This question hit Nan Mengqian right in her heart!
Even though she had "killed" the painful past, once touched, even breathing felt like needles pricking her throat.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to be like this to you, but before I can explain why my emotions took a twisted turn at 26, I need you to understand that we never truly killed our former selves. Our bodies are constantly renewing, our thoughts are being changed, and our emotions, especially family love, the 9-year-old you, the you of today, can't forget that person you cherish the most..."
"You say Xia Wenqiong doesn't exist."
"But Aunt Xia told me, sometimes we run away, just so that the person who's about to leave, and those in heaven, can see that, even without them, we can live well. The growth and maturity we show are just to set their hearts at ease. If we could choose, we'd still want to be carefree children who cry when saddened and laugh when happy..."