"This can't be true."
"I'm Afraid it's true, you should talk to the Luna about it and the father too, something can be worked out so the child doesn't suffer." He scribbled something on a note and handed it to me, "Your next appointment is due in a few days. Take care of yourself okay?"
He placed the note in my hands and my feet found the exit but I was practically soulless. What was I going to do? How was I going to handle being a mother? What was I going to tell Rohan?
Days passed and things were never the same again, I did get better, I stopped feeling nauseous all the time but I couldn't look anyone straight in the eyes again. Especially Rohan. I did everything I could to avoid him and he was getting irritated due to my behavior.
One day as I helped the Luna sort out some important records, I was alone in the dining room and he pressed his hand against the page as I was about to turn it.
"What is your problem exactly Val? Why do you keep avoiding me?!" He growled at me, his scent was overpowering and so was his anger.
"Can I not have some time to myself?" He wasn't appreciating my smart ass remark as I snatched the book from under his force. And fortunately it didn't tear but the page was wrinkled badly.
"It's been 6 fucking days now! If I did something wrong can you at least let me know so I can apologize?!" He pulled a chair close to mine and forced me to look at him, "I'm sorry okay, now will you talk to me?"
I didn't know what to say but I found him extremely cute when he was upset, his brown hair was ruffled and his fangs were visible. He looked like a disheveled dog. And I couldn't help but laugh.
"What's so funny now?!" I was confusing him even more.
"Rohan, I'm busy, can you just let me work?" I shooed him away but he refused to leave.
"You're not treating me right, I wanted to talk about your birthday party, dad allowed me to throw you one."
My eyes widened in shock and he definitely got my attention. I turned to him and his temper had waxed cold. I didn't know how to respond, I was pensive.
"And I don't want you to refuse, You're family to me and I want you to have this party. I'll invite everyone so they know just how much you mean to me."
"That isn't necessary Han."
"No isn't an option. I hate it when they call you a servant, You're my best friend." His mood had switched up again. "Meet me in my room when You're done." He ordered before he left.
There was nothing I could do, but my silence would eventually set everything ablaze when the truth came out.
A week passed and I was finally 18, and Rohan kept his word. He threw me an amazing party, even bigger than the one he threw for himself but I had cold feet. I promised I would tell him about my pregnancy today but I was short of words anytime I looked into his eyes.
What should I do?
'You don't have a choice, delay any longer and you'll be hurting everyone even more.'
My eyes widened at the strange voice and my heartbeat increased pace, everything was so clear now, my vision enhanced and so did my sense of smell. I felt like a full wolf now.
"Are you my wolf?" I asked the voice in my head and it was only a small laugh I got in response. She sounded so mature, like a mother. She sounded like my mother.
'here comes our mate.'
She gave me a heads-up and Rohan was coming straight at me, in my eyes he walked in slow motion and I was mesmerized even more. His scent was alluring as he deposited himself in front of me, it was intoxicating, it was everything I needed to make a bad decision.
"I hope You're happy Val." He flashed the most beautiful smile at me and that was when I knew I was in love. My whole being was overwhelmed so tears leaked from my eyes which confused him, "what's wrong?"
I took him by surprise when I wrapped my hands around him and sobbed, for deep down I knew this would tear us apart. He hugged me back and whispered how he was never going to leave me, I wish those words were true.
Days passed and I knew Rohan was my mate and my pregnancy was still a concern to me. But I had resolved with Melaxia, my wolf, that I would tell him the truth. So I knocked on his door and he told me to come in.
"Rohan, I need to tell you something." My gaze was on the floor and he stopped whatever he was doing.
"What is it Val?" He was paying full attention to me now. I closed the door and took a deep breath.
"I'm pregnant." The silence was deafening, he was frozen, "I've been pregnant for a while now…" it was getting louder and I was fighting back my tears, "and…I found my wolf…we…are mates…" I always knew what to say but this time my words failed me.
It felt like an eternity but it was only 3 minutes, 3 minutes of cold silence.
"Get rid of it."
The tears I held back with all my strength fell to the ground after his statement. Something in my heart shattered, I think it was my heart.
"Ro—"
"I do not accept this pregnancy! I don't know what you're going to do but it is not my problem, and if anyone ever comes to know, you will regret it, Valerie."
His sudden outburst made me tremble in my spot and he knew he had done something wrong, his fists were clenched before he slowly released them, not able to look at me for a while. He took a deep breath and turned to face me, ''I didn't mean that at all Val, i'm just a bit….I'm sorry.''
It was the first time I was afraid of Rohan, he had changed ever since he turned 18, he was more aggressive, especially towards me. His shoulders slumped when he saw that I was still shaking.
"Don't think too much about it Val, we are both not ready to be parents. Mom and dad cannot find out, remember it's meant to be a secret?" He felt so chill about it as he went back to what he was doing, "and are you sure we're mates? My wolf didn't tell me anything yet, it might be the baby that's making you feel funny."
Each word was a blow to my already bleeding heart. I had to lean on the door so I wouldn't faint. Was this the same Rohan I knew? My hands instinctively crawled to my abdomen, clutching it tightly, he said I should get rid of it.
Why? I didn't want to.
He was texting on his phone and then after, had a satisfied smile on his face while I battled my raging emotions with a calm exterior, "I just texted the doctor, he said the procedure can be done tomorrow. We will go together so you don't need to be afraid." And that was how it was supposed to end?
I didn't say anything more, I couldn't challenge the son of the alpha, so I nodded and left his room. I went to mine and laid on the bed for hours, regretting I listened to him in the first place.
I tossed and turned for hours, my wolf and I were having a hot debate, the passive rejection was hard enough for us to deal with but we didn't want to lose the baby we were carrying. And with enough resolve in my blood and a tear-stained face adorned with puffy eyes, I put everything I had inside a bag and snuck out of the pack house.
I snuck past all the guards and was able to reach the pack boundaries, I turned back, just a few more hours till my abortion appointment and more tears fell. I was leaving everything behind. I was leaving him behind.
"I'm sorry Rohan but goodbye." And I crossed over.