I'm not the luckiest girl in the world, my whole life has been upside down. My parents don't want me anymore, they say my birth was a mistake. So yeah, I'm neglected.
There have been many times in my life when I wished I could just disappear, when I wished I was never born.
My story isn't very entertaining, my life is just one routine, and I don't intend on changing it. My life is so messed up that I don't even know where to start in cleaning the mess, so I just live in it.
I've just been given admission to study computer science at NYU.
This was supposed to be a celebration considering I'm the only one in my family to get admission through merit, but no, my parents only laughed and said I was lucky enough to get admission but won't be lucky enough to graduate. I don't blame them, after all, I'm not the most intelligent kid in my class, and I never wanted to study computer science. Maybe I was just lucky.
I finished my clearance and have already started lectures. At first, it was a bit different from my high school life. I lag behind in every lecture because it all seems like Greek to me. I always wonder how I'm going to cope, but I keep trying.
My parents always try to discourage me when they see me reading, and most times I fall for it. It was becoming alarming, so I rented an apartment near the school to focus, but focusing is hard because I also do some handwork and a part-time job to earn money. Balancing them has been really hard.
I don't go to church because I stopped believing in God at an early age. I believe He has nothing to offer me anymore. Don't get me wrong, I've prayed, but nothing happened, so I decided that instead of waiting on some make-believe, I'll make a way for myself, and that's how it has been ever since.
Things have really been hard for me. I've got no one to talk to, basically because I don't trust anyone and I don't like people's company. So I don't have many friends—no, I don't have any friend. I'm a loner, just me and myself.
Well, that's all there is to know about me.