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I screamed so loud, but no one was able to listen. Maybe because it was left in my mind, just like the last thing I wanted to say you before it all ended. All the things that I had to tell you were left in my mind itself, and then the thing is that it vanished from my tongue, and I didn't really feel the need - like trying to remember what I was going to say. It's like a curse for me now but it's still fun to see you lying on the deathbed after all the things you did to me.
I need you to open your mouth and tell me what happened, Mr. Dead. Johnathan Crane, are you even dead for real, or is this another trick of yours? Like the first day we met.
Killers are pathetic, you said, but was I?
17 January 2021
It is COVID time, and no one really knows what they are doing. Lockdowns everywhere but not in my colony because certainly we maintaining the decorum good enough to not actually get COVID ? Well, it barely matters me because I don't leave my house even when everything is okay. The landscape from my villa looks good enough.
What was the use of being born into a rich family if I couldn't just stay whole day in my dad's gifted mansion?
It's not like I don't go outside. I do like clicking pictures, modelling, and publishing my novels, but I don't have many friends to actually stick with everywhere and also during my teen days, I used to go out for a lot of things like tuition, mixed martial arts classes, shooting, etc., but anyways, let's get to the main topics and let me say that I love myself very much, and now I need someone else to love.
After I got everything done from CUNY- Johan jay collage of criminal justice well I didn't really feel the need to continue my soldier kinda routine. Imagine waking up at 4 am and studying the whole day except for the 6-hour time break so i became a bit more lazy but still my body is fit and I am doing everything but something is missing.
26 years old , single , happy , criminal psycologist, writer, model, and what do we need more?
Oh i got a new neighbour , Wearing a suit- seems like a way of presenting himself in a certain way. It projects a sense of professionalism, class, and sophistication from him.
Looks confident, competent, knowledgeable, and powerful, but who knows.
He is wearing a white button-up shirt and a purple tie with it. The tie is a single band from his neck down to his pant line with a knot of course. His pants are blue, but the shade is quite light with a faded look. His shoes are light grey and they match his pants in shade. He gives off the vibes of the character like he knows what he is doing and that everyone should listen to him.
Interesting because no one actually wears this in daily life anymore. Can he be a professor returning from his teaching? I look at the time while thinking about all of this, and I close the curtains so that I can shut my mind from him and go back to the story I was writing about. Wait, it was a murder, right?uhhh.
I opened the door after 3 hours when I heard a bell ring and looked at the invitation to Crane's housewarming party... thinking what i should wear I chose a blue dress and looked at the time 30 mins left and i spent it while dressing to impress.....I was wondering if he has the same interest in me by the way he made a eye contact as i walked towards his house....I saw him from the window.
He looked at the time and saw that guests were starting to arrive.
He got up and went to the door where he put his new idea into work.
As the guests started arriving they saw something unusual. There was a sign that said: "Quiz! Test your skills at knowing and understanding other people".
"Amazing idea....interesting." I said taking a wine in my hand as i enter and he was very delighted towards my reaction. I was intrigued.
Now he wanted to watch how i would do it and see the results.
He smiled. People were getting more interested by the second. In a few minutes there were already five guests waiting for their turn to try the quiz.He was amazed. His idea seemed to be very successful and a lot of people were engaged in it. Someone asked him if he would mind to explain about the questions so he went to the front of everyone and the guests stopped their conversation and looked at him.
"Of course. This is all very simple actually. All you gotta do is write your answers on the piece of paper and you are all set. The questions are about people and how we can better learn about them. It's a personality puzzle which will allow you to understand how everyone is thinking. You will learn much more by the questions than you think." He stopped announcing and waited for anyone to ask any questions.There were many who looked interested in this quiz. Everyone looked like they wanted to write down their information and see if it was correct.
A woman raised her hand.
"Can I ask how you came up with the questions?"
"I spent some time doing research regarding human psychology and their habits. I also incorporated some tests that psychologists use when they analyze patients. But... even though those are good, I wanted to make something more unique, something that would be the main point of this party.
I wanted to make something that wasn't the same as others. Maybe... just maybe that would be enough to attract someone special here."
This was his answer and it looked like a hint at the same time. He took a deep breath and walked towards me.
"Hello Ms. Ash. I bet you will be the first one to try this quiz. Would you like to be the first to test it out? I have to warn you that it might take a while until you write all the answers and that it's not just one or two answers at the start. There are many questions regarding psychology and I hope you will like it. It's supposed to be very interesting."
"What's the first question then ?" I was excited.
He pointed at the top question.
"The first question is..."
He took another deep breath before continuing.
"Do you think it's possible to understand someone's personality from just one conversation?"
"Yes" I was writing answers off instantly.
