'Leave me alone!' I screamed, 'Leave me alone!' but he kept following me. I struggled to fight back the tears that were pouring out. 'Brittany, wait, please,' he said, grabbing my hand to stop me from going further. 'Just hear me out, Bee.' I finally stopped and turned around to look at him with tears still streaming down my face. He looked at me, obviously searching for the right words to say, but nothing came out. I freed my hand from his grip, and he didn't try to hold it back.
'What do you want from me?!' I cried out in frustration. I was pissed already and his silence was making me even angrier. He kept on looking at me, giving those eyes that made me yearn for him, he knew I loved it when he looks at me like that, but I was not having it, I was so mad and was boiling with rage. ' why the fuck are you quiet? say something!'
' I'm sorry.'
'well, I don't need it.'
'but I am, I did not mean for it to turn out like this' he said remorsefully. I knew he was sincere. ' Bee, you know I would never hurt you.' he said using his thumb to wipe off the tears on my face.
'But you did! you made me cry, in front of everyone. I'm pretty sure I meant nothing to you, just one of those girls you could have whenever you want.'
'Bee, no no no, please don't say that, you mean everything to me. you are not just anyone to me, you are special.' he said looking directly into my tear-filled eyes.
A part of me believed him, but I could not bring myself to accept that. All the trust I had for him was gone. I was a fool for trusting him knowing well the kind of person he was, I should have listened to my instinct rather than my heart. I was stupid to think I was any different from the girls I'd seen him with, but he had this unquestionable charm and I did not know when I lost myself to him. We've been friends since childhood, more like siblings, or that was what I thought until senior year when he told me my boobs looked bigger. I thought he was teasing me, but I found myself standing in front of the mirror longer than usual, no guy had ever given an honest compliment, so this one got into my head.
' I trusted you, Matt, I opened up to you, I even let you...'I started crying again. The memories were still fresh in my head and it made me cry the more. ' This whole thing was a mistake.' wiping my tears, ' and I am so glad it's all over, should have known better than to trust a player like you, you got what you wanted, I hope you are happy."
'Brittany that's not what this is....'
' Save it, I'm done listening. Please don't talk to me anymore, just stay away from me.' I turned around and walked without looking back, he didn't call me back and that was the last time I saw Matt.
Not until yesterday.