I hope somewhere in a parallel world I am not the person who I am in this world. I feel useless with every step I take. I feel like they pretend to like me. I am not the one to be looked up on. This world doesn't need me and I feel like I don't need this world.
I am keeping on repeating the cycle of waking up, make myself ready for the day and just go and do the same things. Whenever I try to do something new with the sudden motivation I get nothing new comes of it. Everything just turns out the same as it was before. Giving up after trying just a few times. Its difficult for everyone, I know that. Its difficult to be the person they think you are.
I hope it changes one day and I hope I will be as happy I think I will be in my imagination.
As I was walking carelessly to get to my work a voice comes from left direction of my ear
" Umm hello do you know where can I find hotel 5D?" a girl beautiful as a night sky filled with stars, hair falling below her shoulder, dressed in white asked me for direction.
I am not an introvert but I still have hard time talking to a stranger. When with my friend its different as I am open to talk with them.
"Umm on the left maybe?" as I tried to put on and awkward voice and smile while trying to look calm.
She looked at me with a slight smile on her face and said " Oh thank you." And left.
She went to the direction I told her. I was trying my best not to smile more awkwardly as people kept staring at me. I wonder why?
( It was become he was not walking like a normal human being. He forgot how to walk!)
" Here I am… sigh" as I reach my work place. From outside it's a tall building, looks beautiful, I don't know how even I am suppose to describe my work place.
Maybe I can indeed describe it as a place where every human being is a machine. I never wanted to work here anyways. I wanted to be an animator and write story like makoto shinkai, I wanted to draw things like yusuke murata. I still am drawing, trying. Why am I even here….
" ZUN!" A person panicking ran towards me.
" HUH!, bikar?" I became startled
" BOSS HE HE…." As my coworker/friend was about to speak. A loud deep angry voice came from my boss's chamber.
"YOU CALL THIS A WORK!!!!!"
I think something broke inside his office because the yelling was so loud it might even break the speed of sound.
A coworker shivering and crying came out of the office.
I wanted to ask what happened
" Zun boss… boss saw your work and I think he is not happy with your work."
As I heard those words my heart dropped. It came down to my butt and left from that opening.
My boss Asahi shun is a hardworking person, he will do whatever to get this company to the top. Well lets just say he is not the type of person to take kindly of bad works and mistakes.
" It was good knowing you" I shed a single tear and said a dramatic goodbye to my friend thinking I am done for. I am fired for sure.
"ZUN TAKASHITA COME TO MY OFFICE!!!" I became more sure that I was going to be fired.
I closed my fist as hard as I can and entered his office. A flying piece of documents came flying towards me as soon as I entered his office.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY YOU COULDN'T CREATE A LAPTOP THAT WORKS AS A PROJECTOR AND CAN BE FOLDABLE LIKE A MOBIE PHONE!!!" His eyes were about to pop out from anger. He slammed his desk so hard there was a crack on the table.
"But boss it has only been 2 months, I cant come up with something so complex in 2 months." Scared to death I am surely done for that's what I was thinking.
"IT ALREADY BEEN 3MONTHS!!!" His face was about to explode from anger.
Sometimes I think he might be overreacting to stuff. I put great amount of effort for my work. But to build a portable laptop that works as a projector as well. HOW????
He thinks we should sell create something in an instant.
The company I work for sells weird electronic stuff and with that also provides health insurance as well.
I was given a project 2 months ago to make a laptop that is foldable upto size such that it fits a pants pocket, a projector that can even project what I am seeing in my laptop in thin air.
"YOU ARE FIRED!!!"
I knew it was coming. He was never happy with the effort and work I put in my project. He didn't even like the idea I put up.
I walked out of his office to collect my stuff from my box. People were staring at me.
"Hey I am sorry to hear that Zun." my coworker came to comfort me.
"Hey don't cry you will get a better job than this I know for sure"
Bikar thought I was crying. Little did he know I was silently laughing within myself. My body was shaking from trying to hold my laugh.
I took the stuff that belonged to me and walked straight out of the building.
"How beautiful is the sky today" As I looked upon the a blue and bright sunny sky.
"This is it! This is what I needed! An escape from my workplace to start chasing what I want!"
I called my parents and said I have been fired from my shitty workplace.
They had all kind of emotions thinking a bout what will become of my future.
But no one knew about what was about to happen. What change will come to my world? What will I become?
I hope this is the parallel world I hoped for!