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If she had taken the pill, she wouldn't be facing a pregnancy now.
It was all her own fault. If she had taken the matter more seriously at the time, and bought the pill in time, she wouldn't have received such a report now.
She couldn't help but think of Mr. Shangguan, the man she might never meet again in her lifetime. Even if she did, she might not recognize him, since the lighting that night was too dim for her to see his entire face clearly.
She could not possibly raise this child alone; she had no choice but to give up.
An Xiaomian took a deep breath, fought back her fear, and after standing at the door for a while, she turned and walked into the hospital. She found the same doctor and said softly, "Doctor, I'd like to make an appointment to have the surgery done in the next couple of days."
The doctor looked at her with an expression that seemed to say she knew An Xiaomian would return and coolly said, "Make sure you've thought it through. If you've decided, I'll have time tomorrow; you can come in for the surgery then."
"...Yes, I've decided. Doctor, what time should I come for the surgery tomorrow?" An Xiaomian couldn't bear to give birth to a child destined not to have a father, one she couldn't raise on her own. Since she couldn't provide everything good for this child, she shouldn't bring the child into the world. It wasn't responsible to have a child without a father without being fully prepared.
Although she still felt uncomfortable, she had made her decision.
So, the doctor gave her a time: "Come at 9 a.m. tomorrow morning; I'll have time then to perform the surgery. But you should go pay now. Once you've paid, we can schedule you in for tomorrow. If you pay tomorrow, you might have to wait a few more days."
"Okay, thank you for your trouble tomorrow, doctor. I'll go pay now." An Xiaomian nodded and then left the doctor's office. After searching for a bit, she found the payment window and started queuing up behind.
After waiting for a long while and explaining her situation, amidst several curious glances from those nearby, she signed her name without looking sideways, paid a sum of money, took the receipt, and went straight to the restroom.
In the restroom, she closed the door, sat on the toilet, and her eyes inevitably reddened. She covered her face with her hands and tears silently began to flow.
The charging nurse had told her that she should rest for a week after the surgery and recuperate her health, or her body might develop complications.
But she was well aware that she could not ask for more leave from school, nor could she be absent from her grandmother's side for too long. She needed to visit her grandmother every day and talk to her.
This matter, she couldn't tell her grandmother, nor could she tell anyone else she knew.
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That night, An Xiaomian did not leave the hospital, but stayed in her grandmother's ward to accompany her. To keep it a secret from her grandmother the next morning, she pretended she was going to class before getting up and leaving.
She had to ask for three days off, even though it meant facing the teacher's scolding, but she had to consider her own health.
Therefore, after everything was ready, An Xiaomian went to the same doctor's office early in the morning around seven to queue up.
When she thought about having the abortion soon, she always felt uneasy, but she had no other choice.
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