I can't look at him while he serves the most expensive drink at Hops Aleden Bar.
It's not because he's so silent the way I was silently sitting on the couch of the VIP 8 room but because of how Bea was keeping her gaze on me and him.
I know she can feel the uneasiness in me while sitting, putting my hands on my thigh as I tryna find my oxygen to breathe.
"Ah... Brother Cy, can I..." Bea said, trying to talk to the man.
He stopped putting the classic 90's beer on our table as his gazes turned to see Bea's.
"You're only allowed here until 10. No exceeding, Bea." He said. Coldly like he used to.
I can't speak. I just let Bea fight with her cousin while he was just looking at me intently.
Wait. what? To me?
"Brother Cy! I wanted to dance on the dancefloor later e! I'd like to enjoy just tonight!" I heard Bea asking.
More than how he was so just calm while his cousin were about to cry just to let her stay in here.
But I know, deep down on his expressionless eyes, The answer reveals itself.
"No. I said no Bea."
Yes. I'm right.
Bea scoffed, scratching her head as she was trynna finding the right words to say.
In the end I spoke. Not much as I think I would do. "Let her stay for awhile, C-Cox." I stated.
The fuck, when it's about him, I always stutter in the most stupid way.
He got colder. He looked at me darkly but that changed immediately when Bea spoke again.
"Brother Cy, You're really KJ if you don't allow me to stay hereat least late at night and one thing... You heard Scarlett, right? she will protect me I'm sure."
Of the son of the bitch why did this girl just state my name for her alibi?!
I wanted to walk away. if only I could make myself disappear like poof! And I'm gone,I WILL DEFINITELY DO IT!
But here's the thing, he's silent again and was just looking at me.
"How can you so sure that she will not gonna let anyone else to come near you here and on the crowded place?" Cox questioned.
I was stunned. I wish Bea will just gonna make it simple and realistic to hear.
She confidently smile and playfully curled her hair with the use of her fingers.
I was just here, almost swallowing non stop, feeling so nervous as I waited for her to say a word.
"Well, don't you know that this great friend of mine used to be the black belter on taekwondo straight when she's at elementary and secondary school? Of course I'm pretty sure she can kick them in the ass and break theirs bones in no time if they tried to harass me. Right, Bff?"
Bff-- best friend forever.
I almost fell off the couch I was sitting on when I heard Bea's reasons.
I looked at the girl and saw a happy smile on her face with a hint of confidence as she looked at Cy. She was waiting for Cy to reply.
I want to sink to the ground or leave suddenly so that I can avoid what Cycy might say after hearing from his cousin.
But what else can I do? I have to be quiet.
For sure Cox knows that! if only I could tell Bea that Cycy and I have been in the same class before but I couldn't! for a reason I don't know!
There is doubt in my heart. If Bea finds out that Cycy and I have met before, she might be surprised because Cycy and I are not as close as other classmates before who still smile at each other.
One more thing I am worried about, if Bea will know that Cycy and I were classmates before, for sure she will ask me a lot of questions about him and our pasts.
Which I definitely were trying to avoid.
If so, what story should I tell her then? About his bully era and me as his always target? Nah! I'm not going to do that.
I straightened my back. Trying to maintain my posture as Bea were just sitting like a swan in her red fitted bodycon dress, paired with a foreign design.
She looks extravagant and amazing.
She's really looking like a star she is!
"Don't think that I'll come when something happens to you, Bea Kim. You know your limit and it'll be your own way to solve it if there is." Cy said.
His voice were as deep as the ocean.
I immediately swallowed.
Does that mean he allows Bea to stay until she wants to here at Hops Aleden?
Maybe Bea means so much to Cycy that even his hard feelings are softened by Bea's soft voice and please.
Bea is more important.
It was obvious to every single Fevar I met at the party of how much they valued and listened to everything that Bea told them.
maybe it's because she's the only daughter of the Fevar brothers?
or more than that? whatever the reason, I'm happy with my friend and all the love she receives from people, her family, her fans and others she meets at work.
I remember the conversation that mom and I had when we woke up or before she even left the house.
And every time I leave the house. Every time I go to school and wherever I go, she always tells me that,
"Don't sulk at your father for a reason he didn't hold us accountable." she said.
"That he didn't choose to accompany us. The important thing is that in the future you need to secure yourself that you have someone who is ready to accompany you, and help you in times of trouble or in comfort. Choose someone who is always ready to accompany you in whatever the flow of life may be. Whether it's a friend or be your future husband..."
She continues.
"Or maybe someone that's just good to you. Always finds peace within yourself so that you will give that person peace too."
"Brother Cy. Before you left, Kuya Ethan called me. Did you talk to him already?" Bea asked.
I was brought back to reality when I heard Bea's voice.
Only then did I realize that I was losing my mind and that I was now thinking about mom again.
"He also wants to see Sca there at Uncle Frank's birthday. Maybe I could have her as plus one or a special guest. You should go too, Brother Cy!"
I wanted to face Bea but I was frozen in my seat by what I heard.
"I think Brother Ethan really wants to see and meet Sca more. He seems like he wants Sca. They're too good at each other too if I will be asked, right Brother Cy?"
I felt nervous in an instant. There was nothing in our conversation that Bea would refer me to her cousin Ethan and that she would ship us to one!
I want to run and leave to never see him again.
I was about to stand up but immediately, I heard his baritone and cold tone that stopped my steps.
Leaving my sanity goes insane.
"Ethan is a lawyer. He should have someone other to court." He replied.
Those words were few but they immediately hit my heart causing to its quick ache.
That's what I'm saying.
Cox will not really agree about on Bea's ship with me and his cousin, Ethan.
I got even weaker. Today was an unlucky day but it seemed to be even more unlucky from what I heard from him.
He really were saying and trying to slap me that I'm just a low class like he say.
That I feel it was really my level. I'm in a line of a jobless people now!
I can't seem to stop Bea's mouth from saying unexpected words.
That's why I faced the woman and spoke.
"Bea, I'm sorry but I can't stay here any longer. I have to go home because my meeting with the HR in—"
"Don't spit too much nonsense, Bea. You should start drinking it up and go back to the mansion." Cy said abruptly.
Cutting my words down the floor.
Bea turned her gaze to me and spoke.
"Wait what? Why? we haven't started yet here, Sca!" she said.
"Your friend says she's leaving. Meaning you have to leave too, Bea. I told you, there are many bastards in the bar who might harass you. And I'm not always here to come and save you." Cy stated.
About leaving the door when Bea spoke again.
"W-What? Hey, Sca! please don't leave!"
"I'm also confused, Brother Cy, Sca." she added.
Here we are, in her confusion that destroys dignity in no time.
Bea looked at me intently and I saw from my peripheral vision that Cy is breathing deeply from the door.
"Why were you together earlier in the Comfort room?"
Shit.