A week has past since I last talked to you. Today is the first day of school. I'm scared because I have no friends whatsoever. Out there... all alone? Will I be able to hold up? I can feel my stomach churning. I get myself dressed and head out the door.
My Mom told me to wait for the bus. As I wait over there, I see people talking to eachother like they've known eachother for real long.
Suddenly, I hear a voice behind me. "Oh, I've never seen you here before! Are you new?" A girl with long brown hair. "Oh, uhm... yeah." My voice is shaky. I hope she's not judging me. "Oh that's fine! I can show you where to go! What homeroom do you have?" "Uh..." I take a look at my phone "Mrs. Carter..." She takes a quick pause "Me too!" She's smiling really big... its scaring me.
The bus is here. I get on and go sit in the seat the driver told me to sit in. When I get to school, I look everywhere but can't seem to find my locker or the girl from earlier. I didn't even get to know her name. What a shame.
When I finally found it, I put my bag away, and rush to find my class.
All of a sudden, I trip on somebody. "Oh no, I-I'm so sor-" My eyes widen. He's... "Oh that's fine, here let me help you with that." He's helping me? He's... perfect...
As if snapping out of a trance, I scurry and pick up my books. "T-thank you!" I say loudly "Dont worry about it. My name is Michael. And yours is...?" How is he... so confident?
"Ah, yes, my name is... Silfiette. You can call me Silfie though." I say quietly "Nice to meet you, Silphie." He gives me a warm smile and walks off. I can't say that it doesn't make me feel all queasy inside. What is this feeling? I... I... want him all for me.
Oh... class started 2 minutes ago. I better hurry. I can't have a bad reputation on my first day... I run to my class and see the girl from earlier. I also see Michael in there too.
The lady in the front is talking... I guess shes the teacher. What was her name again? Mrs. Carter, right. "Class, we have a new student today. Please welcome her. Please introduce yourself." Ah, yes that's me. "Hi, m-my name is Silphiette, I hope I can become good friends with all of you.
"Go sit infront of Sarah. Sarah, please raise your hand. "The girl from the bus stop is raising her hand. I guess her name is Sarah.
During the whole class period I sleep and look out the window while listening to music. So boring. I practice using my voice all for this?
I like to watch Michael during classes. But I do catch him glancing at me time to time. Is it because I look weird? Why does he keep looking at me?
I put my head back to the desk and sigh. After class, I hear Sarah talking to me again. "Are you okay? All you did in class was sleep!" That sentence... reminded me of how criticizing my mom is... it makes me a little angry. "Oh. Right." I stand up "I'm going to use the restroom."
As I was going out of the room, I didn't realize that something was blocking the doorway. It was Michael. "S-sorry!" I said, reflexively. "Oh, do you have a knack for knocking into me? Haha!" He says teasingly. I laugh back nervously and scurry past him.
As lunch rolls around I sit alone until Sarah sits with me. She keeps talking. It's getting tiring. Who knew school was so tiring? We went back to class to hear the teacher go on and on about her lesson. Boring.
At free times, everybody seems to know everybody. It makes me feel so small. Whatever, I'll stick to drawing that I'm supposedly so good at. I dont see any talent in me though. I have been drawing a lot of fantasy lately. I like to just escape reality and just escape my problems. Even if it's just for a few moments.
When the bell rings, everybody leaves and enjoys their lives. But Michael stays after school for a club. I think it was the boys soccer team.
He offered to walk me home since we live in the same direction. I told him that he couldn't because I had to run out for some errands for Mom. After I came home, I made some instant noodles. I took a refreshing shower and went to sleep.