku was going to hold me during our nap anyway. 

I closed my eyes but continued to listen to my sweet lover. I let out a yawn and hugged him but his voice didn't stop and I didn't want it to. My sweet boyfriend really was the best, whenever I slept with him in my arms I just didn't have nightmares. 

"Kacchan I'm going to carry you to bed now," I heard him whisper and I grumbled in answer but it was getting harder to focus. I mean sleep was easily taking hold of me and it's only now that I realized that this is probably the first time our classmates have seen me falling asleep. I wonder if they're scared? The extras in middle school would be terrified. 

"Dude it's like watching a movie in fast forward. Did you see how fast he was falling asleep? And it's not a light nap either, he is out," Soy Sauce Face whistled. 

I would tell at them to shut the fuck up but between Deku's gentle swaying while carrying me to the sound of his heartbeat against my ear I really don't care right now. 

***

"Kacchan, the meteor shower is going to start without us," Deku whined playfully while shaking me awake. I grin at the thought of it actually waiting on us but when I heard Deku huff I quickly grabbed him and flipped him over so I was on top of him. 

"Good morning beautiful," I whispered only for him to giggle and I started leaving ticklish kisses from his collar bone up to his chin, which made him mad when he realized I wasn't going to keep going to his mouth. 

"So mean~," he whined before giggling cutely. I had let my fingers tickle his sides until he gave in and only then did I kiss his tempting mouth. 

"Let's go watch a meteor shower," I smiled and we quickly got dressed and grabbed the blanket. 

Thankfully we were just going to the rooftop anyway so it's not like we had far too go. I grabbed a blanket anyway and the basket but Deku was chatting away far too excited to see the meteor shower to notice that I was carrying things. When he opened the door to the roof he ran out excited and sure enough there were already stars shooting across the night sky. I carefully spread out the blanket and when I looked up Deku was back with me he was gushing about me being a romantic. 

"Yeah, yeah," I chuckled at his overly sweet giggles and pulled him against me so we were pressed against each other while we looked up at the stars.

"I love the stars," he breathed the words almost afraid that if he were too loud then the scene would shatter, or at least that's how it seems. 

"Yeah, they remind me of you," I smirked at the thought, giving him a light squeeze that he giggled at. 

"Kacchan?" He asked, hesitating for only God knows what. I hummed to let him know I was listening though. It's times like these that he usually gets all cute and I love it. "Do you think that we'll make it? I mean I know that we are competing for number one still but do you think it would tear us apart?" 

"Never," I answered without hesitating at all. I felt the way he jerked to turn towards me but I just held him in my arms. "It's what finally brought us together. Even when we get the most frustrated I plan to just kiss you," I smirked before turning to meet his dark eyes. The way the stars reflected in them were doing things to my heart that I could never describe. "I love you." 

He didn't say anything. Not a word, instead he pushed me back and kissed me. It was the type of kiss that had my heart fluttering but my arms only wrapped around my cute murder bunny, holding him close. His tongue slid across my lips asking for entrance but I didn't wait to meet him. 

"I kind of wish we went to your house instead now," Deku pouted while pulling away, making me raise an eyebrow in confusion. "I wouldn't have to stop now if we weren't at school," he whispered with just a trace of a giggle in his voice. Goosebumps rose instantly on my arms at what he was implying but one of us needs to keep a cool head. Don't we? 

"Fuck it, I would have let you," I groaned, aggravated to hell and back. I guess I'll just have to tuck my v card back in for a little while longer. For now. 

He tilted my head up and smirked at me, his playfulness on full display before he pulled me by my chin and kissed me again. "I'll remember that," he promised. It wasn't until dawn that our sweet kisses ended and only so we could watch the few streaks of light fly across the lightening sky above us. When the skyline was turning pink letting us know that we really did spend most of the night making out under the stars, we finally got up, the snacks I brought were a nice touch, the playful way he fed me grapes and raspberries will probably always make me smile now. 

We went back inside, Deku giggling about how my face apparently matched the pink of the sky by the time he was done teasing me, would have made me bright red if not for the fact that he is just beautiful when he giggles. Oh course he is beautiful when he smiles, or laughs but when he is pissed he is hot as hell, and when he is crying it breaks my heart. 

"I feel a need," we nearly jumped out of our skin when Aizawa Sensei seemed to appear out of thin air behind us but he ignored it. "to inform you of the fact that there are cameras on the roof." I could see his face was a bit red and I don't really understand why. I mean we only kissed and tickled each other a little, it should have been harmless. 

"With audio," oh. OH! 

"What the fuck? Couldn't you entertain yourself without being a creepy peeping Tom?" I snapped at him. As innocent as what we actually did was, well what was said was not so innocent. Particularly the fact that we all but said that we were willing to give each other our first. That was really fucking personal and why, just why can't they at least pretend not to know? I mean we also said we wouldn't do it here and that should be all that matters to them but noooo. Noisy ass teachers. 