"When you see 2 strangers talking and one of them says something you don't know about, what would you do?" He spoke the second question....we both say together while the other people seemed to be busy with their own talks again.
" just listen it and try to comprehend what they are talking about otherwise if it gets boring then I move on to talk with other people." I wrote it and he was reading my answers while I was writing.He pointed at the next question:
"If someone told you that they didn't like you, how would you respond?"
"I will do nothing well people got different perspectives about people if there are people who like me then ofcourse there are people who are going to dislike...it doesn't means that I am gona waste my time on them" I was not thinking so much ..I was writing right way.
"So far you have some very interesting responses. I have one last question though and I wonder how you are going to respond.
If someone you liked didn't like you back, how would you react?"
It's good that he was making me write this ....felt like he knew that i won't be able to answer like this from my mouth.
"why do I need to react upon it when I can certainly get someone better and there is no way a person I like doesn't likes me back." I was very confident with my answers.
He looked me in the eyes.
"I would say that you are much sharper and smarter than others might think. You are very practical and rational when it comes to your thinking. In personal relationships you care more about how you feel than how others feel.
Also you seem like a patient person that doesn't get upset easily.
Am I right about this?"
Yep quite normal to get this well...I was thinking this in my mind but instead i thought to shut up and just ask him what else did he discover. "Sure also tell me more about what u got to know about me like continue the character analysis..I want to catch u being wrong."
"Okay then, let's continue. So... based on your first answer I would say that you are quite independent. You usually don't like to rely on other people and you are a person who takes things in your own hands.
You like to figure out solutions yourself instead of relying on others and you don't like to be dependent on someone.
How is it so far? Did I get anything wrong yet?"
"Not really...tell me more."
"Okay then. I would assume that you don't like to take any kind of advice from anyone. You feel like you can solve your problems on your own and don't like outside interference."
Wow well that's good that he understood this very fast. I nodded "Continue."
He thought for a moment before he continued.
"Based on your answers and also the way you came in... I would say you don't really like to be around too many people. That is especially true when there are strangers involved, like this party.
You like to have a few people around you but at this level of socializing you don't feel the best. I can only guess that you don't talk much when you are not confident in your social skills?"
Wait so he was observing me since I came in....just the way I was?
"Yes....keep going on....."
He smiled. It seems that he is starting to get my personality right and it made him happy.
"Now for the last one, let me guess. You are someone that doesn't like to open up quickly to other people.
When you are at events you mostly like to listen to what other people say before you start talking. You are a much better listener than a talker.
How does this sound?"
"Right enough"
He smiled back.
"I guess I was right on the money for the most part. You are a very reserved individual.
But that makes it even more mysterious and fascinating to study people like you. There is always something new that can be discovered."
He was quite proud of himself after this analysis.
"I would agree well what's even your occupation Mr Crane?" I realised that i only knew something hints about you and I needed to know more.
He smiled.
"Oh wow... That was quite a nice question. I actually didn't think that someone would ask me about myself.
I am a psychologist and I specialize in human behavior. I study how people's mind operates and how we can interact more effectively with each other.
What do you do, Ms. Ash?"
I answered "I am a psycologist as well and the way you spoke everything and prepared it all felt like you already know my profession.....i also do writing and modeling." *fun fact that he did already know about her seemed like he was aswell intrested? Maybe no?*
He kept smiling after my answer.
Now he did see that he was on the right track. Felt like you knew that even i knew how to read people.
Now he was starting to think how he was going to keep the conversation going with her.
"So you are a psychologist, writer and also do modeling? That's very interesting.
Can I ask you which field you focus more on in the psychology area?"
"Criminal psycology....what about you ? Are you a professor?"
"Well, yes, I teach at a university in Gotham City. I have taught criminal psychology for many years now and I know a lot about it.
It's an extremely fascinating field of study and I have had many interesting cases.
But... I don't like to brag about it.
I don't want people to think that I am only someone that teaches that. It's not all what I feel like a psychologist. It's just work after all."
He waited for me to ask another question to keep the conversation going but i didn't.
So he took the risk and asked another thing.
"May I ask you a personal question now?" I was listenings "Yes."
"So are you single?"
"Yes and what about you?."
"Yes, I am single too. Though not really interested in something at the moment.
Does that make your position better or worse?" He took a drink up.
"What do you mean and We how is this possible for you to be so charming and single ?" I said.
He laughed.
"Oh, I guess there is just something wrong with me.And I meant that you seem like a very interesting girl and you have many good traits.
Yet you are still single.
I guess that makes me a bit more confident. If you can't find anyone to date then neither can I."
He was joking of course. He believed that he could actually do quite alright if he tried. I giggled a bit with his answer though....so cute anyways I asked him another question
"What do you think about criminals?"
