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Chapter 145 - Little Crow.

I think...

I need to apologize.

I need to let you know.

That I've realized,

With a bit of time,

That I needed to just let you go.

That you needed your wings to grow.

Like I needed that love to show...

Maybe separate now 

Is for the far later greater 

Because when it's organic, you'll know...

My little crow.

I've come to see now 

That my love for you was more like a cage...

That I skipped a few chapters,

Moving way too fast, yeah..

I flipped past half of all of your pages...

It was me who kept you there

I wasn't your type...

I just wanted your hand

Hoped you would see the hype...

You told me more than once

That we should just be friends

I just wanted you so bad

I couldn't let it end.

Couldn't let it break...

Couldn't let it bend...

Our love languages were so different 

I couldn't comprehend...

I couldn't love you how you needed,

But I couldn't walk away.

I just couldn't be defeated,

And you would not sway.

That's okay.

It's okay.

It was my fault, okay?

I just thought that I needed you

What more can I say?

And our love was...different.

Forbidden in ways

That it should have been 

Beautiful...

So many days

When I thought about you

You know?

After the break-up 

I didn't know who to go

To just to get out the pain 

That was new, 

You know?

My little crow.

It was you,

You know?

Regardless of all of the pain I went through,

you know? 

I'm still breathing.

I know it's hard, but I hope you are too, you know?

Just stick to your path 

And stay true to your soul, you know?

I had to leave,

Just to let you know.

Wait.

Stop.

I had to leave,

Just to let you go.

Heart

Dropped.

1000 degrees 

That I had to freeze

Just to save my soul.

I gasped and wheezed...

I had to cut me

Just to make it work.

Down on my knees.

Begging for sleep,

I know how it hurts. 

When it comes to light and dark

Separate is always better...

Sometimes they will rub at the seams

But they can't stay together...

A candle in the wind will only just continue to burn...

If I can't close that window, I won't last the storm.

Shit, I meant I'll never learn.

Shit, I meant I'd never leave...

I never cared for the rain,

But at least it was falling on me...

I'm sorry that It took me so long to see

That my love was the one thing that you didn't need.

And I'm sorry that I didn't see

That you needed those wings

Because I thought that you needed me. 

I didn't need you to free me,

I was the gilded lock all along.

I also held the key,

So I could never see I was wrong. 

I'll leave it at that...

So here's to dear you:

I wish you the best at whatever you do.

I hope that you find all the love 

And the wishes 

And wonder

And all of your dreams can come true.

As long as you know,

That you'll always be my 

Little crow...