"I'm only telling you this because Midnight and Present Mic are now in love with your love story and Nezu seems to be… Just as much," he avoided eye contact and fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. "I did however delete the footage so they couldn't watch it again later. After all, you didn't actually do anything wrong." He added before walking away. Double fuck. 

"Kacchan?" I turned to see Deku near tears. "Does this mean I can't sleep in your room anymore?" 

"No, it just means that Sensei will probably be checking on us more often," I groaned, it's okay. Just two more weeks until we graduate. I can hold my temper that long, can't I? 

Deku nodded and followed me to my room and sure enough we had barely cuddled under the covers when he came to check, he usually only checks twice a night and considering how we were up almost all night you would think he would have gotten a fucking hint. 

Deku was texting away on his phone and honestly that kind of hurt a little considering how I thought our date went, I at least expected a few more kisses before going to sleep. 

"And done," he smiled up at me and I tilted my head confused but he just grinned more. "Don't worry about it, I just made plans for Aunty to pick us up after lunch." He smiled brightly and I couldn't help returning it, oh well. At least he wants to spend more time with me. 

***

"Kacchan we need to hurry Aunty will be here soon," Deku was shaking me awake and I groaned at the unpleasant feeling of waking up without him in my arms but sat up anyway. I let him tug me to my closet and he pushed a set of clothes into my arms before running out of my room so he could get dressed too. I came out of my room grumbling about not sleeping enough but made my way to the elevator anyway. When the doors opened downstairs Deku grabbed me and pulled me to the kitchen, still smiling brightly and telling me that I still needed to hurry. 

Deku apparently had raced down before me and made us waffles so a plate was pushed in front of me while he ran out of the room again. 

"Bro?" I looked up still rubbing the sleep out of my eyes only to see Kirishima staring. 

"What now?" I grumbled, still barely awake. 

"Where are you going dressed like that?" He pointed at me and for the first time I actually looked at what I was wearing. I am in a suit, a very fancy one at that, there wasn't a vest or a jacket but there was no arguing that this was formal wear, not business. It was a pearl white with bright red details. 

"Deku, what the fuck am I wearing and why?" I yelled out before he happened to run into the kitchen wearing a very similar outfit only black with green details. 

"Kacchan, Aunty is picking us up soon don't you remember?" He asked smiling and I looked at him like he was crazy. 

"Where in the fuck is she taking us that I'm wearing a fucking suit? No this is a tux isn't it? Where in the fuck did you even get this? How did you get me to put it on without noticing?" The questions were spilling out of me like water from a faucet but I don't care. I want some fucking answers. 

"Hmmm, well Momo helped by actually making the outfit and as far as if it is a suit or tux it's kind of a hybrid between the two," he smiled gently before smirking. "As far as you putting it on without noticing I don't have an answer for that sorry. I wasn't in the room." 

"Smart ass, WHY am I wearing it? Where the hell is the hag taking us?" He didn't answer that one for a minute, making me even more nervous. 

"We are getting pictures taken, is that so wrong?" He gave me a pitiful look that shot me through the heart. 

"I mean no, I just. Why didn't anyone tell me? I could have actually went out and bought an outfit," I tried to backpedal but his tears were getting heavier. "Nevermind, I'm sure it'll be fine." I quickly gave in but that didn't seem to help me. 

"You don't like it? I spent so long going over styles and designs trying to make sure that-," I kissed him. Give me a break for Christ sake! He is having a meltdown over a suit he picked out that we are getting pictures done in? That's it, just pictures. Why is he so upset? 

"Deku you're beautiful. Did you design yours too?" I tried a different approach but now he is blushing hard and he can't seem to get a word out so I just teased him instead. I kissed his cheeks and then the side of his neck, making him squirm and giggle until his unshed tears disappeared. 

"So why are we getting our pictures taken? Not that I mind, I would look amazing in a paper bag," I smirked and his whole face turned strawberry pink. "Pervert," I chuckled. 

"I wasn't thinking about it BEFORE you said it!" He whined in his defense but I just hugged him. I really am too lucky. 

"Please Kacchan, I've worked really hard on this surprise. Please don't ask any difficult questions," he begged, his eyes big as he looked up at me and I groaned in defeat. He is just way too cute. 

"Fine." I probably gave in far too quickly but Deku said it was a surprise that he set up so I just need to be patient. "Still getting me dressed before giving me waffles, dangerous game you're playing there." 

He laughed out loud at that. "Like you would ever get syrup on your clothes?" He was still laughing loudly but now he was just flirting. He really is too cute for this world. 

There was a long honk from outside getting Deku all excited and he was pulling me towards the door. "Aunty's here! Hurry we have to go!" leaving our classmates stunned and confused, I followed him. 

***