That was a good question. She wanted to know what he actually thought and for once he was fine with saying it.
"Well... I believe most criminals have a lot of things in common. They come from broken families for the most part. I wouldn't necessarily say they are bad persons. Just ones who never had the right guidance yet they are pathetic."
"Why?"
"Because they are caught easily. If they could get away with it, they wouldn't be nice about it.
I don't like criminals. I think the way they act and think is pathetic.
But at the end of the day, they are still people. I wouldn't like to forget that.
At least not all are the same."
"Killers too?"
*He thinks for a second, thinking of how to respond to my question. He has a history of catching murderers, and his response is confident*
"You may get away with a few murders if you know what you're doing. But eventually, your luck will run out. You may be careful the first few times, but eventually, you'll slip up and create a trail that leads me right to your doorstep."
"What if we fall in love ?" Gosh the drinks are affecting me now....i didn't realise that I drank 7 glasses.He lets out a small chuckle, he found this whole interaction hilarious right now. He's a little surprised though
"Are you saying you love me?"
"No, I meant what if we fall in love someday ?"
He nods and smirks, he is starting to understand me better now. He speaks in an amused tone
"Well, maybe we could fall in love. We don't know if we will, but it's a possibility...."
"That's amazing" It was just 10.00 pm in the clock as i saw it...how can I get drunk by 7 glasses ? That's impossible....there is something to be mixed in it.
*He chuckles and gives a small laugh as he notices how drunk i was getting. He speaks a bit more calmly but with the same amused tone*
"Hmm, I see. Seems like you're feeling a little more loose right now. Don't be afraid to be honest, miss Ash, you won't get in trouble...i didn't know u were this lightweight"
We talk about a whole lota things in between he left for saying goodbye to the guests who were leaving but he gave me a special treatment by sitting with me the whole time. There was a kid who was gona fall over me but he caught him and stopped him from falling with the coke in his hand....
*He looks down and realizes that during all of this teasing, one of his hands subconsciously reached out to her waist. It was just muscle memory, but he felt a little bit embarrased to have touched her here when she's drunk*
"Apologies, my hands just go where they need to without me thinking about it."
*He realizes his body language shows that he likes being around her, and this is one example of that. He needs to stay vigilant and not let his attraction towards her overtake control afterall he did alot of things behind the screens too like researching about her before inviting...a good thing tho.*
*He notices how she slightly shivered at his touch, he can't help but be slightly intrigued by this. Was she feeling slightly turned on by the touch? That was strange, since his touches have never had this effect on any woman before. But that might be because she's drunk. He takes his hand away and he realizes just how drunk she's really getting, the slurred talking and the sudden shiver at his touch are just the cherry ontop to a perfect night. His interest grows slightly towards her..He notices her blush after she feels his touch on her waist. His hands instantly snap back to the side as his eyes widen and his mind is trying to process what just happened. He is definitely attracted to her, and she seems to be reciprocating this attraction, although he can't quite tell.*
Bruh did he caught me off guard?
"Just be careful, drinking makes you much more susceptible to being taken advantage of. Do not put yourself in a situation this drunken state where someone could do very bad things to you. You know that at your state of mind, you are very submissive and can be easily tricked into doing things you would not want to agree to normally." He breaks the eye contact and makes it again.
"Why would you take advantage of me?" I said jokingly.
"I am the most dangerous man you know, I could easily do a lot of things to you from this state of mind you're in. So definitely, I would absolutely take advantage of your drunken state."
I answer then "Today?"
I didn't realise but other people had started to leave.
He gives a small smirk
"Yes tonight. If you continue to drink more at this rate, I'd say I'll take advantage of you sometime within the next hour."
*He laughs a little bit, but the way he's saying this, it's almost as if he is speaking facts. He isn't joking like he always has before, but he is still not serious either.*
"So what will you do ?"
*His smirk grows a little bit. The fact that she's playing along with him only makes it more interesting to watch her reaction. But this time he doesn't have a joking answer, he will not play by the previous script for her to laugh off his answer. He is quite amused by this turn of events though, even though it's a very sudden change to the conversation, he is still quite giddy about this. He answers her question with a hint of sarcasm in his voice*
"You'll see, why don't you keep drinking and find out?"
"Take the advantage then."
*He watches her drink more. Does she realize what she's getting herself into? She seems to be enjoying this, seeing how she's not reacting much to his words. Maybe that's just the alcohol causing all of this, or maybe she really did want this after all. He is quite intrigued by how this might turn out. He's excited to see what will happen when she gets very drunk, how far will she go? Will she stop before she becomes completely vulnerable? He will watch to find out.He looks around and notices how empty the room is now. It looks like he is so focused on talking to her, he forgot that he is the host of the party. He smiles a bit to himself and returns his gaze back towards her*
"Guess most of them left now. It's just me and you in this room, which is good and bad I guess, depending on how one looks at it."
