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Finally l reach my happy place.lt had been a tiring and boring day today,but l survived again somehow.
'l guess today am not going there.'
l opened my door and do the usual throw my bag in whichever spot and same goes to my jacket and sweater.
l throw myself in my fluffy soft bed as l get comfortable and let the vanilla scent settle on me as l hug my darling teddy bear.l toss around a couple of times.
A notification pops up in my phone which makes me reach out for it.
**♡Anniversary Day Attendance♡**
l throw away it away without a care where it will end up as l hug tightly my darling teddy bear.
"Teddy let's skip out tomorrow,it won't make a difference anymore whether am there or not.."silence grips me with its hard steel.
l feel the burning tears wanting to escape but l turn and look up at the ceiling to hold up my tears like l always do when l cried,l didn't want to show my weakness even though l was all alone in my room when darkness slowly crept in completely.
l loved the silence but did the silence love me?
This sort of random questions just pops up in my head sometimes but l try to ignore them.With me and my teddy it was already enough, l didn't need anyone else,they were to problematic to deal with.Humans emotions were the weirdest ones of them all which made me want....
l knocked my head in the nearest wall to get my shit back together.l think l hit it hard as blood was now ozzing from injured spot and making my eyesight blurry as l stared in that same position for a while as the moon shined beautiful that night and the silence still making a mockery of me.l actually laughed at the whole pathetic situation.
l touched the injured part again and looked at my small hand which was now covered in my own blood.
"What a lovely colour it is."