*He sees that her clothes are slightly revealing, and he wants to push this conversation just a bit more without coming off as creepy. But it would be unfair to not give a truthful answer in this moment, so he speaks in a slightly playful tone*
"It is quite tempting to take advantage of you right now, seeing how you're the most drunk you've been so far, and it's making you more and more vulnerable."
*He stops himself there, his brain is telling him to not continue with this banter, as it may go too far and he may actually make a move on her. But it feels so natural to keep the conversation going, it's as if a higher power is pushing him to continue. He doesn't know if it's him that's pushing this or not, but the temptation to continue the playful banter is too much to fight against. He wants to tell her how he feels in this moment, but his heart is beating way too fast to even know how he himself feels*
"It's your last chance well then." I understood that I was too drunk but who cares?...
*He takes a deep breath after he kissed her, the feeling was incredible. Her lips were soft and sweet, and it was obvious that he was really enjoying this. He keeps kissing as he is grabbing her waist. He gets more and more passionate, his lips working their way to her neck. Her neck was soft and sweet, almost like honey. He was going crazy, this feeling, that's all he could think of right now. Every touch, every taste, every sensation was more electrifying than the last. He couldn't get enough of her...it was unpredictable well....I didn't expect him to do this in real but i allowed him to continue after that.
He smiles as he realizes this. They are completely alone now as the curtains were closed and all the other guests had left....he didn't even care about saying them much ...he just said them bye, he has full control over the situation. He has the power to do whatever he wants now. He slips down her dress, enjoying every single inch of skin he exposes from her. That feeling was so exciting, he kept going lower and lower, exposing more and more. His hands explore every spot he exposed, and his kisses followed suit. He was enjoying this beyond words at this point she was in bra and underwear now....they got up to the stairs and reached his bedroom...he pushed her on the bed and took off his tie then he crawled up to her.He looks at her now completely unclothed and he was speechless. He could not remember the last time he was this turned on, he could not believe how hot she was right now. Her body was so incredible, he had not realized this before until it was right in front of him. He stares at her body and he gets more and more excited, he wants to take her right now. Everything was perfectly set for them to have the most amazing night. Their emotions were elevated by the alcohol, and now that they were completely alone, it was as if they could do whatever they wanted, no restrictions whatsoever. He pulls her close and his body is completely on hers, as is his mind. He takes in the coldness of the room, as he looks down at her, taking it all in.He leans in to feel the movement of her waist, it felt good to him. He continues to do it again and again, finding it quite enjoyable. He leans further down and begins to press his lips on her neck again. His movements were becoming more and more aggressive, but for him, it was becoming very hard to control himself. He was too intoxicated and he could not think properly, but something deep inside him told him to keep going. The way she was moving her waist felt incredible, it was sending his brain wild with desire....she moaned...The moan of pleasure was a beautiful sound to his ears. He was so excited by this whole interaction, he felt a sensation he never was able to feel beforehand. The sounds she was making were sending his body into a frenzy. He didn't care about himself right now, he was so focused on feeling every inch of her. He was kissing her neck aggressively at this point, biting her softly every few kisses before returning to regular kisses.He was so turned on and he was getting more and more passionate as the interaction continued. He continued to press his body into hers, every movement she made triggered a reaction from him. He started to move his hands up to her breasts now, caressing the curves and the shape of her body. . The sensation was overwhelming and extremely thrilling.He was squeezing her breasts now, he could not take his hands off of her. He didn't want to ever leave her body. His kissing became more aggressive, his movements more rapid. The feeling was just so good and he felt like he was just in heaven, every second he spent with her body was more and more satisfying. He didn't know how he felt about this whole situation, all he knew was that he was enjoying this immensely. He was squeezing her body tighter and tighter, pressing his body completely against her. His motions became more assertive and he felt like he was starting to lose control. He kept going, giving her body more and more attention. He was feeling so good and the fact that she was enjoying it as well made it even more addicting. He was losing control of himself, and he was starting to give into his feelings and instincts. She was just too good to him, he wanted to keep touching and feeling her body for as long as possible. He starts to explore other parts of her body, she is now just completely submissive to him. She is his to do whatever he wants with. He goes down her body, exploring every inch of her. His hands move slowly and methodically down her body, touching her everywhere he can. It is the perfect situation, no one can stop him or interrupt what is happening right now. He is enjoying every second of this, and he is feeling more attached to her with each stroke.*
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Note- Don't worry ..... it's gona continue in the next chapter....